My Diary

[abrahammer117]

Day 79/80: Reading Ab Hicks for 20mins each morning ( My no1 easiest and most reliable resistance releasing activity )
Day 54: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 7: Hicks morning routine. a) lie in bed appreciating at least 5m b) shower + eat breakfast c) meditate 15mins
Day 2: Meditate 2 or 3 times a day (circular breathing, just feeling that constant sensation of the breath moving, no counting or offering any thought at all)
Reminder: Only play with the other processes when I'm good at 'quiet mind'

I'd like to acknowledge that it's a really good thing that I've spotted that reading Hicks every morning does not give that 'relief' anymore.
I'm in a stage where mental quiet and stillness is what's bringing relief. I'm looking forward to my day off tomorrow where I intend to sit around alot in coffee shops
Good day at the business yesterday! Surprise sales and orders coming through.

[abrahammer117]

Day 55: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 3: Meditate 2 or 3 times a day (no counting or offering any thought at all)
Day 1: 2 hours in coffee shop in the morning. No exercises / books / phone etc.

So! Following where my inspiration and relief is leading me... for a day I'd been looking forward to coffee shop this morning with the intention of sitting there for 2 hours. Not doing any exercises, no phones or books. No mental effort! Just sitting for 2 hours. Definitely feels good and right. Interestingly my hips and legs felt great after - I was expecting to be a bit stiff. Looking forward to doing it again tomorrow

I've removed 'reading Hicks every morning' from the day counters as it really feels that that time has passed

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Focusing on wanted side of things i.e. there's about 5 sentences of justifications I'm not gonna write
I want to acknowledge that my emotional guidance system is telling me ; that following my impulses to randomly check email // browse YouTube // browse Instagram on phone , is moving me away from my inner being and therefore away from the things I really want in life. Took me ages to write that sentence!
Feels very good to express it like that. I'd love to view my morning times as an amazing opportunity to easily get in a good block of what you might call dopamine fasting but I call just avoiding those activities that I feel less good AFTER doing. That's a good thing to ask myself actually when I get these impulses, will I fell better AFTER I've done that?

[abrahammer117]

Day 56: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 4: Meditate 2 or 3 times a day (no counting or offering any thought at all)
Day 2: 2 hours in coffee shop in the morning. No exercises / books / phone etc.

Focusing on wanted side of things:
So! I've done my second day of sitting in a coffee shop for 2 hours. I got a good spot to sit with my teddies and had a nice synchronicity of bumping into some people I know

I definitely feel the benefit of this in a deep way - looking forward to 3 hours tomorrow. From a Hicks point of view - I'm practicing 'allowing my cork to float'
My average day to day mood is still creeping up. At times I feel powerful and optimistic again. I love that my intuition is improving all the time on 'allowing' myself to feel better and not trying to drag my cork up through mental effort.

In combination with my 2 hour sits in the morning, I'm liking staying off the internet entirely until I get to work.
Watch this space!

[abrahammer117]

Day 57: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 3: 2 hours in coffee shop in the morning. No exercises / books / phone etc.

Very quick post today. I'm liking my 2 hours in the coffee shop every morning. I'm liking regaining a sense of being able to have control over how I feel without going mental about about it.

[abrahammer117]

Day 58: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 4: 2 hours in coffee shop in the morning. No exercises / books / phone etc. (RESTING)
Day 1: Meditate 2 or 3 times a day for 15 minutes
Reminder: I am doing really well (feels good and aligns with what I want)
Reminder: Step 1 is specific... Step 3 is general, really really general
Reminder: My only work is to improve my receptivity: Be well rested, have more fun. There was one more but I forget

Focusing on wanted side of things:
I want to acknowledge that I feel my average mood is still creeping up.
Yesterday I realised I could actually access the thought 'I'm doing well' and it feel good to do so (so must just be within range) and when it felt good I could tell that was aligning me with good things. I'd like to feel that more often, that I'm doing well, and remember that that puts me in a perfect place for good things.

I'm on day 4 of sitting for 2 hours in a coffee shop in the morning with no books / exercises / phone etc.
I really feel something in me is healing from this and it's allowing my inner being to break through a little bit more all the time.

[abrahammer117]

Day 59: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 6: 2 hours in coffee shop in the morning. No exercises / books / phone etc. (RESTING)
Day 2: Meditate 2 or 3 times a day for 15 minutes
Reminder: I am doing really well (feels good and aligns with what I want)
Reminder: Step 1 is specific... Step 3 is general, really really general
Reminder: My only work is to improve my receptivity: Be well rested, have more fun. There was one more but I forget

Focusing on wanted:
I want to have a good day at work today where I feel well throughout and don't tail off as the day goes on.
The main factor in allowing this is avoiding random internet use. I'd love to know what it feels like to make it to 6pm without any random internet use

I am on day 6 of coffee shopping every morning and it's going really well. Evidence of my gradually improving vibe is popping here and there which is lovely. For example last night I ran to costa to get my girlfriend a slice of chocolate cake (I'm a good boyfriend lol) and they gave me a slice for free because it had been paid for but not collected!

Something that it is hitting home strongly is Hicks saying that my work is to be well rested. That's huge and is what I've tipped over into. Particularly rest for the brain.

[spiritualcookie]

Evidence of my gradually improving vibe is popping here and there which is lovely. For example last night I ran to costa to get my girlfriend a slice of chocolate cake (I'm a good boyfriend lol) and they gave me a slice for free because it had been paid for but not collected!

wow! how cool! Counter to the usual saying, there IS such a thing as as free lunch!
Evidence that easy, fun (and delicious!) abundance is in your path!

[abrahammer117]

Evidence of my gradually improving vibe is popping here and there which is lovely. For example last night I ran to costa to get my girlfriend a slice of chocolate cake (I'm a good boyfriend lol) and they gave me a slice for free because it had been paid for but not collected!

wow! how cool! Counter to the usual saying, there IS such a thing as as free lunch!
Evidence that easy, fun (and delicious!) abundance is in your path!

may it continue

[abrahammer117]

Day 60: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 7: 2 hours in coffee shop in the morning. No exercises / books / phone etc. (RESTING)
Day 3: Meditate 2 or 3 times a day for 15 minutes
Reminder: I am doing really well (feels good and aligns with what I want)
Reminder: Step 1 is specific... Step 3 is general, really really general
Reminder: My only work is to improve my receptivity: Be well rested, have more fun. There was one more but I forget

There were moments yesterday of real happiness coming through. More good signs.
The biggest thing ringing my bells from Abraham right now is that 'my work is to be well rested'. Just feeling into the word 'rested' or 'rest' and that feeling like a good idea is a great turnaround for me. When I think of this rest is is dominantly 'mental rest' I think of.

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It's in my 'reminders' but I want to emphasise so strongly that the fact that ' I am doing really well ' as a thought is able to land regularly now and it feels very nice.
Whenever negative emotion pops up it's super obvious that my thoughts have flipped to 'I am doing badly - I need to beat myself up or punish myself into doing better'

[abrahammer117]

Day 61: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 8: 2 hours in coffee shop in the morning. No exercises / books / phone etc. (RESTING)
Day 4: Meditate 2 or 3 times a day for 15 minutes
Reminder: I am doing really well (feels good and aligns with what I want)
Reminder: Step 1 is specific... Step 3 is general, really really general
Reminder: My only work is to improve my receptivity: Be well rested, have more fun.

Something I really want - I wanna to feel powerful again!

After yesterday's nice times just sitting on the sofa in my flat - I decided to try my 2 hours of 'morning just sitting' in my living room. It was really nice - maybe even better than the coffee shop because it's easier to relax in private. Saves me £3.10 too

The more rested I get the more it makes sense that 'rested and happy' is the path for financial abundance.
When I started reading Hicks every morning for 45 mins I knew I was on the right track as there would be moments or little periods of genuine emotional relief occurring during that time. I can say the same thing is happening with my new focus on resting each morning. My approach to meditation has really changed too where I actually want to relax into it rather than work at it.

I'd like to point out to myself that the 'gradual change' thing still applies. I'm still releasing a little more resistance each day and the more I release the more patient I feel with outcomes.