I love to be satisfied. And I love to be eager for more!

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beautiful frost patterns on our window shield this morning


ohhhh, I feel SATISFIED!
I lay in my living room and have the sunshine on my legs... the fire crackles and flickers in the stove, and dear husband sits across the table, doing home-office, due to a rail strike.

It feels cozy! I so love to have him home, with me! I so love to hear him doing his telephone calls, and witness his capability and knowingness in his job. I love to drive out with him in the morning to get fresh breakfast buns!
It is so satisfying to witness nature, being part of the always changing weather and the seasons. I SO ENJOY IT!
I love to have all the tiny breaks with him. Having a tea, or having lunch. I love our effortless talks, about everything that comes to mind. I love to share my thoughts with him, and hear his!


Chinese bun and beer


German (to be exact, Bavarian) bun and beer


We laughed so much when my son, who is recently in China for work, posted a pic about his lunch, noticing that Chinese people have all the sizes mixed up. I appreciate it so much, to share happy nonsense like that in seconds, live, around the globe! I am soooo satisfied with being so close to my beloveds, even when they are not physical here. I am so incredibly thankful to live like this! What a gift of life. We seem to be the first humans who are blessed in this way!

I feel SUCH appreciation that my medicine works so fast. What a blessing. I am so thankful! And I appreciate this Forum that was there for me yesterday night, when my mood was broken because of my physical issues. I am in such appreciation, sooo satisfied, that we are free to have a "F-it thread" again. And I am so satisfied, that Abe explained to all of us that cursing feels better than disempowerment- so, good for us if we use it to get above disempowerment into rage. IT FEELS BETTER! I am so SATISFIED to know and to use this!!

AND I am so satisfied with the collage that I created yesterday to make fun of me, being miffed with all those bright eyes, bushy tailed happy people, who are sooo annoying when I'm off. It feels free. It feels so liberating. It feels so step 5!! THANK YOU LIFE!



And today, musing in all of this delicious SATISFACTION, and being so aware of my lifted mood, I also feel eager for more, again. I feel eager to continue my rampage about being abnoxiously abundant! I FEEL SO ABUNDANT ALREADY, and am eager for more!!!!
Sigh, life is soooo good!!

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I am thankful! I am satisfied!!
We had sun and very cold weather the last days, up to -9°C. The flooded meadows in my neighborhoods are frozen. My son, DH and I enjoyed driving and enjoying it all. I feel so satisfied with this peaceful setting! I enjoy the winter! I feel soooo satisfied to shop for untreated citrus, and to cook with them. I so adore their fragrances! I so adore the smell that goes through the whole house, when I do that. I enjoy how cozy and warm we have it. I enjoy my abundance that can afford all of this ease. I enjoy to have allowed such an effortless, rich life. I feel so very very thankful and in deep appreciation for this stance. For myself, who allowed it to be my life.

I AM SO SATISFIED!
And I remember the January when DH and I flew to Portugal, for the Paragliding trip I gave him for Christmas! I am so satisfied that I dared to do this! It was such an amazing experience. It was such a new and different way of travel. It gave us so much. We were so satisfied with the organization, and the group, and the teacher, and the special paraglider that DH bought, then. We appreciated the fun, the insights, the talks and the clarity. We appreciated the guidance that gave us a so much deeper understanding than we could have had, all on our own! I feel so satisfied to have had it all!







Paragliding and sightseeing at the Algarve and in Sintra, Portugal


It was such a different way of life! It was spring-temperature, in a time where I am used to icy cold weather.
It was peace and wild and calm and free, and fields full of orange trees and lemons. And such a nice, slow, slow, light pace. Somehow, even while the weather was so much "lighter", it also was energy-winter in Portugal! Almost no tourists, most hotels and restaurants closed, certainly in the smaller villages. It felt so calm. It felt calm. Fragrant, calm, windy, wide and beautiful! And I am eager to experience this, once more! I am eager to be in Portugal again, and to enjoy it's winter even deeper, even richer, even more. Ohhh, so good. So deep. So satisfied.

MY LIFE IS SO GOOD!!! I am so satisfied with what was, and what is, and I am so eager for more!! THANK YOU, THANK YOU LIFE!!

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My homeland, covered in frost at this morning

I am sooo satisfied!!
I FEEL SO FILLED. I am full of love for the beauty that is!
This morning, DH and I drove again through our country, shopping for buns, also finding some amazing sweet grapes, and a delicious salad, and... FROST. Like magic. Like a fairytale!

Frost isn't all over the place. Only where moist air meets very cold surfaces... and builds icy crystals and even long needles from frozen fog. The whole forests become white. It's not like snow that sits on top of branches, it is a world covered in icy structures. I couldn't stop taking pictures!
I feel so blessed to be in a climate, where such thing can happen. I feel so blessed! I am so thankful! This is amazing! This is stunning. It takes my breath away. It feels perfect. It feels divine, in it's best highest sense.

And I have to admit... I'm not even eager for more! IT IS LIKE, PERFECT! Perfect, now. And now! And here, even more! It is like a row of orgasms... and afterwards, you are sooooo fulfilled. Ohhh! SIGH!!! THANK YOU LIFE!!!

I hear DH and our son rumble and ream in the attic. They transport the old writing desc of my grandfather down into the room of my son, so he can use it to study on. I feel my since long transitioned Opi around, in such love. He worked on this desks for decades, doing all his sincere work and thinking, and I feel how he is blessing his great-grand son, now. I feel the love. And it is SO satisfying! I stream the love, I feel the connection, and I almost overflow in this good feelings! IT FEELS SO GOOD. It feels true. Connected. Blessed. THANKYFUL: I am sooo satisfied.

And while I clean up the kitchen, I come across my piping nozzles and -bags, and my tools for cooking, and my molds and gear. I SO LOVE TO CREATE. I so love to make sweet art. I so love to eat delightful butter creme made with white chocolate- perfect for getting dyed, and surprisingly in it's fantastic taste, NOT too sweet. I so love to be in on things that are good, through and through! Not only good looking. But better! It makes me so happy. It feels so good! It tastes so good! It looks so good!!!








...AND I AM SO SATISFIED in all of this!
What an abundance! What an abundant variety of Goodness- and I did not even start to rampage about the delights of our breakfast, and the delights of loving my family, or my own body, or... ohhh, I AM SO SATISFIED. And I love to know that I will be eager for more soon and also, I don't need more now AT ALL. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, life!!!

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The dream of us and my 3 boys: cocreating in a family venture, and working together in several workshops and studios

I am very, very satisfied! My family feels such peace, and beautiful love with each other! We have so much fun. We are so close. We love working and celebrating together. We really are birds of one feather! I am so satisfied with the energy that we allow, and create! I am so thankful for this creation of family, that each one of us is having its big part in THANK YOU FOR THIS, LIFE!!

I enjoy so much when my boys have fun together, when my 3 car-guys have endless petrol- talks, as we Germans call it. When the go to the races or exhibitions together, and plan mutual projects. When they help each others out in the workshops. It feels so precious to even be part of it, and if it's just to serve some food. I am SO SATISFIED in it!! It feels exciting and beautiful! It feels as love and fun. It feels as wonderful mutual passion. It feels harmonic and precious and something that I want to even grow bigger!


The dream of us and our daughter, and her family: living on one property and raising the kids as extended family

I feel so satisfied the meetings and explorations and adventures and the extraordinary holidays, that we create with my daughter, our SIL and their 5 sons! I feel such deep deep satisfaction in having deep connection with each one of them, and it feel precious to being able to help, sometimes mightily. I so enjoy being a grandmother! I so enjoy being a Grand Mother, even for my grown up kids. I am so satisfied to share my vibration of unconditional love, joy and hope. It feels sooo satisfying to hold the light, for all of them! It feels so beautiful to get loved back, to be trusted. To ENJOY our life!
I am sooo satisfied with my wonderful wonderful family life!!

And I am eager for more... I dream of owning a huge property where there is room for all our dream houses, all our dream gardens, all our dream workshops, all our dream cars, all our dream playgrounds. Our dream dogs, dream horses, dream gathering places! It feels so RICH. It feels so absolutely right! It feels as US. It feels like the perfect next step! It feels as if we all have done what we wanted to learn apart from each other, and now we are ready to live our BIG dreams, together. it feels like... Paradise. It feels BIG! And it feels easy. It feels like letting go and letting the Universe rule it. It feels as light. It feels hilarious. It feels perfect. It feels wonderful. AND I SO LOVE how it feel totally down to earth, and as connected to the heavens, all in one. OHHH YES!!! THANK YOU; THANK YOU LIFE!!


Our all dream property on a huge piece of beautiful land, with dream-houses and -workshops for each of us

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I am so satisfied with feeling my "Heaven on Earth".
I am so satisfied, when I look back!
I am so satisfied, NOW.
I am so eager for what will come: It must be good stuff, based upon LoA bringing me "more of what is"!

I so enjoy living again with my son. I am so satisfied with our tone, our interaction, with the inspirations he brings to me. I am so satisfied with the ease that comes to us, through him!
I am so satisfied to deliberately let go of my trained "care", while of course I do CARE I love to drop the doubts and fears, and I so love to embrace the ease and the trust, instead!

I so love WINTER. I so love to have it warm, while it is winter! I so love nature. We had snow this night, and I am sooo satisfied how this looks and smells and FEELS on my skin!
I so love that we are in the time of awakening. I so love to see things change, in all areas. I so love to be a witness of this shift, in first row!! I so appreciate to be here and now, and KNOW WHAT I KNOW!! It feels soooo satisfying!!



I soooo get this meme above!
I very well remember the times where I fought with God and myself and was p* about life in general and in specific, inside out.
I am SO satisfied that I had to go through this phase and purge myself after understanding WHAT I WAS DOING. I LOVED understanding how I could shed pain on purpose, as soon I learned from Abraham! I am sooo satisfied that I already had figured out so much before I met Abe! I am sooo proud and satisfied with myself!!

A so appreciate how easy I am when I get "ripped apart merciless in this days. I feel so satisfied in understanding it all, even when I'm off. I can come back to laughter under almost all conditions! Sometimes I enjoy being in misery for a while, but that is ok, too. It all has it's time. And I totally know how to come back, as soon I have enough. I am so satisfied about it all!

Ohhh and I am eager for more.
Boy, am I eager!
I am eager for more... no, not only more, but for FULL health.
I am eager for abnoxious amounts of awesome money.
I am eager for awe, and for fulfillment of several dreams, for a whole row of thrilling "orgasms" and for feeling a "weeeeeeeee" of awesome fantastic shift! Without croaking, please.

I am soooo eager for more!!
I am so eager for the "promised land" and the promised "new time" and the PARADISE ON EARTH, even deeper, fuller, more colorful, more whole and deep and wide!!!

I SO LOVE MY LIFE!!!

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I so enjoy living again with my son. I am so satisfied with our tone, our interaction, with the inspirations he brings to me. I am so satisfied with the ease that comes to us, through him!

I so love WINTER. I so love to have it warm, while it is winter! I so love nature. We had snow this night, and I am sooo satisfied how this looks and smells and FEELS on my skin!
I so love that we are in the time of awakening. I so love to see things change, in all areas. I so love to be a witness of this shift, in first row!! I so appreciate to be here and now, and KNOW WHAT I KNOW!! It feels soooo satisfying!!

This felt so good to read! I feel the satisfaction too!
Thank you for spreading the joy

[Paradise-on-Earth]

I so enjoy living again with my son. I am so satisfied with our tone, our interaction, with the inspirations he brings to me. I am so satisfied with the ease that comes to us, through him!

I so love WINTER. I so love to have it warm, while it is winter! I so love nature. We had snow this night, and I am sooo satisfied how this looks and smells and FEELS on my skin!
I so love that we are in the time of awakening. I so love to see things change, in all areas. I so love to be a witness of this shift, in first row!! I so appreciate to be here and now, and KNOW WHAT I KNOW!! It feels soooo satisfying!!

This felt so good to read! I feel the satisfaction too!
Thank you for spreading the joy

Ohhh and thank YOU for appreciating and milking it It is so very appreciated!

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...how does it look when I and DH would be "each others other half"?


...What really is love?
Do I squander my love, when we "just" live happily ever after, in a soft, peaceful, non-dramatic way? When we still have problems, and I sometimes think about (in an OOTV stance), if I even am supposed to be with him- because we both are certainly not "perfect" together? Aren't we supposed to steadily produce rainbows and fireworks and magic? Aren't we supposed to look spotless, flawless and skinny, have sixpacks instead of onepacks, and float 5 inches above ground?

...I am so SATISFIED how loving and beloved my life is feeling! ...but, is that good enough??
I am beyond satisfaction about the love-relationship with my man. When I pick him up from the train station, I still get that grin on my face.
I am so satisfied with the care, the understanding, the tenderness, the LOVE that we feel and live, with each other: I AM SO BLESSED!!
I am satisfied, deeply, deeply satisfied how I am, while in a lot of contrast, feel SO cozy. So warm. So safe. So rich. SO GOOD!

And still, I... struggle. About what happens in the world, generally and specifically horrendously. About my personal health issues, where I don't "know" a path to healing (and the doctors don't know either). And... how is it, about getting older and, maybe, having missed "my calling"?
WHO AM I? WHO AM I SUPPOSED TO BE? HOW COULD I HELP THE WORLD? ...what really is my divine role? Do I squander my life? Do I miss my boat?

Or, do I just live an incredibly rich and fulfilled life with SOOOOO many experiences... that all make total sense if I just take a step back, and look at them, with sources eyes?


so many roles...


Oh, I am SO yearning "for more" in some times. And, I totally know that this stance is not helping.
I KNOW and I still want to embrace my doubts and my panic and my drama, in deeply loving understanding.
I am human! I came for this shit: For trying to get it done, and in it missing the precious moments. For being showered with blessings, while sitting there and lamenting that some tiny bit misses. Which probable isn't even true, but I might sit on it...



Since a very long time, I try (and I say this with love and humor) to embrace "my dragons", my contrast, my step 1... I try to see the other side of what gives me fear. I try to see the wanted sides, as I know- those are those that are the ones that are really TRUE. It's where God solely focuses, and when I don't, I feel the discord. Isn't life simple!?

I SIFT through life, and I TRY to love. And really, this is what we came for. And it is all we can do. And it is enough. THANK YOU, THANK YOU LIFE! This feels so easy. So simple. So sweet. So flowing. So held and known and seen and cared for. It feels like, "home". It feels doable. And joyfully doable. Maybe I miss the fireworks. But I certainly am SATISFIED. And I love that.

I give up all struggle! ANd that feels golden. It feels like beautiful relief! It feels awesome! It feels like hope. And I do not need to go there. It is as it is! I give up and give it to God. "I give it into the light", as Abe say. All needs and shoulds and horrors. I give up! I give up, I give up, I give up. Please God, show me the way.

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in my studio...













I am an artist.
I SO LOVE AND APPRECIATE TO CREATE! I wrote my first novel when I was seven. I am a painter. I am a sculptor. I am a designer. I am an artist who plays with fabric and rocks and porcelaine and clay and flowers and colors and buttons and chairs and couches and rooms and trees and shrubs and flowers. I am a cook. I love to create rooms and invitations and moods and dreams. I create stories and legacies and ideas and visions. I weave it all together to create awe, joy, laughter, warm fuzzy belonging, the emotions of being cared for and seen, and loved. I create clarity. I create awe. I create surprise- and delight. I create humor. I create trust and hope.

I am CREATOR!

I am so very very very satisfied in all my creations, all day long! I can't never NOT create! Each thought, each step, each move, each word creates worlds that follow it. I so love to KNOW this!! It is soooo satisfying to play, and to deliberately choose, and to absolutely not know what I'm doing, sometimes, but enjoying the process!

I SO love creating. And I am soooooo eager to do it more, more more!
To shop for more things to create with, more rooms to do it in, more tools to do it with, more people who are with me, in it together. I AM SO EAGER for even more, more more more!!!

THANK YOU LIFE!

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I am so satisfied to have had Abe in my life, and learn how it all works!
While I still not always get it right- I SO appreciate this clarity and wisdom. I am deeply, deeply satisfied with knowing about self-love, and that it really is the basis for all wellbeing. In this, I learned to very unconditionally be satisfied with my physical body, and all it's "flaws". IT WAS WORK!! It wasn't that easy, and I still am not finished. But it went so deep!! I still hear Abes words, that they would have "4 words for us, that give the solutions to everything"...

BE NICER TO YOURSELF!
(Abe)



I feel SO satisfied, when I see beautiful, lively, positive, full-sized women!
I feel so satisfied in recognizing and adoring their true, stunning beauty!
I feel such a big YES for them. I am in deep appreciation how much I really LIKE myself! How far I came in not only tolerating, but LIKING myself. Pinning a photo of myself in almost everything I do, is part of this training TO EMBRACE MYSELF instead of hiding, stuffing, looking away, or denying.
I am satisfied where I am!!



I so appreciate this quote of Thich Nhat Hanh. I feel so satisfied in thinking this words. I enjoy the process. I enjoy embracing myself. I enjoy feeling more and more LOVE for myself, and for my body, and for the "imperfections" that come with physicality, and that we will always be "incomplete". I am satisfied with being this "twoheaded monster", where one head is who-I-am (often called the Ego, which we NEED to be physically focused) and the other is who-we-REALLY-are, the fully Self, the Higher Self, the kingdom inside of us...

Both are real, both are totally needed, and they are supposed to co-create. Which takes love and respect and humbleness on part of the Ego. AND I AM SO SATISFIED to know this, and to practice it, and to feel better and better and better in this divine journey of "being God in physical form" (Abe).
I feel such warm, friendly, understanding and proud LOVE for myself! I feel such golden, loving, friendly APPRECIATION for my awesome, awesome, capable, delightful, BEAUTIFUL body!



AND... I am eager for more!!

It is so fascinating that, certainly in this topic, we get blamed from different sides. Either we get blamed for being "too fat" (or whatever would be wrong with us) OR we get blamed for wanting to change things! When I feel overweight, and don't fit into clothes as it really would be comfortable, or have problems moving my body as I would love to do, or even- God forbid, would find myself even more BEAUTIFUL when I would have less body fat... ohhh, some people can't tolerate that. AND I MUST SAY- I DON'T CARE!!!

This is MY body. I want to approach it as often from ITV as I can. I will not try to change anything "so that I finally can be happy". No no no no!!!! That could never ever work. As (with money), my look doesn't come from hard work or diet. It comes from LOVE and Appreciation and Joy and fully wholly embracing myself. With action-journey, I can whip myself "into shape", but it wouldn't last, or I still would not FEEL beautiful (Been there, done that for decades!!!) I wanna be on a love-journey to transform myself, inside, outside, all.

Love yourself, and you will get the look!
Love yourself, and you will have the fun, and the adoration, and the swag, and the beauty- NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU WEIGH.
I am so eager to see this more and more, to get it deeper and deeper, unconditionally, joyfully, freely, HAPPILY!!