I love to be satisfied. And I love to be eager for more!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

I have been quite touched by your situation POE when I read it last night, it makes me contemplate a lot about being the "creator" and how much real power we have to change everything...and what is the best way to utilize it. What is the balance between changing things and accepting us where we are...

I also thought maybe Source Energy is inviting you to do more "private work" without sharing it here on forum in these few days that You will be away... some sort of reset button from everything including peanut gallery here.. and your current patterns... my biggest creation/allowing came when I was "doing work" in the privacy of my heart, and connecting with "God within".

I think I might have dreamt you tonight.

Wish you alignment and unconditional love in your heart and speedy recovery.

Lots of Love <3

I am very touched, Tara! Thank you so much for your loving and wise words.
As much as I simply ENJOY dancing over the Forum and playing and getting inspired with all of you, "teaching" those that have questions and training myself...
I guess you are right! I needed a few days in an all different rhythm and "all on my own".

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Wow, goosebumps. This gave me some tears in my eyes.

Thank.You.So.Much!!!!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Thank you for your loving appreciation.
Yes, sometimes humor is the best way to handle a difficult situation. But yes, I think it’s okay to make mistakes. We are constantly learning to better align ourselves with our inner being, and from this vibrational harmony, we can enrich everyone. However, I too sometimes stumble into smaller traps, and that’s okay.

Regarding everything you’ve said to me, I remember this excerpt from one of my favorite videos by Abraham, which I love so much and which gives me goosebumps, as it summarizes everything so well and resonates with me so much.

I will do these things because it will be joyful to do them. I'll build the bridges that are fun to build. I'll cook the meals that are fun to cook. I'll have the relationships that are fun to have. I will grow, oh I know I will grow. I will not be able to help but expand. I will not be able to help but contribute. I will not be able to help but add (something) to this time-space reality. I know I will be of immense value, but I'm not coming forth because of the value that I will offer, because that is a given, and I'm not coming forth to prove anything because there is nothing to prove. I'm coming forth because this looks like a vacation I'd like to take. I think there will be some fun here. I think there will be some interest. I think that more life will flow through me. I think that this is gonna be a really good time. Therefore, I go forward. That's what you said, that's why you're here, that's why we're all here. It is for the joy, and when you get your eye on the joy, everything else will fall into place.
(Abraham Hicks)

[Paradise-on-Earth]

I have no idea if I will be allowed to use my computer.

Fingers crossed they will allow you your computer and phone. I know some areas of hospitals don't like to have electrical interference with machines, but perhaps other areas of the hospital where people stay and sleep may be specially positioned to allow people to stay there with their modern conveniences available to them. I hope so! Perhaps you can call ahead of time to know what to anticipate and what kind of entertainment options to bring with you?

Yes, you've been right! I brought my devices and was able to communicate with my family (who shared SO lovingly with me) via phone. I brought my computer that I prefer for my work on the Forum and could have somehow gotten into free internet- but then, I simply wasn't inspired! As Tara said, it was better to take a short break.

Hmmmmm for your loving wishes!!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

I am incredibly touched to find you ALL, dear friends, here and welcoming me back! That means so much to me, while I didn't expect this at all Wow....

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Hi PoE!

Just wanted to say that may your cells get exactly what they are needing! And that may you be able to find joy wherever you can, and make peace within wherever you can’t! Looking forward to hearing from you once you are back!

THANK YOU!! ...for your blessing, your kind words and your request!




"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I enjoy my tipping point!
I react joyfully from ITV now, and so, it all turns out wonderful!

Day 27

...So, here I am, back!

I have no idea if I will be allowed to use my computer. I have no idea what to do.
I have no idea! And really, it sucks.

But I want to be happy. Nothing matters more to me than being happy, darn!!!
I will relax. I give up. Maybe it will be... funny? Maybe I will enjoy it. Maybe I will be able to not push against it!! I hope so!

Yes, it was funny! Sort of A lot of the time!
Yes, I was able to stop pushing against!
Yes, I was enjoying it.

The hospital nurses and the doctors have been awesome! They all took their time. They listened to the clients! They really seemed to know what they were doing. They had been so very respectful- and sooo NICE! -I have had a long training of much much less than that, and so I understand how I could build such resistance. AND- I could let it go BEFORE I smacked into a brickwall!

I survived SO MUCH! My body survived, my Ego survived, my humor survived. I will survive THIS, as well.
I am thankful to get- maybe- some help, out of this.

Yes, I survived again- my Ego, my humor, and my body, too... but I hadn't been aware of how close I'd been to not surviving.
...It was a time of being humbled by life.
Haha, I was SO full of resistance, without having realized it!
I was on the brink of death for a few years already, without having been open to see the 1000 red flags.
I was "HATING" what tried to help me. Talk about being blind and deaf...

while I was doing sooo well in so many other ways. My son H embraced me on the phone, assuring me that we can all go so lost while doing the one incredibly masterful thing, and completely miss the tsunami that is approaching, while we fully give in to master the raindrop. I am in awe to have such a wise and loving boy.

I am so incredibly thankful to have felt and heard their pride to have me as Mom.
I am so incredibly thankful to feel and hear and see the love of my husband for me, and his dedication to do whatever it takes to live a bit longer with me, together.
It all was so touching. It all were tokens of them believing I would be precious, and playing small would not been funny at that time, AT ALL.

But, it was the time for step 5:
Acknowledging that I had been in step 1 without even realizing, for longer than I liked to see, deeper in the mud than it was cool, and not being mad at myself.
But instead:

I feel so incredibly thankful!
I feel so incredibly humbled.
I feel so very very blessed with a second (or maybe 1000.? ) chance- to live on. And, to maybe, even ALLOW to fulfill those dreams, that hold me "awake" at night... not with getting better and better, and eventually good enough- but by

letting go, and letting God.
Not even more "awakening", but allowing myself to close my eyes, trust and finally SLEEP.

[spiritualcookie]

Yes, it was funny! Sort of A lot of the time!

You are so inspiring to me, how you find laughter in it all

I can so understand your husband and your family - You bring so much light, liveliness and love to our forum - I can only imagine how this must be amplified so much more being in your family

I hope you are feeling as good and comfortable as possible now that you're home, and I wish so much that wellness and wellbeing will flow to you with beautiful ease

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Yes, it was funny! Sort of A lot of the time!

You are so inspiring to me, how you find laughter in it all

I can so understand your husband and your family - You bring so much light, liveliness and love to our forum - I can only imagine how this must be amplified so much more being in your family

I hope you are feeling as good and comfortable as possible now that you're home, and I wish so much that wellness and wellbeing will flow to you with beautiful ease

Ohhh my!!
Awww... Thank you!!! Thank you, thank you!!

It takes one to know one!

[Tara]

Welcome back to the forum POE!

So great to have your presence here

[FeelGood]