My Diary

[abrahammer117]

Day 57: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 32: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 7: 16-8 intermittent fasting
Day 5: animal walking in morning
Day 4: no snacking
Day 3: 20mins incline treadmill in the morning

Only talking about wanted side of things...
I'd like to be OK with any strong periods of negative emotion. I like catching my emotional guidance really early when doing positive aspects feels like it's intensifying rather than relieving. I like feeling the relief that can come instead from taking my foot off the gas mentally, feeling my negative emotion and knowing it is only giving me information on what's in my mind.

I feel like repeating this lol, feels really good to articulate: My emotions will tell me if I am trying too hard at an exercise or it's just not the right time for exercises. I really like having complete faith in relief and if just slowing down gives relief then it's a good direction.

Haha, I'd like to stumble less into trying too hard

Let's put it slightly differently because it feels good to do so. I'd like catch any sensation of struggle or strain in early and early stages and understand what it means and not be fooled if I find myself straining at a Hicks exercise.

I want to feel more relaxed. I'd like to enjoy the moment more

[abrahammer117]

Day 58: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 33: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 8: 18-6 intermittent fasting
Day 6: animal walking in morning
Day 5: no snacking
Day 4: 20mins incline treadmill in the morning
Day 2: 30mins Breathing meditation on stool
Day 2: Ab Hicks abundance meditation before sleeping

Focusing on wanted side of things:
I'm feeling proud that I am coming out the other side of a couple of days that had some strong negative emotion.
I love that I was patient with it and didn't fall into trying too hard
I love that idea that the way I am living right now means I am always staying on the path, so each 'slump' will always be followed by a lovely expansion into improved territory, and pretty quickly!!
I can feel my average vibe tipping to one where my mind is much quieter than before and naturally balks against 'trying too hard'

Oooh this is good, I can feel my 'common sense' shifting more and more to a place where the 'emotional journey' is my priority and it feels almost obvious now that it should be.

I'd like to be more deliberate on my days off to enjoy them more. When I'm at work I always have a notebook nearby and the focus block tool on this website - and I've gotten good at stopping regularly and readjusting. On my days off at home I'd like to be more like this and avoid 'default' living.

As I write about what I want, what comes to mind is 'I'm enjoying this relief, I'd like even more, even more please '

I have found myself getting back into meditation again. I'm really liking it. I like that it is another example of not making myself do anything, but waiting for inspiration to strike and allowing that.

[abrahammer117]

Day 59: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 34: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 9: 18-6 intermittent fasting
Day 7: animal walking in morning
Day 6: no snacking
Day 5: 20mins incline treadmill in the morning. ( total calories burned 1,400 )
Day 3: 25mins Breathing meditation on stool
Day 3: Ab Hicks abundance meditation before sleeping

focusing on wanted side of things...

I'd like to only view myself with praise and kindness when I notice negative emotion
I'd like to feel less foggy and sharper mentally
I'd like to enjoy my evenings even more with my girlfriend
I'd like to keep losing fat

It's staying with me what she said that -'if you really knew how life responded to your vibration you would never again give attention to unwanted'

[abrahammer117]

Day 60: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 35: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 10: 18-6 intermittent fasting
Day 8: animal walking in morning
Day 7: no snacking
Day 6: 20mins incline treadmill in the morning // fully body workout ( total calories burned 1,400 )
Day 4: 20mins Now moment / Quiet mind meditation on stool
Day 4: Ab Hicks abundance meditation before sleeping
Day 1: No email / YouTube or random internet during morning period

It's day 60 of reading Ab Hicks for 45 mins every morning first thing. 100% I am in a much better feeling place than when I started.
Mt relationship to negative emotion is constantly improving. Every day I have successes at nudging thinking to a better feeling place and I'm seeing the benefits start to show up in all areas of my life. My mornings, my time at work and my evenings with my girlfriend are so much easier.

I like observing that I needed a treadmill break today - looking back it's good to notice that I stayed on the treadmill yesterday past the point where it stopped feeling right. I'd like to not do that again I'm still loving following Tim Ferris advice and doing a full body work out (push pull legs) twice a week , the one set 8-12 rep 5seconds up 5 seconds down - feels really good.

I'm really liking having all these Hicks processes easily to hand - AND - allowing myself to do just the ones I feel like at the time.
I did my second page of Prosperity Game this morning. Got a coffee machine and Tekken 8 lol.
I also really liked doing a slightly modified Focus Block game - where I just started with 'I wanna feel some more positive emotion'.
I reread recently about how it takes the most focus to get the first sentence on the wheel and then it flows easier. It's a really incredible space to spend a few minutes in, as I keep my attention on 'I'd like to feel more positive emotion' , feeling the momentum of that thought gradually increase, keep looking into the silence of my mind waiting for another matching thought to arrive. It took a good few minutes for a matching thought to arrive and it felt great when it did.
I'd like generally to get more focused and less scatty - and focus block exercises are incredible for showing me that I have to be willing to put in that 2 or 3 minutes of focus to achieve a stable nudge in vibration.
On that area too - I felt this morning that I WANT to stay off YouTube, email, random internet etc. at least in my morning period.
There's a myriad of benefits to this - like I don't forget things as much and evidently I end up writing more here!

I've nudged my morning meditation instruction. As I went to sit I realised that 30 mins does feel too long, 20 mins feels perfect. Trying to focus on my breathing feels a bit too tough - sitting and feeling the now moment in whatever form and focusing on catching discursive thinking feels good. So I did that.

Oooh I'm enjoying my increasing awareness that when negative emotion thoughts pop up - I can see more clearly the part of me that believes those thoughts are a good idea, if not necessary - and just standing back and SEEING that is very helpful

[abrahammer117]

Day 61: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 36: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 11: 18-6 intermittent fasting
Day 9: animal walking in morning
Day 8: no snacking
Day 7: 20mins incline treadmill in the morning OR some weight training ( total calories burned 1,400 )
Day 5: 20mins Now moment / Quiet mind meditation on stool
Day 5: Ab Hicks abundance meditation before sleeping
Day 2: No email / YouTube or random internet during morning period

Focusing on wanted side of things....

Average emotional mood still creeping up. I'm enjoying being OK with the scattiness of it - It's fine to be focused some of the time and not others.
On the upside of the emotional wave - sometimes emotional relief is amazingly physical feeling, particularly in my legs. When it hits I feel like I could happily bask for a good while in just how nice my body feels.

I feel relief if I say 'I'm bored of worrying about money'. I remember Hicks saying a while ago - get so happy you don't care what happens

I have a framing job today that has some... adventurous elements to it ,..... I'd love it all to go super well and clean and easy and for me to enjoy it.
Yesterday when I started on it - I felt nervous in a good way, haven't felt that feeling in a long time.

I've lost 2lbs since starting intermittent fasting. When I look in the mirror I feel about 10 times more attractive than I used to, I like this.
Feels good to remind myself of this 'your resistance was built up gradually over a long time, and it will be released gradually as well'
That's good to remember as it helps me settle into that place that indeed I am taking care of everything that needs to be taken care of through my daily releasing of resistance.

feels good to say ' The best thing I can do is really believe in the process '

something interesting that happens sometime when I do the Hicks meditation - a tear or two leak from my eyes. There is absolutely no 'crying' sensation, they just form - usually the better the meditation feels the more this happens. I remember Hicks once saying that crying is when you are allowing more love in that you're used to handling. Last nights meditation before bed had the most tears produced that I've ever had during doing this. Reading Hicks this morning also led to a single tear forming. All good signs

[spiritualcookie]

Feels good to remind myself of this 'your resistance was built up gradually over a long time, and it will be released gradually as well'

Just wondering - is that an exact Abraham quote? I'd love to put it in our "Quotes about Resistance" section if it is - it's a good one

PS Good luck with the adventurous framing job! I'm picturing framing inside a jeep, surrounded by safari animals

[abrahammer117]

Hi Spiritual Cookie

the adventurous framing is more the size - 1.88 meters x 1metre, I'd add a pic if my dropbox was working

I've tracked down the actual quote - it's from page 28 of the 'getting into the vortex' user guide

"You have picked up your Vibrational resistance to Well-
Being gradually as you have been moving along your physical
trail—and your releasing of this resistance will be gradual as
well."

[spiritualcookie]

wow that's huge!

Thanks so much for checking the quote! I've added it to the collection.

[abrahammer117]

Posting a little addendum today. From reading Hicks every morning, perhaps the most helpful nugget is the idea that if I am feeling negative emotion, then it means that my thoughts are paying attention to unwanted / negative aspects. Conversely positive emotion means the attention is on wanted / positive aspects. When attention is on unwanted, you are negatively creating and vice versa.

Nothing has helped me nudge my thinking better than remembering that. It reminds me that if I am dwelling in negative emotion I simply can't pretend to myself that anything I'm thinking right now is helping anything'. That removes perhaps the biggest stumbling block ; actually believing these thoughts are needed or helpful.
I took a break from playing the positive aspect game in my mind during the day for while as it felt like my brain was asking for a bit of quiet.
Today I played with it again while walking and I had a little epiphany... I used to ask myself 'what's a positive aspect of this moment' , 'what's a second positive... etc.'
I noticed that it felt better just to ask myself 'find a positive aspect... about anything ever!' As Hicks says, the more general you go the easier it is to get on the wheel so to speak.

[abrahammer117]

Day 62: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 37: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 9: 18-6 intermittent fasting + no snacking
Day 10: animal walking in morning
Day 5: Ab Hicks abundance meditation before sleeping
Day 1: No email or random internet during morning period + No random YouTube browsing of any kind ever. If I watch a video, watch all of it.

Focusing on wanted side of things....
I'd like my average mood to keep creeping up.
I'd like to head to warm up after being out for a walk in the cold

I'd like to dip less in to scatty misalignment here and there. I like noticing that browsing YouTube videos is something I keep going back to and that it seems to actually align me with negative aspects when I do so. I like noticing that that is because the impulse to browse is not coming from a positive aspect place and so adds momentum to that pattern. I'm excited be consciously aware of avoiding ransoms YouTube browsing. If I get a good feeling impulse to look for a specific topic - that's great! Also the intention feels good that if I do watch a video, it's good to only watch it if I intend to watch the whole thing and settle into it.

I feel like little positive tipping points are occurring all the time. There are moments where I really start to believe in myself again. Which I understand is really the absence of disbelieving in myself

I want to acknowledge that the fact I have been fully self employed for over 2 years and enough abundance has flowed in for us to keep going is fantastic and means that my base vibration must already be pretty pretty good!!!! I am on the journey from 'getting by' to fully secure and prosperous. I understand more and more that this is an emotional journey first. I'd like now to declare the certainty of moving to a prosperous place because I now know how to nudge my emotional journey a little bit every day , I enjoy doing it and I will enjoy keep doing it for evermore.