Hi all. I'm not sure why I'm posting because for the first time since discovering the teachings in 2007, my faith in Abraham's teachings has been shaken.
Since first listening to the recordings in 2007, I've made every stride and effort to make them work for me and am still coming up with empty bank accounts at the end of each month. I know someone will be tempted to point out that I used the word "effort", which indicates that I'm trying too hard, but at the same time, I can say with certainty that I completely understand every aspect of the teachings VIVIDLY. I could easily coach people on this if I could back it up. I know I've probably asked for more wealth than all the top richest people in the world combined given that my situation hasn't changed, but I have yet to allow anything more than a trickle of evidence from time to time.
More recently, I had an "a-ha" moment about just relaxing and letting it flow. This was nearly a month ago and since then, I haven't worried about money at all. I've been optimistic. I've trusted that it's coming. I've read books. I've done exercises and practices. I've had Abraham on in the background daily. I've been expecting it and excited for it every day for weeks, but I've also been very Zen about virtually everything in that time. I've felt consistently great and I haven't given any attention to "what is"...at all. And yet, my bank account just went into the negative again because I'm not "receiving" anything - only "earning."
At this point, I am beyond frustrated. I see people say it took them nearly a decade to get it and were then flooded with their wealth, but I've been at this for nearly two decades and my bank account still won't go above whatever I "earn," hence, my frustration and wondering if there's something stuck that simply won't ever budge. Am I the only one that this just doesn't work for, despite feeling a resonance with it? What on Earth is holding me back for so long?? At this point, I don't even want to be rich. I just want my bills paid and a little extra money to take a road trip here and there with my toddler.
What's Holding Me Back?
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Re: What's Holding Me Back?
Hi mikec! 
I want to state before any of my answers, that I could have written this almost exact post, hundreds of times! Just so that you know- NO, YOU ARE NOT "THE ONLY ONE"!!!! I have been there and done that, and I admit- in my darkest hours, I still go there when I don't catch myself!
and ITS OK.
Which is the very first advice (and you probably know it anyway): Don't allow momentum on your "dark moments". As Abe advice, when you feel rotten, then don't think, don't talk, don't post on social media, don't wallow in it... don't do anything. Go into your bed and SHUT UP AND CHILL OUT.
I know! So much easier said than done. But to stop the unwanted momentum, and instead chill (or meditate, or sleep, or distract in ANY way that works for you) is the very first rule (and so many people miss it and wonder why they are living in the mud, so to speak). But when you have slipped- and you did, we all do!- THEN BE NICE TO YOURSELF.
It is not the end of the world. You just are in misery (=OOTV) for some while, where your brain doesn't work, you only CAN see it all distorted, and all your wisdom is out of the window. That's all. Dust yourself off, and go back ITV! No big deal.
For me, it was 2009.
...wich MIGHT be the case! ("We love you very very much!")
*I* DO teach people, even I'm in no way "perfect". Which, to be honest- we all never will be.
I think, here is one of the reasons you "fail": You seem to come from the (old) paradigm, that you need to be above the problems to be "good". And if you are not, you belong under a rock, and please don't crawl out and have an opinion, and CERTAINLY, don't teach.
This was (and maybe still is) one of the hangups that *I* discovered, and even they claim to be sooo positive, spiritual people can be incredibly cruel and mean in pointing out that "you are not good enough yet". Which also, hints to a probability that we IN OURSELF may still have the tendency to judge ourselves as not (yet?) good enough.
All of this is a thing that comes up big times in step 4.
(if any of my words are causing questionmarks, please look into the Forum-dictionary
viewtopic.php?p=2695#p2695, or the quote-section for clarification! I am speaking not necessarily to you mikec as an oldtimer, but to every newbie who reads here, as well).
In step 4 (=you became a master of step 3, meaning you REALLY understand how this teachings work and you wholeheartedly apply them),
you know how to avoid pains that were your "normal" before you got so good at this. But you are not yet really grounded in UNCONDITIONAL LOVE (that would be step 5). And you tend to club yourself over the head when you do things "wrong" (and you very exactly know when that happens). And in this awareness of what you are doing wrong or not good enough, you attract (duh!) those mean sharks that sniff blood and like to attack, because being mean feels better to them than feeling disempowered.
And so I guess- you might have attracted some sharks (or, if you are lucky, just your own harsh judgement) that really has/have hurt you, and who indicats this deeply sensed fear within you that you would need to be perfect, before you can expect big payoffs.
Which is not true. But it IS a very common fear in people who have come far "and gave things their everything". And of course, it holds you back, BIG TIMES.
High 5 again!
So, a REALLY big question gives you REALLY big indicators, when you don't allow it's solution. Aka, it makes for REALLY feeling lousy, when you are not in UNCONDITIONAL self-love.
I SO hear you. Please understand that I hear you!
AND: It is normal that we have ups and lows. (It will always be this way). So when you did this positive practice, as you say (and I completely believe you that you did it VERY well, and that you believe even you did it "perfectly"!) -then your moment-to-moment-outcome would be joy, satisfaction, feeling certain, feeling happy, feeling thankful. ...Was it?
If it was (and I think it must have been!) then, for heavens sake don't trample it, as you do here!!!
If it wasn't- then none of what you say makes sense. You simply can not practice ease and joy and unconditional happiness and end up with being frustrated beyond words!
But certainly, you can have had a very good month, where you realllly have felt good (with some fear peppered in, this time or the other- that it might not work again. Which is normal, and nothing bad per se!). And then, this fear got just a little bigger. And even bigger. And so, you looked at your bank-account, and then you pondered that this realllllly never before had worked- and off you went into a full blown downspiral. (been there, done that hundreds of times, myself). And then, in THIS moment, or in being "realistic" and looking back at this moment) you take the "snapshot" of "how I am doing", and come here and post about it.
You didn't, when you adored the sunset! You didn't when you laid on your couch and enjoyed music, and felt blessed and at one with the world. You didn't take this "snapshot of how-you-are doing", when you felt deeply thankful to be alive.
No- you went with the old-paradigm-trait to "keep charge" and be "brutally honest", and took your snapshot so to speak when you felt really rotten.
There is an Abe quote where Abe cite Jesus, who says that he had SUCH an amazing life! His life was filled with magic and wonders, love, mastery, greatness and strength. But people choose as "his symbol" the one, where he felt MOST ROTTEN and terrible and abandoned: The cross. Yep, humans have a tendency to do that!
Please: Stop it. Look at what you HAVE achieved!
The fear, depression, doubts that you have overcome (at least, in the most times).
The stability, that you gained (most of the time).
The humor and joy and wisdom, that you feel (mostly, or even just much of the time) in regards to "issues and problems".
If you have given it all you got as you say (and I believe you in it!), there must be TONS of this good stuff! Look there. Find all of THAT! It is as "honest" as taking the snapshot into the darkest corner. Make lists of what you are proud of! Of what you could clarify!
Take a knee and make the emotional successes, and the small stuff, count- and TALK ABOUT THAT, instead!
In the old Forum was a women who impressed me. She is a millionaire today, but she started out very poor, living in a trailer-park. She said, her life changed around when she -authentically, no lipservice- started to APPRECIATE WHAT WAS. So, her journey towards abundance started by APPRECIATING the holes in the floor of her trailer.
This whole "Abe-game" is SO simple, but not easy at all. In playing it, we all discover layers over layers of well buried resistances that we had no ideas are still reigning us, in mighty ways. I still peel the onion, too, and again- I think, this might never end. And -again- it is NOT necessary to be "perfect" for us, to deserve and to GET our stuff, big or small! But we come from this deeply ingrained belief, that we have to pay the price of doing it right. And so- it costs us the ease of steady, lighthearted, "unearned" joyful manifestation.
-You look at it from the stance that you would not be good (enough).
But maybe... everything is going very very right? Maybe you made a steady, slow, but mighty progress, that you could not have achieved in any other way? Maybe you WANTED it this way?
I listened to a segment where a seasoned Aber asked, like you, how it can be that she got a very rare and almost incurable cancer- WHILE she is an Abe-teacher and therapeut, who REALLY knows all the stuff, and who really gives it her all.
Abe answered: "You wanted to achieve a miracle. So that you finally can fully BELIEVE it, once you "did it". And so, you created a VERY hard to solve problem." Abe explained, that she really looked for this big, bold, impressive momentum, that would teach others, as well- because people often just believe in big dramatic evidence, not so much in the small "easy" random joy of flowing.
We all come with unique preferences. I know, that *I* want to make a "big splash", and 15 years of intense Abe-practice, and 50 years of deliberate quest for wanting to understand how life really works (including years of depression and a full Burn-Out and being disabled in the aftermath), are a price I truly love to pay. maybe this applies in some way, to you as well? (and of course: We CAN have it easier!)
And once you achieved unconditional (!) selflove, you will get it ALL. In buckets! -I am absolutely certain of that. Maybe my knowing is a bit infectious to you as well-? And hopefully, it gives you a bit of inspiration. All the very best to you! Enjoy EASTER- pun intended!
Dearest one, I applaud you for asking for help!
I want to state before any of my answers, that I could have written this almost exact post, hundreds of times! Just so that you know- NO, YOU ARE NOT "THE ONLY ONE"!!!! I have been there and done that, and I admit- in my darkest hours, I still go there when I don't catch myself!
and ITS OK.Which is the very first advice (and you probably know it anyway): Don't allow momentum on your "dark moments". As Abe advice, when you feel rotten, then don't think, don't talk, don't post on social media, don't wallow in it... don't do anything. Go into your bed and SHUT UP AND CHILL OUT.
I know! So much easier said than done. But to stop the unwanted momentum, and instead chill (or meditate, or sleep, or distract in ANY way that works for you) is the very first rule (and so many people miss it and wonder why they are living in the mud, so to speak). But when you have slipped- and you did, we all do!- THEN BE NICE TO YOURSELF. It is not the end of the world. You just are in misery (=OOTV) for some while, where your brain doesn't work, you only CAN see it all distorted, and all your wisdom is out of the window. That's all. Dust yourself off, and go back ITV!
No big deal.Since first listening to the recordings in 2007, I've made every stride and effort to make them work for me
For me, it was 2009.
and am still coming up with empty bank accounts at the end of each month. I know someone will be tempted to point out that I used the word "effort", which indicates that I'm trying too hard,
...wich MIGHT be the case! ("We love you very very much!")but at the same time, I can say with certainty that I completely understand every aspect of the teachings VIVIDLY. I could easily coach people on this, if I could back it up.
*I* DO teach people, even I'm in no way "perfect". Which, to be honest- we all never will be.
I think, here is one of the reasons you "fail": You seem to come from the (old) paradigm, that you need to be above the problems to be "good". And if you are not, you belong under a rock, and please don't crawl out and have an opinion, and CERTAINLY, don't teach.
This was (and maybe still is) one of the hangups that *I* discovered, and even they claim to be sooo positive, spiritual people can be incredibly cruel and mean in pointing out that "you are not good enough yet". Which also, hints to a probability that we IN OURSELF may still have the tendency to judge ourselves as not (yet?) good enough.
All of this is a thing that comes up big times in step 4.
(if any of my words are causing questionmarks, please look into the Forum-dictionary
viewtopic.php?p=2695#p2695, or the quote-section for clarification! I am speaking not necessarily to you mikec as an oldtimer, but to every newbie who reads here, as well).
In step 4 (=you became a master of step 3, meaning you REALLY understand how this teachings work and you wholeheartedly apply them),
you know how to avoid pains that were your "normal" before you got so good at this. But you are not yet really grounded in UNCONDITIONAL LOVE (that would be step 5). And you tend to club yourself over the head when you do things "wrong" (and you very exactly know when that happens). And in this awareness of what you are doing wrong or not good enough, you attract (duh!) those mean sharks that sniff blood and like to attack, because being mean feels better to them than feeling disempowered.
And so I guess- you might have attracted some sharks (or, if you are lucky, just your own harsh judgement) that really has/have hurt you, and who indicats this deeply sensed fear within you that you would need to be perfect, before you can expect big payoffs.
Which is not true. But it IS a very common fear in people who have come far "and gave things their everything". And of course, it holds you back, BIG TIMES.
I know I've probably asked for more wealth than all the top richest people in the world combined given that my situation hasn't changed, but I have yet to allow anything more than a trickle of evidence from time to time.
High 5 again! So, a REALLY big question gives you REALLY big indicators, when you don't allow it's solution. Aka, it makes for REALLY feeling lousy, when you are not in UNCONDITIONAL self-love.
I SOOOOO hear you!!!More recently, I had an "a-ha" moment about just relaxing and letting it flow. This was nearly a month ago and since then, I haven't worried about money at all. I've been optimistic. I've trusted that it's coming. I've read books. I've done exercises and practices. I've had Abraham on in the background daily. I've been expecting it and excited for it every day for weeks, but I've also been very Zen about virtually everything in that time. I've felt consistently great and I haven't given any attention to "what is"...at all. And yet, my bank account just went into the negative again because I'm not "receiving" anything - only "earning."
At this point, I am beyond frustrated.
I SO hear you. Please understand that I hear you! AND: It is normal that we have ups and lows. (It will always be this way). So when you did this positive practice, as you say (and I completely believe you that you did it VERY well, and that you believe even you did it "perfectly"!) -then your moment-to-moment-outcome would be joy, satisfaction, feeling certain, feeling happy, feeling thankful. ...Was it?
If it was (and I think it must have been!) then, for heavens sake don't trample it, as you do here!!!
If it wasn't- then none of what you say makes sense. You simply can not practice ease and joy and unconditional happiness and end up with being frustrated beyond words!
But certainly, you can have had a very good month, where you realllly have felt good (with some fear peppered in, this time or the other- that it might not work again. Which is normal, and nothing bad per se!). And then, this fear got just a little bigger. And even bigger. And so, you looked at your bank-account, and then you pondered that this realllllly never before had worked- and off you went into a full blown downspiral. (been there, done that hundreds of times, myself). And then, in THIS moment, or in being "realistic" and looking back at this moment) you take the "snapshot" of "how I am doing", and come here and post about it.
You didn't, when you adored the sunset! You didn't when you laid on your couch and enjoyed music, and felt blessed and at one with the world. You didn't take this "snapshot of how-you-are doing", when you felt deeply thankful to be alive.
No- you went with the old-paradigm-trait to "keep charge" and be "brutally honest", and took your snapshot so to speak when you felt really rotten.
There is an Abe quote where Abe cite Jesus, who says that he had SUCH an amazing life! His life was filled with magic and wonders, love, mastery, greatness and strength. But people choose as "his symbol" the one, where he felt MOST ROTTEN and terrible and abandoned: The cross. Yep, humans have a tendency to do that!
Please: Stop it. Look at what you HAVE achieved!
The fear, depression, doubts that you have overcome (at least, in the most times).
The stability, that you gained (most of the time).
The humor and joy and wisdom, that you feel (mostly, or even just much of the time) in regards to "issues and problems".
If you have given it all you got as you say (and I believe you in it!), there must be TONS of this good stuff! Look there. Find all of THAT! It is as "honest" as taking the snapshot into the darkest corner. Make lists of what you are proud of! Of what you could clarify!
Take a knee and make the emotional successes, and the small stuff, count- and TALK ABOUT THAT, instead!
In the old Forum was a women who impressed me. She is a millionaire today, but she started out very poor, living in a trailer-park. She said, her life changed around when she -authentically, no lipservice- started to APPRECIATE WHAT WAS. So, her journey towards abundance started by APPRECIATING the holes in the floor of her trailer.
This whole "Abe-game" is SO simple, but not easy at all. In playing it, we all discover layers over layers of well buried resistances that we had no ideas are still reigning us, in mighty ways. I still peel the onion, too, and again- I think, this might never end. And -again- it is NOT necessary to be "perfect" for us, to deserve and to GET our stuff, big or small! But we come from this deeply ingrained belief, that we have to pay the price of doing it right. And so- it costs us the ease of steady, lighthearted, "unearned" joyful manifestation.
In a time, Abe stressed the joke of overdramatically yelling, mocking us humans: "WHAT AM I DOING WROOOOOONG????" -THAT is what you do wrong!I see people say it took them nearly a decade to get it and were then flooded with their wealth, but I've been at this for nearly two decades and my bank account still won't go above whatever I "earn," hence, my frustration and wondering if there's something stuck that simply won't ever budge. Am I the only one that this just doesn't work for, despite feeling a resonance with it? What on Earth is holding me back for so long??
-You look at it from the stance that you would not be good (enough).
But maybe... everything is going very very right? Maybe you made a steady, slow, but mighty progress, that you could not have achieved in any other way? Maybe you WANTED it this way?
I listened to a segment where a seasoned Aber asked, like you, how it can be that she got a very rare and almost incurable cancer- WHILE she is an Abe-teacher and therapeut, who REALLY knows all the stuff, and who really gives it her all.
Abe answered: "You wanted to achieve a miracle. So that you finally can fully BELIEVE it, once you "did it". And so, you created a VERY hard to solve problem." Abe explained, that she really looked for this big, bold, impressive momentum, that would teach others, as well- because people often just believe in big dramatic evidence, not so much in the small "easy" random joy of flowing.
We all come with unique preferences. I know, that *I* want to make a "big splash", and 15 years of intense Abe-practice, and 50 years of deliberate quest for wanting to understand how life really works (including years of depression and a full Burn-Out and being disabled in the aftermath), are a price I truly love to pay. maybe this applies in some way, to you as well? (and of course: We CAN have it easier!)
Sure. Whatever soothes you!At this point, I don't even want to be rich. I just want my bills paid and a little extra money to take a road trip here and there with my toddler.
And once you achieved unconditional (!) selflove, you will get it ALL. In buckets! -I am absolutely certain of that. Maybe my knowing is a bit infectious to you as well-? And hopefully, it gives you a bit of inspiration. All the very best to you! Enjoy EASTER- pun intended!
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spiritualcookie
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Re: What's Holding Me Back?
Hi mikec,
I wonder if there may be some subtle belief-obstacle about having money that may be holding you back?
Some things to ask yourself to uncover if there may be an obstacle there:
- When you think about "having money" - how does it feel? Does it feel good? Or do you have a tension about it?
- If you're honest with yourself, do you really *believe* it's possible for you to have more money above what you "earn"? Or is there a little tension there about that belief? Do you have beliefs in place like "you have to work hard to get more money"?
- Do you have any limiting beliefs about what others will think of you if you get more money?
- Is there anything negative you worry about that could happen if you do get that money?
- Do you have any limiting beliefs about "people who have a lot of money are usually X" (and you're not "X")
- Are there any "secondary gains" to staying where you are financially? Things like "people give me loving sympathy about my financial situation and I like the feeling of that - and I'll lose that good-feeling sympathy if I get more money" - stuff like that.
It may be none of the above - it may be something else.
Once you have the awareness about what's holding you back, you can soothe it, ease it, and help yourself relax into receiving more easily and more quickly.
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I also wanted to mention - is there tension in you when you do the "work"? I know in the past, when I wanted something "too much" and was trying really hard to do the Abe work as enthusiastically as possible, the urgent / desperate, intense-yearning-feeling - is tension - which is resistance. The Aha moment about relaxing into the manifestation sounds like a step in the right direction
I wonder if there may be some subtle belief-obstacle about having money that may be holding you back?
Some things to ask yourself to uncover if there may be an obstacle there:
- When you think about "having money" - how does it feel? Does it feel good? Or do you have a tension about it?
- If you're honest with yourself, do you really *believe* it's possible for you to have more money above what you "earn"? Or is there a little tension there about that belief? Do you have beliefs in place like "you have to work hard to get more money"?
- Do you have any limiting beliefs about what others will think of you if you get more money?
- Is there anything negative you worry about that could happen if you do get that money?
- Do you have any limiting beliefs about "people who have a lot of money are usually X" (and you're not "X")
- Are there any "secondary gains" to staying where you are financially? Things like "people give me loving sympathy about my financial situation and I like the feeling of that - and I'll lose that good-feeling sympathy if I get more money" - stuff like that.
It may be none of the above - it may be something else.
Once you have the awareness about what's holding you back, you can soothe it, ease it, and help yourself relax into receiving more easily and more quickly.
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I also wanted to mention - is there tension in you when you do the "work"? I know in the past, when I wanted something "too much" and was trying really hard to do the Abe work as enthusiastically as possible, the urgent / desperate, intense-yearning-feeling - is tension - which is resistance. The Aha moment about relaxing into the manifestation sounds like a step in the right direction
Re: What's Holding Me Back?
Thank you for the responses. They were both very helpful in getting me to not sink further. I've been sitting with this, and came to a couple of conclusions.
This past month has felt like a genuine shift that was moving in the right direction. Everything felt perfect and I genuinely believed I would be looking back on this month as the turning point in my life. I wasn't forcing any feelings or emotions, but just letting them come to me. I would get a flood of love and warmth and would ride that into appreciation for my present and a window into the future. I was in a state of expectancy in those "high flying" moments, and simply appreciative and enjoying life without any worry when I wasn't. I also know my worthiness and have been frequently practicing self-love. So when I looked at my bank account and saw it in the negative, I felt betrayed. And to be honest, I'm still feeling a little of that. But there is something else at play.
- If you're honest with yourself, do you really *believe* it's possible for you to have more money above what you "earn"? Or is there a little tension there about that belief? Do you have beliefs in place like "you have to work hard to get more money"?
I believe there is some truth to this - I was raised to believe that following passions are just hobbies and your "real job" is what you make money from. I watched my three siblings give up there creative pursuits for their careers, and I watched my dad croak of job-related stress in 2018. My mom has never been supportive of me following creative pursuits, and lets me know a few times a month (even though I try to limit our conversations to interacting with my daughter). Apparently (I'm assuming), I haven't shed this, despite uncovering nearly every other aspect about myself along the way. I even had to go through an abusive marriage before finally fully realizing my worthiness (my daughter's mom). It all came flooding in as soon as we separated, so that's not in question. So if that's the case, how do I get past it? I have plenty of friends and acquaintances that are doing exactly what I want to be doing and are quite successful, but I can't seem to get over that hurdle of making it my full-time job. I'm not affected by limiting beliefs like "there's only so much to go around" because I've seen first-hand for years just how much money comes through this area every year (I live in Jackson Hole, WY), and people less talented than me are doing much better. I KNOW there's enough of a market for me to get in there as well, I just can't seem to make more than a "successful hobby" amount from it. So what's the glaring issue that I would love to smack me in the face from obviousness that I can't seem to shake?
This past month has felt like a genuine shift that was moving in the right direction. Everything felt perfect and I genuinely believed I would be looking back on this month as the turning point in my life. I wasn't forcing any feelings or emotions, but just letting them come to me. I would get a flood of love and warmth and would ride that into appreciation for my present and a window into the future. I was in a state of expectancy in those "high flying" moments, and simply appreciative and enjoying life without any worry when I wasn't. I also know my worthiness and have been frequently practicing self-love. So when I looked at my bank account and saw it in the negative, I felt betrayed. And to be honest, I'm still feeling a little of that. But there is something else at play.
- If you're honest with yourself, do you really *believe* it's possible for you to have more money above what you "earn"? Or is there a little tension there about that belief? Do you have beliefs in place like "you have to work hard to get more money"?
I believe there is some truth to this - I was raised to believe that following passions are just hobbies and your "real job" is what you make money from. I watched my three siblings give up there creative pursuits for their careers, and I watched my dad croak of job-related stress in 2018. My mom has never been supportive of me following creative pursuits, and lets me know a few times a month (even though I try to limit our conversations to interacting with my daughter). Apparently (I'm assuming), I haven't shed this, despite uncovering nearly every other aspect about myself along the way. I even had to go through an abusive marriage before finally fully realizing my worthiness (my daughter's mom). It all came flooding in as soon as we separated, so that's not in question. So if that's the case, how do I get past it? I have plenty of friends and acquaintances that are doing exactly what I want to be doing and are quite successful, but I can't seem to get over that hurdle of making it my full-time job. I'm not affected by limiting beliefs like "there's only so much to go around" because I've seen first-hand for years just how much money comes through this area every year (I live in Jackson Hole, WY), and people less talented than me are doing much better. I KNOW there's enough of a market for me to get in there as well, I just can't seem to make more than a "successful hobby" amount from it. So what's the glaring issue that I would love to smack me in the face from obviousness that I can't seem to shake?
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spiritualcookie
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Re: What's Holding Me Back?
It sounds like you have a lot of positive beliefs going for you, so it sounds like you're well on your vibrational way
- Seeing other people doing what you want is a great way to build belief
- Believing in your own talent, and knowing there are people less talened than you succeeding, is also a great way to build the belief that you can do it
Maybe some of the tension is coming from the urgent need to make it your full-time job?
I wonder if for a time you can ease this tension a little: If you get other feel-good streams of income going, it may ease the tension off this one stream being a full-time job. By taking the pressure off, ironically, it may help the abundance from it flow more easily so that it eventually will be able to become your full time job!
Also, with many creative pursuits, there can be an abundance of ways to monetize them ~ perhaps you can do the "multiple streams of income" thing within your desired field, so that you maximize the avenues of income that can flow to you. From my personal experience, I found it is easier for me to believe that I can earn a little from each stream, than believing I can earn a lot from one stream. But earning little from lots of different directions can add up to a lot all together! And before you know it, you're on a positive momentum of earning a lot from your creative pursuit, and then the "little" streams start getting bigger too!
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Re: What's Holding Me Back?
...Just as spiritualcookie said, I wouldn't try to do this. it's much too much urgency and pressure. In the old Forum, Admin Marc always said, most of us try to "jump over a house", instead of taking the things in comfortable, nice, organic, and LASTING steps. It's like in the joke "How do you eat an elephant?- one bite at a time."
Abe advice that we do NOT- NEVER EVER! try to "motivate ourselves" by pulling the plug so to speak, so that we MUST build something new. Whatever adds stress, is not helpful! Take your time and work on the EMOTIONAL stability and -beauty!
Abe say- even if you manifested REALLY unwanted symptoms/indicators- it is rarely from a "glaring issue". It most often, is about the adding up of tiny bits and pieces. That you never clean up.So what's the glaring issue that I would love to smack me in the face from obviousness that I can't seem to shake?
Rule number 1: BE NICER TO YOURSELF.
Re: What's Holding Me Back?
I hope no one minds me reviving this thread, but while my situation hasn't changed all that much, I've recently had some new insight that feels like I'm at least getting a better handle on it, or at least could in the future. In addition, I'm hoping it can help someone else out there, or maybe someone can add some extra insight to help me drill it home.
What I've noticed about myself is that I haven't been able to get ahead. I'm constantly in a position where I'm counting down till the next bill is due and wondering if I have enough time to make what I need to. More recently, the answer's been no, and I've had to pay some bills late unfortunately, which also doesn't help. However, recently I was watching YouTube and came across another spiritual teacher who was talking about this subject, and drilled home the point, "You're not alone, so don't try to do all by yourself."
Naturally, I had heard Abraham say this in different ways for ages, but just that blunt statement about the relationship between ourselves and Source really hit home. Within 48 hours I was seeing a flood of signs pouring in that everything was turning around. Then I woke up today looking at the clock once again, realizing that while opportunities were already starting to pour in, the money hadn't quite yet, and that my bills were still late.
Obviously, this bugged me, which also slowed everything down. This led to the realization that I think about money (or lack thereof), A LOT. I started to take notice of how much I was thinking about it, and it was literally no less than once every 5 minutes. If I drop my car off at the service station and ask them that much if they're done with my car, I'm pretty sure the response would be, "No because you keep harassing us and we can't do our job!" (In reality, of course, they'd just block my number and tell me to pick up my car unrepaired though )
Tomorrow I plan on keeping a log to see how much I actually catch myself thinking about money in a day, with the hope that the total will motivate me to adopt a new mindset once and for all. In the meantime, I'm working on putting that trust back into the Universe that I had for 48 hours and to just let them do their job!
Any extra insight would be greatly appreciated, but none is necessary. Hopefully this helps someone else out there.
What I've noticed about myself is that I haven't been able to get ahead. I'm constantly in a position where I'm counting down till the next bill is due and wondering if I have enough time to make what I need to. More recently, the answer's been no, and I've had to pay some bills late unfortunately, which also doesn't help. However, recently I was watching YouTube and came across another spiritual teacher who was talking about this subject, and drilled home the point, "You're not alone, so don't try to do all by yourself."
Naturally, I had heard Abraham say this in different ways for ages, but just that blunt statement about the relationship between ourselves and Source really hit home. Within 48 hours I was seeing a flood of signs pouring in that everything was turning around. Then I woke up today looking at the clock once again, realizing that while opportunities were already starting to pour in, the money hadn't quite yet, and that my bills were still late.
Obviously, this bugged me, which also slowed everything down. This led to the realization that I think about money (or lack thereof), A LOT. I started to take notice of how much I was thinking about it, and it was literally no less than once every 5 minutes. If I drop my car off at the service station and ask them that much if they're done with my car, I'm pretty sure the response would be, "No because you keep harassing us and we can't do our job!" (In reality, of course, they'd just block my number and tell me to pick up my car unrepaired though
)Tomorrow I plan on keeping a log to see how much I actually catch myself thinking about money in a day, with the hope that the total will motivate me to adopt a new mindset once and for all. In the meantime, I'm working on putting that trust back into the Universe that I had for 48 hours and to just let them do their job!
Any extra insight would be greatly appreciated, but none is necessary. Hopefully this helps someone else out there.
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Re: What's Holding Me Back?
I hear you, it became a "normal" thing to "tell the truth" about something and only care for the unwanted sides of it (as if doing so would be reasonable and a virtue!) So, stop pointing out that there would be no movement! JUST DON'T DO THAT ANYMORE!!!
As you describe- things HAVE changed for the better.
It IS changing, for good!
You HAVE opened up to movement!
-And THAT is what you should look at, celebrate, and talk about.
In the way you tell it here, you still hold yourself in a sort of stalemate. It really is about this "tiny" things!
What I've noticed about myself is that I haven't been able to get ahead.
That's not true! (see above). STOP saying such things!!
I'm constantly in a position where I'm counting down till the next bill is due and wondering if I have enough time to make what I need to. More recently, the answer's been no, and I've had to pay some bills late unfortunately, which also doesn't help.
Again, you tell the story in a way that doesn't help! (And it's very understandable that you do- but it still doesn't help!) STOP IT.
You look here through a filter of things being tight, and of worrying and being dissatisfied. What do you think will be, what LoA CAN bring you as a mirror-image to this!? Right: More of this.
BUT (and here I am using the "Yes, BUT- game" in a wanted way, and you can do the same):
You HAVE been able to still pay your bills. Late, but anyway! That is something to be proud of, to look at and to celebrate!!
Abe have once told a guy who was ashamed of having amassed some debt, that he could drop the shame and instead be proud about the fact that people or a bank trust him so much that they are willing to lend him money. ...Always look at the wanted sides of each topic! Doing so takes practice, and a willingness to stop jumping on the shame/blame bandwagon.
And instead, starting to compliment yourself. To pat yourself on the shoulder for trying and succeeding, indeed! OF COURSE you want more success. But when you discard- and don't celebrate the small successes, the big ones CAN NOT COME.
What a wonderful, helpful unfolding of experiences!! -That is the way we really learn and understand. GOOD JOB!!However, recently I was watching YouTube and came across another spiritual teacher who was talking about this subject, and drilled home the point, "You're not alone, so don't try to do all by yourself."
Naturally, I had heard Abraham say this in different ways for ages, but just that blunt statement about the relationship between ourselves and Source really hit home. Within 48 hours I was seeing a flood of signs pouring in that everything was turning around. Then I woke up today looking at the clock once again, realizing that while opportunities were already starting to pour in, the money hadn't quite yet, and that my bills were still late.
Obviously, this bugged me, which also slowed everything down. This led to the realization that I think about money (or lack thereof), A LOT.
I started to take notice of how much I was thinking about it, and it was literally no less than once every 5 minutes. If I drop my car off at the service station and ask them that much if they're done with my car, I'm pretty sure the response would be, "No because you keep harassing us and we can't do our job!" (In reality, of course, they'd just block my number and tell me to pick up my car unrepaired though
Again, I very much understand where you are coming from. But do not "motivate" yourself. Motivation is an OOTV-thing, trained by people who don't get the power that comes from being ITV.Tomorrow I plan on keeping a log to see how much I actually catch myself thinking about money in a day, with the hope that the total will motivate me to adopt a new mindset once and for all.
Or as Abe have said (sloppily quoted):
-Inspiration is God, calling you in joyful ways, and you can't wait to finally do this wonderful, interesting things. It is ITV.
-Motivation is your mother, pushing, scolding and kicking you to do something that you really do not want to do. It is OOTV.
Also, do not attempt to get something right "once and for all". -That is no joyful journey! That is the attempt to wrestle something unwanted to the ground.
Instead, let it be an joyful, at least relief-giving journey, in a gradual, organic, joyful (!!) way, on a beautiful, interesting, scenic route.
Enjoy all the small steps that all feel as relief, have fun on the way! Pet yourself on the back all the time. Praise yourself, soothe yourself, give yourself enough rest and food and friendly feedback. Celebrate ALL the small triumphs and embrace and soothe what might look as "a step back", a slipping or a failure. Because, THIS are the times where you really finetune, and learn and understand! The contrast is NEVER something bad. It is always for you! But you don't get it's gifts, when you hunt through your life, trying to avoid making mistakes and clubbing yourself over the head when something seemingly "unwanted" happens.
The joy is in the journey! And: This journey IS YOUR LIFE. Feel the sweet, wanted side of it, that is ALWAYS THERE.
"The longer it takes, the more fun I will have!" (Abe)
You did -obviously- so well in the last time, that you got all this fantastic clarity and insights!
Now, be even nicer to yourself, (I repeat my last sentence from my last answer!)
-The more nice and loving and praising you are of yourself, the more you celebrate what you enjoy, the faster and fuller you get more OF THIS. And the more divine inspirations you are able to "get".
-The more "motivating" (aka kicking and scolding) you are to yourself, the more you deny what you, indeed, did right- even when it seems to be tiny. The less joy you have, and your unfolding is slower. But this, too, will help you in the end to get the approach that really works. So- all is well!
Exactly!!In the meantime, I'm working on putting that trust back into the Universe that I had for 48 hours and to just let them do their job!
Remember how that feels. Think about how beautiful it payed out. Set Grids about trust and trusting- relaxing and allowing the flow. Speak about how deeply you understand and get it, already, and that you are eager to get even more. Praise yourself, how good you are doing! ENJOY how you add up the beautiful tiny babysteps, and how you are allowing more and more and more momentum on all this wanted things. You are doing SO GOOD!!!
Re: What's Holding Me Back?
Thank you for all this feedback! It's exactly what I need and I feel like I'm starting to put the pieces together at last!
I completely neglected to count the awareness and understanding as part of the manifestation.
I appreciate all the great insight!
I completely neglected to count the awareness and understanding as part of the manifestation.
I appreciate all the great insight!
Re: What's Holding Me Back?
Hi mikec,
I totally know the feeling. Sometimes I really feel like there has to be some extra little piece that Abe are not realizing we need to know or something. I won’t go too far down the anti-vortex, but I do wonder why so few of the millions of people that read their books and watch their videos have a noticeable change. Shouldn’t anyone that encounters their stuff just become a happy millionaire really quickly? I’m thinking about asking them this in one of the upcoming Abraham-Now workshops.
It does feel weird to have such a deep knowledge of the subject (and probably yourself) and not have things always feeling like a lightning bolt of awesome.
But alas, I do feel nice when I do the work. I feel awesome in the vortex. And try as I might to deny it, the last couple years for me have really been a lot of amazing successes, including financially, despite how often I seem to let myself mope around in depression or boredom. I have had multiple multiple poofs of money appearing out of nowhere, including paying off all my student loans and now having my highest net-worth of my life. With almost zero “earning” attached to it.
“Coincidentally” I decided a few years ago to treat Abraham as my main teacher and value their words like gold.
Look for the success stories. Magnify them in your mind.
Personally I think the most focus wheels I’ve done in a day are about 3. Maybe max of 4-5 lists of positive aspects in a day. Maybe a week or two of this for 3-4 times per week at best. I’ve heard Esther does something like focus wheels 100/day sometimes, will fill entire notebooks of positive aspects in a week.
And as I mentioned earlier, I can tell I’m not spending enough time feeling great. Living with the negativity of my own mind can be quite hard- which is another sign I probably need to really dive deeeeeeeeep into this vibe work until it’s a peachy, fun, happy, satisfying friend and place to live.
Fuck it, why don’t we be the ones to really gain mastery of this stuff? Not on the mental level which we probably already are (and which gives us a huge edge going in), but truly on the level of embodiment through deep practice.
On this note, I recently posted a really inspiring post from the old forum by Hands in the Clay, which outlines a quite vigorous prescription for actually DOING all the vibe work.
it seems somewhat intimidating if I’m honest, though all the work feels good and is loving and fun, so how bad can it really be? I’m sure it’s easier than most manual labor, and easier than feeling mopey and sad and having negative thoughts when you don’t want them!
Wouldn’t it be amazing to have trained such a positive mind and high vibration that lists of positive aspects just flow out of you effortlessly like water? Where you walk out to the grocery store and are hunting everywhere for anything positive and finding so much evidence in every corner and on every face? To just feel your heart open, present, and truly flowing your source through you in the most natural way ever?
Here’s the link. I think I’m going to really give this a go soon. I dare you to as well if you want.
viewtopic.php?t=695
I totally know the feeling. Sometimes I really feel like there has to be some extra little piece that Abe are not realizing we need to know or something. I won’t go too far down the anti-vortex, but I do wonder why so few of the millions of people that read their books and watch their videos have a noticeable change. Shouldn’t anyone that encounters their stuff just become a happy millionaire really quickly? I’m thinking about asking them this in one of the upcoming Abraham-Now workshops.
It does feel weird to have such a deep knowledge of the subject (and probably yourself) and not have things always feeling like a lightning bolt of awesome.
But alas, I do feel nice when I do the work. I feel awesome in the vortex. And try as I might to deny it, the last couple years for me have really been a lot of amazing successes, including financially, despite how often I seem to let myself mope around in depression or boredom. I have had multiple multiple poofs of money appearing out of nowhere, including paying off all my student loans and now having my highest net-worth of my life. With almost zero “earning” attached to it.
“Coincidentally” I decided a few years ago to treat Abraham as my main teacher and value their words like gold.
Look for the success stories. Magnify them in your mind.
Personally I think the most focus wheels I’ve done in a day are about 3. Maybe max of 4-5 lists of positive aspects in a day. Maybe a week or two of this for 3-4 times per week at best. I’ve heard Esther does something like focus wheels 100/day sometimes, will fill entire notebooks of positive aspects in a week.
And as I mentioned earlier, I can tell I’m not spending enough time feeling great. Living with the negativity of my own mind can be quite hard- which is another sign I probably need to really dive deeeeeeeeep into this vibe work until it’s a peachy, fun, happy, satisfying friend and place to live.
Fuck it, why don’t we be the ones to really gain mastery of this stuff? Not on the mental level which we probably already are (and which gives us a huge edge going in), but truly on the level of embodiment through deep practice.
On this note, I recently posted a really inspiring post from the old forum by Hands in the Clay, which outlines a quite vigorous prescription for actually DOING all the vibe work.
it seems somewhat intimidating if I’m honest, though all the work feels good and is loving and fun, so how bad can it really be? I’m sure it’s easier than most manual labor, and easier than feeling mopey and sad and having negative thoughts when you don’t want them!
Wouldn’t it be amazing to have trained such a positive mind and high vibration that lists of positive aspects just flow out of you effortlessly like water? Where you walk out to the grocery store and are hunting everywhere for anything positive and finding so much evidence in every corner and on every face? To just feel your heart open, present, and truly flowing your source through you in the most natural way ever?
Here’s the link. I think I’m going to really give this a go soon. I dare you to as well if you want.
viewtopic.php?t=695