Appreciation of My Life

[Jenny Lee]

From time to time, I would use AI transcripting function of an app to transcribe some Abe teachings--it's so convenient.

oo do you have an AI transcripting apps you can recommend? Tara was recently looking for some

My app is totally Chinese, I think. It's Baidu Net Disc, but it doesn't operate in other countries. It has a lot of apps and tools, and one of is transcribing/文稿. I store and directly play Abe clips and I click the button of transcribing/文稿, the text comes out and I download it--and then I spend a bit time reading it and correcting some errors.

Maybe the following pages offer some useful information:
www.reddit.com/r/software/comments/13g1 ... iption_ai/

www.reddit.com/r/devops/comments/1d7ko6 ... scription/

[spiritualcookie]

My app is totally Chinese, I think. It's Baidu Net Disc, but it doesn't operate in other countries. It has a lot of apps and tools, and one of is transcribing/文稿. I store and directly play Abe clips and I click the button of transcribing/文稿, the text comes out and I download it--and then I spend a bit time reading it and correcting some errors.

Thank you for sharing

Maybe the following pages offer some useful information:
www.reddit.com/r/software/comments/13g1 ... iption_ai/

www.reddit.com/r/devops/comments/1d7ko6 ... scription/

How kind of you! Thank you for finding these!
I'll check them out

[Jenny Lee]

My app is totally Chinese, I think. It's Baidu Net Disc, but it doesn't operate in other countries. It has a lot of apps and tools, and one of is transcribing/文稿. I store and directly play Abe clips and I click the button of transcribing/文稿, the text comes out and I download it--and then I spend a bit time reading it and correcting some errors.

Thank you for sharing

Maybe the following pages offer some useful information:
www.reddit.com/r/software/comments/13g1 ... iption_ai/

www.reddit.com/r/devops/comments/1d7ko6 ... scription/

How kind of you! Thank you for finding these!
I'll check them out

[Jenny Lee]

Generally speaking, I am The Investigator/The Observer in the Ennegram system. I am prone to observe, collect, analyze and ponder. I spend more time in activities involving thinking, while some people would hurrily jump into action such as my mom. I not only observe other people and also observe myself and find something fun and interesting.

This morning, my mom asked me to make breakfast. She said I could eat the instant noodles. I can eat anything, because recently I don't care much about eating. But if I eat biscuits, she would complain a bit when she notices it. So I grabed the instant noodles, looked at the instruction, and had to comment: Jeez, it needs to cook, it is not instant. It needs five minutes to cook. I pondered, and finally decided to take the chore. Yeah! That's how unattractive cooking is to me. I followed the instruction, standing in the kitchen, and when the boiling water was helping cook the noodles, I was busying browsing on my phone. So, actually, the cooking took me at most 2 minutes, but still it felt a surprising thing to me, for I rarely spent five minutes cooking and waiting for a bowl of instant noodles. When I had to cook, I often let my mind wander to other places, so that I can reap satisfaction from other areas other than cooking. Sometimes, my parents would tell me why I should learn to cook, and their words just lightly pass by on the screen of my mind. I will cook if it is necessary but I don't need to bother myself when I don't like cooking and cooking is not a need for me.

So when I imagine a person who likes cooking such as my mom, such as a vlogger who spends lots of time baking and cooking, I would immediately find fun of the contrast, the difference, the great variety of the world. I, as someone has to eat and in many cases enjoys eating, really appreciate people who love and are willing to cook. I really appreciate my mom who often likes cooking and almost always are willing to cook for us--meaning, she rarely complains about that. That's a blessing for us who don't cook to have people who love and are good at cooking and willing to offer yummy dishes.

I observe with my eyes and ears a lot. So much so that I was overwhelmed and negatively influenced years ago, and then I realized that I must manage my focus and attention to the surroundings. And after a while, from teachers especially Abe, I understood why I was influenced, because I reacted to all the scenes and sounds without knowing that I had the choice to be a selective sifter. For example, when I was observing people in the crowed bus, I often felt bad, for many of them had those tired, unhappy faces... But highly focused observing is a wonderful tool to learn new skills. I could be very patient in observing every move of a specific skill on a video and finally gain this skill...

I forgot many contents of the Ennegram system, but one thing may still be true about the characteristics of The Investigator. That is: for certain subjects/preferences, they like make them really clear, not wanting to mix them. For example, if I have friend A because of this, and have friend B because of a different reason, I don't want to get them together, I would not even mention A to B, or B to A. While people like my brother would like to get them all together, sitting together, chatting and eating together, and travelling together. Another example is: I just had a new account because I wanted to write a story that has nothing to do with the stories I am writing; they are in different worlds/areas/groups. I can use the present account to write, but it feels much more comfortable and natural for me to create a new account. It would be more clear and comfortable to me...

Maybe I could read again the book about Ennegram, because it's fun to explore the abundance of human personalities.

Step 5 and being a mediator

My niece cut her finger, and cried hard.There was blood, and I ran out to buy Band-Aids. As I was running, I was actually step5ing. It's not possible for us to have no contrast. The most important thing is how we react to contrast. No big deal. When I went home, my mom was blaming my father, and I immediately said to her, "We cannot pay attention to her all the time, and notice her every move. It's not his fault." She quieted down. And after a short while, I diverted my niece's attention and she started feeling happy again.

In our daily life, there are things, sometimes very trivial things, would push our buttons and cause knee-jerk reactions. And I have been learning to notice that as quickly as I can and then become solution-oriented.

One thing worth noting is: People would take for granted what others do. They rarely appreciate and praise. But when something is wrong, they jump quick to blame and judge. And that's why there is a saying here, 多做多错--the more you do, the more errors you would make (, and the more eaisly you are blamed by other people.)

When more than two people in the same room, and as some conflict happens between two people, the others' responses often decide how it goes. It can get bigger and worse when others begin to join the fight and add fuel to the flames. It can quiet down when others are good at mediating. And as for me, sometimes I would be the mediator, and other times, I may just leave the situation or wander away in my mind, based upon the specific conditions.

[Jenny Lee]

Scenes in my reality worthing milking:

Last night, I pondered and wrote some ideas of the new chapter on my phone and fleshed out the first paragraph. Actually, still, there are reasons for me to postpone the writing, such as: I don't feel like writing at home, spaces like the cafe feels better to me. These are reasons which I can let them be or shift them easily. I can just tell myself: That's not true, I have written at home several times. The atmosphere is alright. I wrote smoothly. So I said to myself, "No matter what, I'd write the new chapter today." And I did, when my niece was playing in the living room, and when my mom was cooking in the kitchen. I was typing fast on the computer, observing new details coming out in the form of words and successfully finished it before the lunch. It's a chapter of 1800 characters/words. I was satisfied and already decided to depict some impressive scenes in the next one or two chapters.

This evening, I asked with strong curiosity my parents about a relative , because it's really dramatic in a way that confused me. The person's behavior was really not something I could do. But on and on, I was interested in the trope of people getting together after years of separtation, and in Chinese, the perfectly matching idiom would be 破镜重圆. This idom was more positive than negative, but their togetherness I was interested in, for now, was not very harmonious. Generally speaking, the girl insisted coming back and staying in the house of her ex, and at first, they just wanted her to go away, but she refused to leave. And then, they sorta accepted that. She and the ex had a kid and therefore this kid did live together with her parents now. It's not appropriate for me to get more details from my parents, but I do have some new thoughts about them and their relationships after I listen to some Abe conversations. One thing is sure, they definitely have built extremely robust collective Vortex, and a lot of things are unique to their togetherness. So if one of them get aligned, they could very possibly be a really wonderful couple. But I don't know whether that would happen or not...

Plus, there is a long quote talking about multi-relationships posted by PoE, in which Abe said that for a specific HS who was tired of his present relationship, that his relationship with another person, or other people, would rarely be as satisfying as this one when he gets alinged, because they together had put a lot of things in their Vortices which were intimately related to each other. And when I heard this, I thought: This could make those stories of reunions vibrationallly accurate in positive ways.

If I was not passionate about writing, I may not be interested in these things. But when I think like a storyteller, then the difference among human beings and those confusing, surprising, and incomprehensible at first experiences of others become interesting and meaningful. And actually, from time to time, I can learn from other personality types. I am prone to be type 5, The Observer, but I don't need to be The Observer all the time; I am free to choose, for example I can be more proactive in relationships...

I put down my phone, and played with her about one and a half hours. And whoa! That's interesing and amazing. This time, I rarely felt impatient. I was fully relaxed, and decided to enjoy her as much as I can. Enjoy her cuteness, beauty and curiosity. Enjoy playing games with her. As for her beauty, I specially like observing her eyes. For me, her eyes are really beautiful with unique shapes.

[Jenny Lee]

Focus upon the scenes feeling good to me:

I am walking outdoors. At first, I play music to match the beautiful views my eyes are observing. It's like I am being in a poetic MV. Then I am inspired to listen to Abe. I know what kind of subjects I like most NOW. I start to listen to Abe talk about competition, breaking records in sports, romantic relationships, cheating in marriage, multi-relationships, teaching tough kids, etc. I listen to what Abe say word by word with clear focus. Their speeches resonate with me deeply. I begin to say to myself: Though some suggestions are the same, are consistent, but still the answer could be different for different HS. After all, I am just listening to only 2 to 3 clips about this specific subject. But one thing is for sure, whether you stay in a relationship or leave, you'd do the work to appreciate the people in the present relationship, at least you'd do the work not to push against the person, this way, either it's the right person, or you are called to a new matching relationship. This is the work. More specifically, the work would be: List the postive aspects of this person, and imagine the desired relationship with this person or with an imagined character. And if the subject has really strong negative momentum, then maybe render it inactive as much as one can for some time would be better...

After supper, I sit before my computer and remember the book I mentioned. The book of Ennegram and so I open the book and start reading about the type 1 personality. Um, as I read, of course, I learn something new. Some of the type 1 people would lead a double life, like they would be a teacher in the daytime, and a sex worker in the evening in new places. They may not be aware that they are in strong anger because they see anger as a bad emotion. They demand themselves to only do what's right and good... This morning, as I ponder these contents, I get a writing inspiration and one of the main characters would be the type 1, leading a double life. (I decided that within three days, I'd begin this writing. And this afternoon, I created some vivid scenes in my mind and then wrote the first chapter.)

I get on the website and discover that two vloggers of the same channel break up and start bashing each other with words, recordings, and so on. Jeez. As I watch a bit of the video, I can clearly feel the strategy one uses to attack the other with a harsh tone in a hurry and there is sensible uneasiness. That's hard to watch. And I quickly turn my attention to watch what feel so sweet to me; I choose to enjoy some interviews, some vlogs, and all those cute, adorable, beautiful, pleasing and sometime funny facial expressions, unconscious intimate behaviors and interesting body languages. When one is in sweet love, the world is so beautiful. Of course I choose to focus upon the latter. Actually I decide to remember and milk all similar scenes about sweet love I know in the form of writing. I wanna focus upon what happens when people are in love with each other. I start feeling better and better.

Before I go to bed, I read two stories and enjoy them very much. I like reading and then pondering why I like this specific story, because this helps clarify my own present preferences and let me know what kind of stories I would like to write. When I purely appreciate writers and their writings, learn about my preferences from their words, and know 100% that I only write original stories, then Source, my Inner Being and lots of non-physical mastery writers would inspire me to write purely original unique stories which ring my bells. Original means it has nothing to do with plagiarism or copying sentences from other people. (@ Abraham Hicks - Access To Genius, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LE2eO4DGtfk )

[Jenny Lee]

Satisfying scenes:

I decided that within the three days, I'd finish one story beautifully and start a new one. I was sitting in the cafe, and before I came, I already enjoyed some parts of the beginning of the story. There was not a list for me to do when I was in the cafe, but the feeling was coming and so I immediately embarked on the writing. Vivid scenarios showed up in my mind and two pepole sat together in the big classroom, one cared moslty about doing right things and often had a serious face, while the other was laid-back, choosing to do things really interested him. They were classmates, but rarely talked to each other. Out of the friendly attitude, the laid-back one suggested he could accompany the serious one back to the dorm now that he didn't feel good, he was sweating and drowsy. The serious one refused and he insisted sitting in the classroom and making notes until the bell rang. This was incomprehensible for the laid-back one... There were more scenes I wanted to flesh out, but at some point, I would know it's enough for now. I would not continue doing when this feeling comes, for if I do, the writing would lose its juices. So after one hour and twenty minutes, I finished the first chapter and shared it in the group. And of course, I felt satisfed, refreshed and energized and happy. In the writing, I created, observed and enjoyed parts of an ongoing movie.

My little niece was looking at my sister through the video call, she frowned her eyebrows, collecting all her forces and then she shouted out loud, "Aunt!" Again and again and again. It's like she was a general, giving orders to the soldier with a serious face and a deliberately raised voice. Of course we laughed. At a moment, I wanted to cover her mouth because I had something to say to my sister. But her calling was penetrating; no one could stop her and actually wanted to stop her. She is such a good laugh. We are blessed to have her in our life.

I was reading novels and enjoyed two of them and the third one, I discovered someething every interesting. There were quite some grammatical errors and when I read, I had to correct them in my mind. And after a while, I lost my interest. The plot was alight, but the errors were preventing me from enjoying the reading word by word. I doubted that it might be an AI writing. The author didn't mention it, so I was not sure. But it didn't matter any more, I'd pick ones which would not have so many grammatical errors. And I think AI writings without re-reading and editing would feel like this. You may enjoy the main points when you read quickly, but it would be hard for you to read it word by word and savor it. I may become more and more senstive to good novels written out of love and AI novels.

I just love the vividness when people get together with their crushes or rascals who push hard their buttons. Then they are not AI-like anymore. They forget to behave in a way that others can rarely find reasons to blame or judge. They become really vivid. They can't control their smiles. They unconsciously lean toward their crushes or lovers. They are obssesed or they start making all kinds of fake moves to hide their true feelings; and they become so busy that almost everybody notices and gets interested or confused. They may roll eyes in the public. They may try their best to keep a distance. They sart grinding their teeth and breathing deeply in the same space with their rascals. In situations like this, their strong emotions break through the polite facade and infiltrate their eyes, facial expressions and bodily moves. Their mind and body become one, in a sense... Of course, I prefer the cute vividness when one is near his/her crush or lover. But sometimes, the scenes where one and the rascal get together could be amusing too. It depends.

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[Jenny Lee]

Abundance:

I love the main characters of the story The Way Home and this love makes new stories based upon them easily please me. Recently, I have been reading a lot. I am positively expecting a lot.

I beautifully ended one of my stories today and started a new one yesterday. This time, the main characters are studying in the same university and what I know about university could be put into the writing now.

Continually, the following existences are my easy, good-feeling, existing matches:

I always have abundant free time to do what I like. I am always in wonderful physical environments. I am well supported by wonderfully working electronic products, the Internet, and related software/apps.

I have abundant passions, interests and hobbies which make my life fulfilling most of the time. I write. I read. I explore and do the work. I listen to Abe, learn, practice and pre-pave. I play with kids. I am immersed in the beauty of music. I act upon present inspiration and impulse which can not be predicted by the physical mind...


Relativity and Relationships

The HS was talking about being cheated by her husband and being really attracted by a new person. The conversation reminded me of another conversation in which Abe said people would hurriedly get into a relationship to escape the loneliness and after a while, they found that this relationship also had a lot of negative aspects. Having someone could immediately fill the void of loneliness, and so it seemed a wonderful idea at first. But they made the decision out of misalignment and often, most of the time, this new relationship would not be satisfying either. When you feel so lonely, then having someone may seem extra good. When the husband of the HS said to her that he cheated her for ten years, then of course, the new person would become extra good and attractive. However, if the HS is purely aligned on this subject, would she feel that this new person is the right, aligned one? I don't think so. That's why the most important job for us to make an important decision is to get aligned first.

When you feel lonely, weak and needy, someone shows up, caring about you, encouraging you, comforting you and helping you, you may fall in love with him/her, not caring about any other aspects. When you get back to alignment and independence, rarely needing care and comfort from other people, what would happen? Do you still love him/her? Is he/she still be soft, loving and patient, or he/she becomes picky because you are normal now?

I had an interesting experience. I got a strong feeling for a person, but at the same time, I knew he's definitely not the right person if I really wanted a relationship--actually I didn't. I discovered that I was actually falling in love with his unconditional composure. He was emotionally stable in a messy working environment. As for other asepcts, I knew clearly that his appearance didn't attract me at all, and I didn't think he was interested in getting aligned and being Who He Is on different life subjects. We may not have anything interesting to talk about. Some time later, this feeling was gone naturally. Back then, my understanding of relationship was not that clear and deep, but now knowing what I know, I can say in that case, if I was really persuing a matching, aligned relationship, I might say to myself: A little closer but not enough. Thank you for letting me know that emotional stability/unconditional lightheartedness is really attractive to me. But this is just one of the traits I wanna see in the person; there are many other aspects I would like to see in the person...


Worthiness, unworthiness, the next logical step, appreciation and taking for granted

Sometimes, I would come across short videos in which a man cared for a woman, such as asking for a blanket on behalf of the girl, or open the water bottle for her immediately noticing that she wants to have a sip of water, etc. Then I read the comments, and I am amazed and shocked by the strong appreciation and sentences like "Get someone who would do this for you." Really? Are these things so rare, so hard to do, and so romantic? I'd do these things for my friends, family and even someone I just know for two days too. These behaviors can purely come from one's natural friendly attitude. I had heard a girl talking to the bus driver about her not having the coin and the bus card had no money, and I just walked to her and paid for her. There was a time I was quite philanthropic and caring too much about other people; but that has nothing to do with romantic feelings. And a large part of people actually has this kind of nature if they get aligned; caring and uplifting other people gives them pleasure and joy.

Yes, all of these are wonderful and worth appreciating. But the comments I see often ooze a feeling of unworthiness, and their experiencing this world not that friendly...

Then the other extreme is, some people would take others' kindness for granted. I don't like that too. And I am very clear that this attitude is a big factor of hurting and worsening relationships...

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Vague, and clear and specific

I looped several Abe clips about retionships and compare them and explore them and discover quite interesting things.

A man said that for eight years, he could easily get sex but not the true lover. In a sense, he was telling this story--"Sex is easy but the true lover is hard to find" again and again. He was actually quite vague about what kind of true lovers he is looking for. It is just a clip not a whole workshop, and in this conversation, Abe didn't guide him into great specifics. (Abraham Hicks 2023 - True Love: www.youtube.com/watch?v=EdQ7pEJNFGY)

But in another one, there was very clear specific guidance Abe gave to the HS:

The HS was looking for a romantic partner. Abe suggest he imagine them get together in all kinds of situations and of course he would feel so good in them. What about eating together with the person in a restaurant? Why does this person make you happy in this specific scenario? Because this person is happy, treating the waitress so nicely, enjoying food, genuinely asking him about his preferences, appreciating food with a big smile, etc. Imagine another scenario: This person you are eating with is not happy, showing a feeling of superiority, and continually complaining about the food with repeated words... She/He may be very beautiful in terms of appearance, but do you really want to eat with him/her? For me, it would be a torture. (Abraham Hicks 2024 new - This is HOW to meet ROMANTIC PartnerLaw of attraction: www.youtube.com/watch?v=_alSdsEDyeU&t=22s)

In this conversation, Abe talked about general and specifics and really emphasized the importance of these specific imaginations. Obviously, this suggestion was fit for this speicfic HS. But at a certain point, it would be fit and extra delicious for all people who want great relationships.

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[Jenny Lee]

Throughout the day, lots of emotions come and go, sometimes, positive and sometimes negative. Here and now, before I go to bed, make a summary.

Pinpoint Love:

My little niece is in pink today. She insisted getting the damp tissues and began to wipe her own face and help clean the headboard. "The nose." I said to her, and she put the tissue under her nose. She was 13 months old and understood more and more words now. She now called me aunt and also by my name because she heard my mom called the name yesterday and we all laughed. She is happy and funny. She has a good appetite and she likes fruits--what a wonderful thing for my mom, because now there is another member to share the fruits at home which I and my father rarely eat. She easily makes people happy, not just us, but a lot of others who see her.

Recently, it's so easy for me find and enjoy interesting and lovely stories. At a point, I said to myself, "Isn't it too easy?" Whoa! Gotta you! The bogus thought that broadcasts: Things that are rare or hard to find are more valuable and worth treasuring. BOGUS! The fact is: These stories are truly interesting, lovely and enjoyable. And what I decide to hold onto is: I like to find/create/enjoy wonderful things with great ease. I am glad that I can easily attract what please me, be it music, stories, lighthearted interactions, etc. I love attracting and enjoying wonderful creations with great ease. I love noticing the great great abundance in creative manifestations such as music and novels.

I love writing. I finished a story of about sixty thousand words/characters. I gave it a warm, happy "ending." And today, I put all the chapters together and shared the complete story on two places, and there must be some readers who would love it whether they leave comments or not. And then my main focus on this subject would be the ongoing two stories. Again, I ONLY write what ring my bells. And it's possible that readers' suggestion may resonate with me and so is something ringing my bells too. But for now, I just follow my own ideas. Nothing is more important than that I do what feel good to me, let alone something which is so refreshing, energizing and creative. So even there is no one reading which is impossible, I'd still write and I'd still try my best to get into the process of inspired writing, for inspired writing is intoxicating.

Pinpoint Clarity:

There was a celebrity couple who just got divorced. Several repeated comments really caught my attention.

People say: I never doubt there is true heart and true love from this heart; however it changes rapidly.

People say: Finally, a long lasting marriage depends upon the conscientiousness or responsibility of the couple, actually mainly the male one.

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Of course one's heart changes rapidly with emotions. Without deliberate intentions and willingness to try one's best to create and maintain a wonderful relationship, often, almost all relationships would lose its loveliness and even friendly separation would become difficult. A lot of people are continually chasing fresh feelings, and they just observe what-is, not being a deliberate creator and so they move on from one relationship to another when the present one doesn't feel good anymore...

At some point, I liked the idea of the one and the forever relationship, but now I think very differently. It would be so nice that both decide to try their best to let the relationship work in an aligned way, but if they are just not a perfect match anymore, why suffer just to make it a long lasting relationship? That would be a waste of time for both.

People are different. Though I have above thoughts, but for some people, trying their best to keep a relationship would be their PoLR, until they realize that doesn't work. I remember a story: A girl got a dog from her parents, and she took well care of the dog though she never had love for the dog. For her, now that she was the owner, she must be a responsible owner, loving or not. For some people, responsibility is much more important than other stuff, love or suitableness, at some stages or their whole lives... I like knowing more about humans and different human personalities and belief systems.

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[CoreEssence]

My goodness!!!! Congratulations Jenny!!!!! What an achievement! I am so glad for you! And so proud of you! I wish I could read your story too (I know that it’s in Chinese though!). You inspire me!!! thank you!!