Awa wrote: ↑Mon May 06, 2024 5:42 pm
You give the impression that you are a very happy woman
I am, BY CHOICE.
It is about not only choosing each day, but sometimes each minute.
I was a VERY sad woman, in some times of my life. I was in despair, in terrible pain, in some years of depression. I know the feeling when your life-dreams crush, and those you depended on fully and wholly, take off without you. I was told I would have 1 year left to live. I was told I would never have children. I also see what is going on in the world, now!
In this moments when your world seems to shatter, you often can't other than tumble. It's ok, it helps to embrace what-is, learn from it and heal. But afterwards, you can dust yourself off and look for the light, and GO THERE in the small steps you are ABLE to take.
Or you can continue to suffer.
It is a choice.
As far as clarity goes, I can only agree with them. Only ITTV creates clarity. When I have a headache like today, all I want is to be okay again. And then I think, nothing is better than “less is more”. When I feel better again, I think: “Less is boring.”
Exactly! Abe use to make fun of the phrase "rest in peace", that humans say towards croaked ones. Abe state, there is no need or desire to "rest", in pure-positive-nonphysical! There is only fascination and joy and eagerness to unfold further, and deep love and joy- and all of that is WITHIN a deep heavenly PEACE, but that doesn't make nonphysical "resting". And it is a bit like that, from human ITV!
The further up my "normal" went -BY TRAINING- (!), the more "normal" my stance was ITV, the more I realized, that I ALWAYS have a peace "underneath" everything, even when I am bouncing off the walls in enthusiasm! It stabilizes me, so that I don't get crazy, no matterhow open, eager and spontaneous I am. But the peace is there, too, when I slip and fly out, OOTV. So, when that happens, it doesn't bother or torture me, as it did long before. ...It feels more humorous, amused. When I feel a wave of impatience roll over me, or I am p* for some moments, it almost makes me laugh, and deep within, I feel a friendly, deep PEACE. As Abe said: "The sting is gone".
Some people think this peacefulness would make life more shallow, but that is not the case at all. The joy, the love and appreciation, the passion, the eagerness is so MUCH deeper than I could even fathom when I was more OOTV!
And you, Awa, KNOW all that, at least you already are so close, that you feel the truth of it- or you couldn't write such wise comments!
At the weekend I decided against applying for an apartment out of laziness. Although I would really like to move. A friend said, that I can't live my life by waiting and hoping.
Of course you can! It is a quite comfortable stance. When you
enjoy the peaceful wait and the sweet hope, when you are
proud that you don't go into wild goose-chases, LoA will bring you more joy, peace, sweetness and confidence.
And from THAT stance your whole life will
feel much better than when you do things because you "should" or "must". Including the process of looking for an appartment- or even the appartment itself, that you will find!
I would have to act and do something and not look for a needle in a haystack.
yah, most people on Earth live like that. ...How does that work out?