I am SO incredibly thankful for the co-creation, the playing, the laughter and the help, the adventure and friendship within my family. I am SO thankful and satisfied with my relationships, and today I want to especially rampage on my children. I adore how much they all live their uniqueness! How much they all care for what makes them feel good. How passionate and deep they are in their field each one of them is. I see it, I get invited into it by them, I may taste it, too. I adore it all! I am SO SATISFIED to be their mother!!
I feel so close with them! And it is soooo satisfying how I have a super-deep, rich, unique, trusting, joyful, one-of-a-kind relationship with each of them, including my beloved "children of heart", my son in law, and my daughter in law! I am so satisfied that I even got "extra children", and of course grandchildren and step-grandchildren. My life becomes richer and richer, and each new person brings their own ideas and desires and impulses, and even quirks that make the others grow, with them. It is amazing! It is SO SATISFYING!
I am so satisfied about how I can grow, with and through and because of my children. It is a gift. Well, a shower of gifts! It is a steady blessing. It is getting payed back for all my "efforts" hundredfold. It is SO rich and so sweet and so happy, and so deep, and real, and in many many good layers. I am so DEEPLY satisfied!
Oh, and I am eager for more!!
I am eager to leave "my comfortzone" (I hate the term because comfort is something VERY good that is to be focused and to be allowed!!) -but I mean the zone where I get rusty and not refreshed any more. I am eager, to steadily learn, and get new challenges. I am eager to drop resistances, for my beloveds! Because, it feels so good, as such relief, when I do it. And I am sooo eager for what will come, instead! It is always a fresh chance to dare something new, to allow myself to get inspired, or to solve a problem.
Each time my life becomes bigger!! I am so thankful for my oldest son, who challenges me ofte and who opens me up for abundance in many ways that I didn't dare. He drives motorbikes and rare sportscars and -classic cars, that are expensive beyond what I ever dared to live. He is the one most interested of all my kids in elaborate style, exquisite brands, quality-products. He wants to stay in the Hotels with the really big names. He cares for the titles and the sonderity of things, that others might judge or dump in fear of "Richness". He always wanted to be prosperous, without holding back!
I was lovingly strict and on quality with him, when I taught him to draw, and he still values my input. I was authentic and stable when we discussed about ethics, and when he has a problem, he still phones with us, first. I so adore how he tamed himself to the very best, and how he polished his golden heart. I so love his skills, his power and his humor, and how he flies high in his very special, eloquent ways! How he is a genius, a master of his field. We enjoy the knowledge of each other when it comes to history, materials, styles and more- all the good DEPTH, of arts and crafts. I want him to fully and wholly SEE me, and the value of my work, somewhen in my life (as he is not at all into spirituality!
) I want to explore with him the Grand names, that we adore because we know the stories behind, and the labor that is within that we can only guess, and the love that it took for sure, in the exquisite houses, the Icons and Legacies. Oh, wouldn't that be nice, to soar high with him in the true Sonderity of Abundance!
I guess I needed THAT much more than I realized. I tried to live a life in a whirlwind, and life did cut it all off. 
Ohh, THANK YOU. THANK YOU LIFE.
