My Diary

[abrahammer117]

haha that's crazy! What area of Biology, are you still working int it? I was 'cell biology' which is what's left when you avoid plants and anatomy/physiology as much as you can. Left science 20 years ago.

Yeah, "Life of Plants" was a lot of people's favourite module for taking naps My Animal Anatomy teacher was such a joker though that his lectures were super entertaining; like going to a standup comedy show every week - I always admired lecturers who could make any subject interesting like that! I did "general Biology" - so a bit of everything - even some courses in the History (of Medicine) department! It's been a bit of a squiggly path away from science for me - I went from thinking I wanted a career in medical research, to thinking I wanted to be a Nutritionist, to then thinking I wanted to be a Naturopath or Psychotherapist... so now, naturally I'm working in graphic design

Hmmm our 'funny' lecture did our physiology unit - you didn't go to Uni of Manchester did you?
We're on a crazy similar path - I did one year of disease research, quit and trained as a person centred counsellor, now I run a little art gallery and do framing and printing. My guess is that like me, you are an Enneagram Type 5 link here

[spiritualcookie]

you didn't go to Uni of Manchester did you?
We're on a crazy similar path - I did one year of disease research, quit and trained as a person centred counsellor, now I run a little art gallery and do framing and printing. My guess is that like me, you are an Enneagram Type 5 link here

I didn't go to Manchester - I was down in London, but I am a Type 5! Woah you were interested in counselling too? I guess it makes sense actually since the Abraham work is very much about understanding people as well : ) Come to think of it, even the biomedical field is about understanding how people work on a different level! It's all connected! well apart from the art business bit - not sure how that fits in

Looking at it through an Abe lens, it must be the Law of Attraction at work bringing similar people together!

[abrahammer117]

Day 75: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 50: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 22: 2 meals a day, no snacking
Day 11: Hicks abundance meditation every day
Day 3: Hicks morning routine. a) lie in bed appreciating at least 5m b) shower + eat breakfast c) meditate 15mins d) list things I appreciate about my life 5-10 mins
Day 2: Each morning make a list of positive aspects on my business and also on my finances

Quick one today! I am a place right now where I am enjoying my free time more and more. The better I feel the more I can sense a financial improvement coming.
It's easier and easier to feel enjoyment and appreciation for this aspects of my business that ARE working really well.

I've noticed that every step along the way on deliberately creeping up the emotional scale - there is a voice in my head saying 'that's not a good idea'.. 'feel better if you want but don't let go of THAT concern because it's keeping you afloat' or 'feel good but not TOO good cos then you won't do what you need to'
They're like key flinch points and it feels really good to ignore them and choose to keep feeling better.

Oooh on my day off yesterday - I WANTED to set a timer and spend 45mins writing lists of positive aspects and I had a good time doing it.

[abrahammer117]

you didn't go to Uni of Manchester did you?
We're on a crazy similar path - I did one year of disease research, quit and trained as a person centred counsellor, now I run a little art gallery and do framing and printing. My guess is that like me, you are an Enneagram Type 5 link here

I didn't go to Manchester - I was down in London, but I am a Type 5! Woah you were interested in counselling too? I guess it makes sense actually since the Abraham work is very much about understanding people as well : ) Come to think of it, even the biomedical field is about understanding how people work on a different level! It's all connected! well apart from the art business bit - not sure how that fits in

Looking at it through an Abe lens, it must be the Law of Attraction at work bringing similar people together!

I suspect you're a 5 with a 4 wing too (more clive barker / Stephen king) rather than a 5 with a 6 wing (Bill gates)
Yeah I trained for 4 years and got the advanced diploma, didn't really have the heart to practice it though after qualifying.
Funnily enough the originator of person centred counselling, Carl Rogers, developed a personality model that is the closest to Hicks I've seen with this 'self image' vs 'organismic self' theory and 'loci of evaluation'. I had a big Buddhist phase too and did 4 months in a monastery. I feel like understanding business and abundance is my last missing piece . anyways gotta go to work!!...

and yeah - law of attraction definitely kicking in here!

[spiritualcookie]

I suspect you're a 5 with a 4 wing too (more clive barker / Stephen king) rather than a 5 with a 6 wing (Bill gates)

Just re-reading the types, 5 with a 4 wing sounds like a decent fit : )

The 'self image' vs 'organismic self' theory and 'loci of evaluation' sounds interesting - I'll put it on my list of things to check out

It's cool you got to experience a wide array of things. Like tasting lots of ice cream flavours

Sorry to distract you from your Abe work btw - keep up the good work!

[abrahammer117]

I suspect you're a 5 with a 4 wing too (more clive barker / Stephen king) rather than a 5 with a 6 wing (Bill gates)

Just re-reading the types, 5 with a 4 wing sounds like a decent fit : )

The 'self image' vs 'organismic self' theory and 'loci of evaluation' sounds interesting - I'll put it on my list of things to check out

It's cool you got to experience a wide array of things. Like tasting lots of ice cream flavours

Sorry to distract you from your Abe work btw - keep up the good work!

Haha, yes back to work...

[abrahammer117]

Day 76: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 51: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 23: no snacking
Day 12: Hicks abundance meditation every day
Day 4: Hicks morning routine. a) lie in bed appreciating at least 5m b) shower + eat breakfast c) meditate 15mins d) list things I appreciate about my life 5-10 mins
Day 3: Each morning make a list of positive aspects on my business and also on my finances

So! Had a really good day in the business yesterday and feeling alot more financially optimistic. What I would like now is to keep on going like this so my average mood continues to improve.

[abrahammer117]

Day 77: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 52: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 24: no snacking
Day 13: Hicks abundance meditation every day
Day 5: Hicks morning routine. a) lie in bed appreciating at least 5m b) shower + eat breakfast c) meditate 15mins d) list things I appreciate about my life 5-10 mins
Day 4: Each morning make a list of positive aspects on my business and also on my finances
Reminder: When responding to negative emotion feel which is best a) allowing yourself to feel fully, no mental action b) look for positive aspects

Focusing on wanted - I'd like to feel more focused, happy and enthusiastic. I feel it's close and I'm not giving up on nudging over there.
I like remembering that happiness is the yellow brick road to all improvements.

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Had a day with a fair bit of mild negative emotion today - tried quite a few things but mind felt scatty all day. Then finally I remembered something that the last few months have really taught me which is it's often best to respond to negative emotion with just allowing myself to feel it fully. I can tell when reaching for positive aspects etc feels more like fighting than relief and then I feel immediate touch of relief when I let myself just feel it fully.

[abrahammer117]

Day 78: Reading Ab Hicks for 45mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 52: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 5: Hicks morning routine. a) lie in bed appreciating at least 5m b) shower + eat breakfast c) meditate 15mins d) list things I appreciate about my life 5-10 mins
Reminder: Self-praise...

Focusing on wanted side of things...... ( cheating by saying "I want to acknowledge" lol )
I want to acknowledge that there was a lot of negative emotion over the last 2 days and that this is a good thing. In my journey into 2024 it has been a very consistent pattern that as my average mood increases I'll have some rough days every now and again but they always get through them without giving up on the path - and when out the other side I feel that I am in a better place than before the rough couple of days. Almost like Eckhart Tolle's Pain Body surfaces for feeding.

I want to acknowledge that the last 2 mornings of reading Hicks have been the first 2 days where I didn't find any relief. This morning I switched from reading 'The Vortex' to reading 'Ask and It is Given' and had a good time again. Such a great book.

I'd like to enjoy not freaking out at negative emotion - seeing it as a sign that I am on the path of gradually releasing resistance.
OOohh - I'd like to declare to myself that I have not 'gone backwards' or 'plateaued' because I have not given up on my approach and I am continuing to find emotional relief here and there every day.

Something that's coming back to me (and there was a time I did this alot ) is saying gently in my mind, breathe in , breathe out - these thoughts alone are enough to release resistance. And this is true. Sometimes when I do that I catch a whiff of relief and it's easy to stick with. I feel like trying that today at work

[abrahammer117]

Day 79: Reading Ab Hicks for 20mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 53: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 6: Hicks morning routine. a) lie in bed appreciating at least 5m b) shower + eat breakfast c) meditate 15mins
Day 1: Meditate three times a day (circular breathing, just feeling that constant sensation of the breath moving, no counting or offering any thought at all)
Reminder: Only play with the other processes when I'm good at 'quiet mind'

Yesterday was a big step 1 day, full of all those lovely step 1 benefits
I only want to write what feels good to write, so not bothering will all the background - what's the nitty gritty?
I like meditation again (there we go). I feel like I understand it again and I love the meditation chapter in ask and it is given.
I feel like I want to avoid (at least right now) anything that involves the offering of deliberate thought e.g. positive aspects etc.
Even counting my breaths feels upstream - but gently feeling that sensation of movement in circular breathing is great.
Something stood out int he meditation chapter of ask and it is given - she counted giving attention to the sensation of breathing AS choosing a better feeling thought.
Even though no actual words are involved.

Oh and I had a lovely meditation this morning that I continued for a second 15 mins. Lots of lovely relief.

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And I'll add that although there was much Step 1 yesterday there were also signs that I am still progressing e.g. I naturally wanted to stay off any superfluous internet during the whole day. Can't remember the last time I did that. There were some periods alignment that felt 'new'

IT's good to be honest about my emotional guidance system - since Saturday I've not found much relief in reading Hicks every morning. I suspect because my mind is asking for more quiet in general. So I've reduced my reading to 20mins to keep my toe in.