Being a match to outrageous Abundance!

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.


Day 12

Isn't this first quote, above, awesome!? "In a world of attraction, we don't ever need to pursue anything". THIS IS SO BOLD. And it is totally logical. And I begin to REALLY GET this!! It is kinda hard, and strange, to look through the lense of a limited paradigm, and in that, try to understand something radically bigger. I think, we all stand at this verge all the last years. We SEE the Newness and it deeply resonates with us (well, it certainly does with me). But we "can't fully wrap ourselves around it". And so we stand firmly planted with 2 feet in two worlds, so to speak, firmly torn in split energy...

I love seeing when I do that. And I love this moments when some evidence or sentence penetrates the cage.



...I allowed myself to want BIG. And I succeeded BIG, a lot of times. And I fell flat on my face, in other times I enrolled in depression and burn-out. I had my fair share of terror and fear and pain and DRAAAAAAMA::::
...And I never stopped desiring. I never ever gave up my dreams. And, in a world based on attraction- I really should not give up. But come to my senses and ITV. As I WANT TO ATTRACT WHAT I LIKE (not Draaaaamaaa and all that jazz... )

IT IS SO EASY. When I want to attract joy, I must offer joy. When I want to attract abundance, I must offer abundance in all sorts of ways! Abundance of dreams that I joyfully believe, abundance of eagerness, abundance of love and care, and abundance of appreciation about what already is. Duh!!!



I BASK in this promise!
I BASK in this fair, always functioning law! IT FEELS SOOOO GOOD!! IT FEELS SO GOOD.
Endless "chances". Endless "boats". NEVERENDING new opportunities. We can't get it wrong- because we never will get it done! And there is NO LETTING GO, no "giving up", as source is behind all my dreams. It is INEVITABLE that me and my dream will merge, one day. Halleluja!

I AM THE PERSON WHO LOVES LOVES LOVES HER DREAMS; and is eternal loyal and in love with them! I AM!

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.


Day 13

I received BIG inspiration about the BIGNESS of my dreams in the last day! And so, I want to BOLDLY AND LARGELY continue to milk a very BIG dream of mine...
Taking my inner-circle-core family (meaning my mate, all kids and kids in law and grandkids, which are all together a meager 13 people...) to a mutual AWESOME roadtrip, starting out in SanFrancisco, to celebrate my 40. wedding Anniversary, and to end up, and have my wedding vows renewed, in Las Vegas. AND then, carry on with a second honeymoon just for us 2 lovebirdies, - driving further in offroaders through Utah, then Moab, towards Denver. But, let's take all that in bitesize-pieces!

Bitesize-pieces or not... IT FEELS BIG. It is 4 journeys in one, it is LONG. It includes spring and summer. It includes all family- and just the 2 of us. IT IS EXPENSIVE!!
I have noooo idea when we will be ready for this- or, when Earth and the Time of Awakening will give green light, and when I will have the finances to achieve that, and I don't care!! AND I LOVE THIS!!! Lets start with "leg" no.1!



I want to gather my beloveds and fly with all of them into SanFrancisco. Where a travel-guide awaits us! We'll be taken care of, carried to our hotel, checked in, looked after, guided in small groups, shown to the best sites depending on interest. For those who love to drive, there are heavy motorbikes and -clothes. For those who prefer strolling on their own, they can do that. Those who love to be in a hosted group- we can have it all. AND, we have a photographer, who cares for taking the most amazing "street-art"-pics of all of us, for drone-flights, for scenic backgrounds...

It feels... outrageous. It feels foreign! BUT IT FEELS AWESOME!!! My heart skips in joy! Yesyesyes... I WANT this!!





I feel, how my family lets it sink in... and how they start to ENJOY it. I feel us CELEBRATING!! I feel us, exploring all the iconic places and streets and landscapes. I feel us all in awe! I see us laughing and joking, and BASKING. I see how they all take THEIR TIME. On their own, with their mate, with their children... feeling blessed. Feeling in Alignment with who they really are. Sharing the wonder. Letting it all sink in, deeply. Adoring the 5 classic convertibles from the 60ies, that we got after leaving the Golden Gate Bridge! Enjoying the culture. Adoring the cities, the villages, the STREET. Driving the iconic Highway 1! Feasting at the Pacific Ocean. Embracing all the famous places... Carmel by the Sea, Pebble Beach, BIG SUR! Sausalito, Santa Barbara, and then: Los Angeles. With all it's amazing landmarks. With all the awesome sh* we care for! Exploring, adoring, enjoying, having the time of our life!



It is BIG. It feels SO BIG. It feels like... once in a lifetime. It feels magic. And I know- I WANT THIS ALL IN THE HIGHEST ALIGNMENT. And, I can have it! I trust source. I trust my dream.

I am the person, who trusts her desires. who trusts God. Who trusts her Vortex, and who trusts the perfect UNFOLDING. I TRUST MY JOURNEY!

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.


Day 14

...Getting close to the middle of the 30-days!
I FEEEEEL how this works! I feel the trust, that I achieve. I have dropped the doubt! I SO LOVE THIS!!!
I feel safe. I feel secure, in harmony with my "outrageous" dreams and desires. I feel certain that I am worth all this- and so much more. I feel in harmony.

I so enjoy this power, this sense of really being "a pointer", of being able to CHOOSE, and have an effect on my life. And maybe even, inspiring others.
I LOVE to feel how, in my consistent endeavor of pushing my limits, I change, into what feels so much better.
I LOVE to realize, that this is never about effort! When I effort, I pull away from what I want. I must GIVE IN. I surrender. I relax into the arms of source, so to speak! I feel held and known and loved, and backed up. And this is awesome!

It feels so sweet, to take the next step when I am ready, and to chill, when I need more stabilizing. I can run and fly and be incredibly specific, when I feel in great alignment, and when I am balancing, I take it much more gentle, slow and general. THANK YOU ABE for having tought me!! IT WAS SO HELPFUL!!!!

and now, off to the "2. leg" of my outrageously abundant family-trip-adventure... embracing LAS VEGAS!



I think all my family has a love/hate relationship with Sin City. Maybe it even is something cultural- as we Germans really care for authenticity, being deeply tried and true, "real", caring, solid, high quality and meaningful. In THIS sense, I fell in love with the idea of Vegas, once I looked deeper into it's history and background. It is so easy to judge and see the negative unwanted sides, from a stance of self-righteousness. I wanted to shed that, fully! I wanted to see the awesomeness. The Goodness. The depth, the true authentic beauty, behind the glitter and make-up. And, while I wasn't "there" yet, I found such goodness and greatness.

Abe say, the Wanted is just the other (exact) side of the wave, of the Unwanted. It is perfectly equal. The Wanted goes into the Vortex of those who live and see the Unwanted. And there it is, and becomes more, and gets tended to by SOURCE itself. I feel that. I feel the depth! I feel the wonderful, stunning LOVE in this city. I feel the bravery, the trust, the power, the freedom that lived in those that built this huge fantastic creation- and keep it running, against all odds, against all being judged, against all being misunderstood. I respect this so deeply. And I take a slice of it, for ME.



I embrace fullheartedly the amazing nature that is to be enjoyed, in Vegas. I see my family in awe, as they explore the calm, fairytale-like parts of the city and the wild areas around. I want to fly open-door with several helicopters in formation, looking at the mountains in the morning sunrise, adoring the glistening lights in the night. Visit Grand Canyon and have a picnic on the ground, by the rivers banks! I want us to paddle on the river through the desert, I want to share the awe of aerobatics in a trainer plane, and the fun of driving in buggy carts. I want to marvel "underneath the water" and slide through the shark-tank! I want to see the awe in their faces when we help at the lions-habitat, and visit the shooting range. I want us to fly with the zipline through Fremont-Street.

I want to stay at the Cosmopolitan and meet in the nights on our balconies, taking in deeply the warm air of the desert. I want to feast on the uncountable buffets and stunningly beautifully decorated restaurants, where the best chefs of the whole world deliver masterpieces of food-art. I want to BE here. Relax and take my time wholly and fully, not get swept into chaos, but float and trust and love and adore and enjoy!

I want to LIVE peacefully in the glistening city of lights, breathing deeply eternal freedom, eternal, unhurtable love, ease and joy! I want to float in deepest appreciation and thankfulness. THANKFUL for my beloveds, thankful for the breathtaking abundance. THANK YOU!! THANK YOU LIFE!!



I am the person who sees the wanted sides of everything! I look through the eyes of source, and what I see is beautiful and good, beyond description!

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.


Day 15


Day 15. This is a significant point of contemplation for me.
How do I deepen my awareness that I AM a "pointer"? That I DO dictate to the Universe, with my focus, my desires, my decisions?
I got asked how I can prolong this work, month after month, when "nothing big is happening". Yah, maybe it looks that way. Maybe it looks like "useless trying and trying longer". And, while I ponder this...

I get even more aware, how I DEEPEN my trust. How I become more and more stable, clear, unconditionally joyful and in-love-with the dreams. It is not "more stuff", it is more quality, so to speak. I become rocksteady in all the good energy (expressed by my emotions). I FEEL AWESOME! I feel more and more rich and worthy and clear and certain!

And, just as Abe said- "the longer this takes, the more fun I have. I SO LOVE THIS TIME of "building". And, I GET s much goodness! The times where I was fearful and in lack around money are long gone. I AM incredibly abundant in so many ways I had wished 10 years, 5 years, even 2 years ago! I embrace solutions that I would not have considered or, really, dared, a few months ago. I feel so... invincible.

And I see, my dreams are nothing that one could spare from the monthly payment. They are HUGE, indeed "outrageous" in many ways, and I LIKE IT THAT WAY. In earlier years I felt called to defend and explain them, but no longer. I LOVE MY DREAMS; exactly as they are. THIS IS MY JOURNEY of embracing "obnoxious, outrageous, awesome, huge abundance", inside out, and in doing so, being the teacher through my own example. I feel proud. I feel clear. I love where I am!!



In Vegas, I want to wave good bye to my family! I LOVED to relax for a week or so in this breathtaking "outrageous" wonderful city, taking our all time- and adoring what humans have dared. It was a firework of experiences. It was PLENTY. It was bold, and surrounded by so many people, close beloveds, we celebrated life and we celebrated each other! It was TOGETHERNESS! We interacted with and pilots and wedding planners, and photographers and chefs and artists and room service and casino- employees and and and... and now, we leave behind all that, we embrace family and depart from each other in such deep thankfulness and love. We depart from the wonderful colorful classic cars from the 60ies... and enter into a sturdy camper-fourwheel vehicle. All on our own, again.

We two- just us two, head out into the desert, cross dried out water falls, see the stars twinkle in absolutely silent, dark velvety nights, and head towards Sedona. Where we allow magic to embrace us, and make miracles for us. What a change. What a shift. What thankfulness. WHAT ABUNDANCE to HAVE IT ALL.



We follow the Colorado River, and embrace solitude and being-on-our-own. Just us, God and nature (isn't it all the same!?) We feast on the beauty of Antelope Canyon, and adore the golden and red sunsets out in this one of a kind landscape. We cook our food on the campfire, but we also enjoy the high cuisine in the cities! We connect with the iconic places of our dreams and float on the energy of dreams and visions fulfilled... in Saltlake City, and the Bonneville Salt Flats, in Moab, we sense the Pioneers, the Outlaws of the "Wild West", the Mormons, the Indigenous people. So many dreams. So much evolution. So much momentum.

I am in awe to be HERE, and to feel it, and love it, and sense the evolution from step 1 to step 3. I feel so blessed to be able to live this. I feel incredibly rich! I feel incredibly clear. I feel SO blessed! I feel so thankful to oversee it, and get it, and to be in LOVE within it. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU life!!



We take time to embrace the deserts.
We tae time to become still.
We take TIME.
We are.
We are silent, and connect with the earth and the sky, and the heat of the day and the chill in the night.

I FEEL SO BLESSED. I AM SO THANKFUL. I am in deep love for what-is. I am allowing it all to be, within me, while I allow my preferences, to shine, too. ALL IS GOOD! ALL IS WELL!

I am a person, who feels at home where ever she is. I am God in physical form, surrounded by endless forms of divinity.

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.


Day 16

"Stop doubting and start thriving."
This sounds so easy- and I WANT TO FULLY WHOLLY EMBRACE IT.

I want to dictate to myself ...to drop the doubts, to drop the lingering resistances! I want to choose on purpose what uplifts me (and trust that it is the best I can do for others, as well!).

I CHOOSE TO BE THE PERSON FOR WHOM NOTHING MATTERS MORE THAN THAT SHE FEELS GOOD.



To take another "leg", another zig-zag route through this beautiful land, into the land where the "Wild West" started out- with all it's history and all it's amazingly beautiful landmarks... it feels beyond "outrageous. It is huge. And I feel how I touch my limits of "allowing". This journey, so far, was SO MUCH to allow. And now, even ask for more? More stunning views, more breathtaking roads, more beauty, more "taking our time..."?

...I CHOOSE TO BE THE PERSON FOR WHOM NOTHING MATTERS MORE THAN THAT SHE FEELS GOOD.

I relax into my desire.
I relax into the idea of being worthy.
I relax, into MYSELF.
I relax into the bigness of all of this. Source, please guide me!
Source, show me where is my way!



I think, it is time to rest. Somewhere on this last leg, I feel I want to STAY for some while. Stay, and allow myself to catch up. Stay, and simply breathe. Stay, and allow my heart to embrace it all, fully. Breathe in the air of the forests, watch spring turn into summer. Listening to the birds, adoring the wildlife. JUST BEING. Breathing. Needing nothing, No must, no should. Staying and digest the huge Goodness that was!

I CHOOSE TO BE THE PERSON FOR WHOM NOTHING MATTERS MORE THAN THAT SHE FEELS GOOD.



I reached my "destination" of this journey in Denver. Mile High City, "on top of the world".
I take my knee for the vastness that is! I am in such awe for all that was. And I guess, somewhen, there will be even MORE!
I relax into the eternal, endless Beauty of Creation.
I relax into being humble and self aware in deep love- at the same time. Life is eternal, and unfathonable precious, and life is so small. Both is true.

Just because I might not be able to contain more at this point doesn't mean that there isn't endlessly MORE! I realize true ABUNDANCE. It is sooo wide and rich, one on their own can't embrace it. And doesn't need to! Sometimes it is the most perfect thing to detach just a little bit and go general... and soothe yourself with a little sweet bite, and a cup of hot tea. And maybe a good book, some focus on less that AWESOMENESS, some sleep... and the understanding, I have endlessly time. I have endlessly more chances to embrace endlessly more. It is perfectly ok to not "do" it all, here and now.

There is all of it there, tomorrow, too... or even better. Thank you for having my cup runneth over! THANK YOU FOR THE ABUNDANCE of ABUNDANCE!
I CHOOSE TO BE THE PERSON FOR WHOM NOTHING MATTERS MORE THAN THAT SHE FEELS GOOD.


Afternoon Tea in the Brown Palace Hotel, Denver

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.


Day 17


I want to embrace ABUNDANCE deeper.
Abundance, BEING RICH... this feels deeper and more delicious to me than ever!
It feels pampered. It feels "on top of the world", because: LIFE IS SO EFFORTLESS AND EASY.
I get to have it all, in total ease. Just by wishing for it. Relaxing into it! Speak of "going with the flow"... no effort, no struggle, no trying.

But trusting and enjoying and expecting... being carried!
It feels as seeing and being seen- IN LOVE. Effortless. Light, sweet, wonderful, RICH!



It feels as full of chances, that I might have had no idea! Literally: SURPRISE AND DELIGHT! A smile, and "kiss", a dance out of the blue- with people and animals and the wind or the water, the snow or the sun. AND ALWAYS THE EARTH. It feels awesome! It feels like being embraced, fully. Fully known, wherever I am. Loved. Acknowledged. Cared for. It tastes so good! It feels so good! It comes so lightly! It calls me, it holds me light, it asks me out, it decends on me, it seduces me- while it is totally free! IT FEELS SO RICH!



Abundance is celebration with all our heart, all our body, all our love, all our senses, all our mind. IT TAKES AND GIVES IT ALL, overflowingly good! It feels so RICH. It feels exuberant. It feels like being showered with gifts- expected and unexpected! It feels sooo WORTHY. It feels so sweet. so delicious. It feels so delightful! It feels as Gods, dancing with each other all the time. I SO LOVE ABUNDANCE.

I am the woman who KNOWS ABUNDANCE IN AND OUT. Who is the lover and playmate and student and master of ABUNDANCE!

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.


Day 18

I was reminded by Bashar ("same entity as us, through a different outlet"- Abe) today about my love and strive for ecstasy!

Reach for 100% ecstasy!

Bashar:
All right that's fine if if you want to stay at 90%! Stay at 90%, that's fine. Stay at 90%... you're doing just fine.

However, let me remind you that in the definition of ecstasy there is no such thing as a concept of "just fine"!

So, if you want to remain just fine, that's fine. If you want to be ecstatic... BE ECSTATIC!

...Ohhhhh YES! This feels PERFECT.
I absolutely "can imagine" that. And while I really love to be 90% happy (and maybe more)- I WANT TO FEEL ECSTATIC. REALLLLY in Alignment!
No arguing for my limitations! But hanging my hat higher, opening my heart more, letting go of even more resistances, fears and trained crap!


Our summer '23 in Switzerland, the South of France and Italy

How does HIGH Alignment- ecstasy- FEEL like?
It feels deeply grounded in KNOWING. There is a deep, deep peaceful full, whole understanding of what truly is, of who I really am- and the power, the bigness, the awe of this. It is a incredibly satisfying KNOWING OF GOODNESS. Of POWER. OF MY FREEDOM. OF THE BASIS BEING LOVE.
It feels totally effortless. It feels wholly in peace. It feels very friendly and easy and LOVING! It feels light.
It feels stable. It feels totally clear. It feels delighted. It feels eager and passionate and fascinated!

But in the same time, it is calm. A calm that comes from being wholly, fully, in unconditional love.
The calm feels invincible. It feels totally free, and wholly empowered.
It feels like being one with the core of everything- the love, the joy, the worth, the full, whole KNOWINGNESS.

It feels so good! It feels so awesomely, divinely GOOD.



I am the woman, who KNOWS ALIGNMENT WITH GOD; WITH ALL SHE IS.
I AM ROOTED IN PEACEFUL; KNOWING ALIGNMENT.

(fuller quote to the excerpt above)...

The HS is literally arguing with Bashar for her limitations, and he doesn't let her through, with it. In the end she states:
I could say that I'm pretty much happy like I mean... not 100%, but 90% of the time I'm happy with what I have, what I do, so...

Bashar:
All right, that's fine. If if you want to stay at 90%! Stay at 90%, that's fine. Stay at 90%... you're doing just fine. However, let me remind you that in the definition of ecstasy there is no such thing as a concept of "just fine"! So, if you want to remain just fine, that's fine.
If you want to be ecstatic... BE ECSTATIC!

HS:
Yeah, but how possibly a human being can be ecstatic every... like every day of their life?

Bashar:
Why not? Why not? Well maybe you have a misunderstanding of how ecstasy needs to be expressed? When we talk about excitement, we don't mean that you're jumping up up and down with your hair on fire all the time.

Excitement CAN be experienced, Passion CAN be experienced as a quiet, peaceful state of balanced meditation, too! I'm not saying that the physical act is representative of excitement. But being in the vibration of your true self, in that passionate energy, and allowing it to be expressed in all the ways that it can be expressed, will allow you to experience a constant stream of ecstasy in a variety of expressions!

from the youtube-clip: Bashar - This Is Why You're Holding Yourself Back | Darryl Anka | Channeled Messages

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.


Day 19

I love the stance that I have trained me into: I REALLY TRUST MY LIFE.
I feel no fear of the unexpected anymore, and I am sooo proud about it! And, I want even more of this.

I soo love the ABUNDANCE OF TRUST.
It feels deeply peaceful, being relaxed, expecting surprise and delight!
Being relaxed and deeply calm and in a wonderful, sweet, enjoyment of the now-moment (and now again, and again!) ...and expecting even more well being from that.

I love to "float along, going with the flow, trusting my journey..." and find all the good things! Only paying the "price of happiness". It feels as a miracle. It feels as a quantum-shift. It feels as magical healing. It feels as having healed. IT FEELS SO GOOD.



I love how this peaceful basis makes me eager and passionate. I have the energy, I have the momentum, I have the resources to be spontaneous and sharp! I see the open doors! I realize the funny pun! I notice the awesomeness. I hear the beautiful sound. I smell the wonderful fragrance. Life is sooo colorful for me. Life is so wonderfully varied, and interesting, and stunning, and awesome- while I feel SO RELAXED. So safe, so secure, so light, so filled up with divine joy and love and power!



It feels so balanced. In and out, day and night, young and old, earnest and hilarious, deep and high. It all is perfect where I find it. I embrace it all, with so much appreciation and love and thankfulness! Life is SO BIG and so incredibly precious and good! And it's becoming gooder! I SO LOVE LIFE: SO MUCH MORE TO EXPLORE AND TO FIND AND TO ENJOY AND TO ADORE! So much to share, and look at with loving eyes of myself or my mates... So much to wish for and to allow, on and on and on!

I am the one who is endlessly in love with the incredible life-buffets on planet Earth. I am... PARADISE ON EARTH!

Thank you, thank you, thank you- beloved life!




You don't have to go after anything.
Everything you want is coming to you!

Abraham Hicks

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.


Day 20


I am a happy person. I will have a happy ending!
My happy ending is, that I truly GET what I desire. Each step in my life brings me achievements!
ach step in my life is a building block of my castle. Each moment is a brick of joy, love or wonder!



I am telling a new story. I am telling the story of how I succeed, and feel SUCCESSFUL, due letting go of the oars! Life had to wrestle me down to the ground (didn't kill me ) ...and now, I I learned it. Ohhh, it feels sooooo good to go with the flow! It feels so good to TRUST. It feels so good to stop all the effort. It FEELS SO LIGHT.

I trust my life. I trust God. I trust my impulses. I trust my dream. I trust my divine helpers! I TRUST THE GOOD FEELING. It feels sweet, and relaxed, and full of myself. No need, no should, no must. I AM FREE and I live the sweetest life. I am SO thankful!!



I witness how things become. I witness how nice people are. I witness how good my life is. I witness how HAPPY I am! I witness how free I feel. I witness how my day is a steady flow of joy, excitement, laughter, delight, deliciousness. MY LIFE IS AWESOME! What a success!



I trust the Good Energy and -Focus! I GET the happy ending, while I am not yet at the end. And I will never be, as there will always be more. MORE BLISS! More joy! More eagerness! More passion! More love! More FULFILLMENT!

I am the person that TRUSTS SOURCE TO GUIDE ME THROUGH JOY, towards everything that matters to me!

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30 days of dictating to the Universe, and lining up with who I really AM.

Day 21


I want to tell the new story of daring to be wholly, fully successful! I want to embrace already BEING successful.
I want to be the person who embraces her unique, individual desires- and allowing those desires to BE. To LIVE. To UNFOLD.
I love understanding that source, God, does never judge us for any desire. There are no "bad" desires. Source always understand where a desire becomes, and always says "yes" to the desired expansion.

I let that penetrate me deeper. It feels soothing. It feels like, shedding sadness. Or better said, allowing the sadness to surface. Allowing the sadness of me, having held back, TO BE. I am sad. I embrace myself, having been empty for so long, in many ways. I had desires that where'nt been allowed to live. I have stuffed them down. It felt safer this way. I didn't allow me, to create what I had desired. It is what it is. I am sad. And I embrace myself. I see myself.

I held myself back to not hurt others. But also, to not hurt myself. And it happened in the dark cellars... where I couldn't see what I was doing. All is well. I am where I am. I will be shown the way into the light.



In some way that I don't yet understand, and I don't need to, was this FOR ME. It amounted momentum. It made my desire bigger. It made myself sharper, more intense. My Vortex has a huge, bold, unstoppable momentum! I believ that. I can see that. And I guess, it was worth it. Well, I deeply TRUST that it was worth it.

I think, my desires needed bold and strong roots! My desires need an intense momentum, and I needed to be AWARE. Aware of who I am and who not, Aware of my tools, aware of my hearts guidance, aware, and disciplined, and trained into REALLY knowing love. I am quite proud of me! I never meant ill. I never really KNEW what I was doing, when I did the surpressing... "Father forgive them- and me. For I did not know what we did". I am certain of Gods forgiveness... and that God never judged to begin with. I shall do the very sam. Not judge, and if I did- forgive.

...I DO. I forgive myself. I hold myself in understanding and love. I penetrate myself with understanding. And with love. I breathe. I breathe. Love! Love. Love. Love. I let it sink in.



Play, ease, laughter, fun, joy, relaxation, and light. Easy! Soft, loving, friendly, easy. Lightly, friendly, slowly, deeply. LOVE. Peace. Ease. Joy! Light! Freedom. Freedom, understanding. Deeply deeply understanding. Embracing myself. It was hard! It was dark. It was long. It was painful. I know, I know, I know! I open the doors and let the light flood in. I have all time of the world. I don't need anything! I let go of all should's. I allow me to be free. I allow me to lay, in the sun. To move very slowly. All is well! I TAKE ALL MY TIME. I breathe deeply. I love. I breathe light all around me. Light. Light light, light. light! Freedom. Joy. Ease. Ease. Loving easy. Lightly swaying. Easy. Playful. Lovingly. Easy, easy, easy!



I will heal, eventually. No pushing. No should. Sloly. Lightly. Lovingly. All is well, all is very, very well!
I allow, and watch what happens. I allow, and watch what happens. I allow and watch what happens.