I am an artist!

[Sheila86]

This is a thread where I will appreciate, vibrate and celebrate myself on my journey to my dream job: becoming a full time artist.
The point of this is to slowly fill my grid and amp up my vibration.

I love how just recently I realized that the artwork I created in the past years was mostly copied off other artists I admire. It was their artistic voice which I copied because I did not know how to hear my own. No wonder the whole thing felt off to me.

But now I feel like I have finally overcome that and feel like I can allow making paintings that are completely ME. Ah how freeing it is to just experiment with painting and enjoying the growth without trying to "do it right".

There is no hurry, I have the rest of my life to find my artistic voice and produce a freaking amazing huge body of work. The freedom in that thought!

I just love beautiful breathtaking paintings!!

I love the thought of letting my artistic voice emerge piece by piece. Because it is not about getting it right or being faster, it is about vibration.

My wonderful vibration and my emotions (the feeling gooooooooooood factor) will be leading me on this journey and that is all I have to know. This way I will never get it wrong.

*runs into her studio now *

[Sheila86]

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Ohhh this sounds good! And so inspiring!! Wow

[Sheila86]

Thany you @POE!!! I appreciate you dropping by! I am glad you found it inspiring

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I love how I am exploring new ways of making paintings. I love how I am playing, experimenting, and growing. Finding my artistic voice.
I am bursting with motivation, inspiration and eagerness.

Just today I realized how far I have come. I have already learned a lot in my journey. I know how to do marketing. I know how to develop a personal brand from scratch, I know how to write copy, I know how to have a cohesive Insta feed to present my art. I know how to make my own branded homepage. I do have a lot of expertise! The only thing I was missing was my own authentic artwork. And I am getting there now. I am ready to get started! I am ready to take off!!!

I have the rest of my live to cultivate my artwork... sooo much time at my hands to grow and grow and grow... nothing can keep me from that, because I feel the ENORMOUS WANTING to do art in my core! And the wanting is not painful anymore. It feels like eagerness. Like destiny. Like enthusiasm.

A new series of artworks is coming together in my mind already. It will be all about authenticity, rawness, pureness, and expressing yourself without limits. That's what it will be about! Awe-inspiring artworks with bold brushwork and drippy opaqueness. I can see it in a huge exhibition. I can see it in my own Instagram feed. A beautiful inspiring Instagram Feed.

Have I mentioned that I am obsessed with artists Instagram feeds, lol? I spend some time each day browsing, admiring, and taking in the beautifully curated art feeds of other artists I admire. I love how they make me feel. Like self-expression. Like attention to detail, like confidence, like beauty, like what I am creating is of value.

[Sheila86]

Lovely:


Beautiful:


Sooo artsy:

[Sheila86]

I did two paintings this week. One did not turn out as I wanted it to be... Trying to soothe resistance about it...
What is one bad painting on the great scale of things? It means nothing. It does not mean anything about my talent, my carreer, my future.
Maybe someone will like it. I have seen it a lot of times: Artwork that I deem failed or not good enough is still liked and bought by some people. Heck, some of my "failed" artwork is hanging in peoples homes! I once did a terrible painting that my friend just loved!! I gave it to her and since then it has always been displayed in their home now matter where she moved, even after years.
I am becoming a vibrational snob, as Abe calls it. Feeling good is much more important to me than dwelling on this one painting. There is no room for perfectionism in a happy life.
I am feeling better now
I care about feeling good.
I care about my vibration.
I appreciate that from Abraham I have learned that it is much better to tend to my vibration now. I dont have to struggle, fix anything or worry about my painting. It just doesn't matter. I just chill, I relax, I go on a rampage about the next piece I am going to paint.
And ohh I have so many new ideas. There are two new pieces on my mind that I am excited about as f*ck. I love the creative process. I love the process of turning thought to thing, in this case ideas to a new painting. I love how it feels to be sooo eager about a new painting idea. The feeling of newness, potential, possibility, figuring out the painting process in a light playful way.

BTW this is not me, just some inspiring art studio pictures and a cute girl.

[Sheila86]

At the moment I am feeling a bit of a wobble. I fear that there might not be enough time for me to make it as an artist. Especially as we are planning to have a kid and I know that caring for a child will take up a lot of time. I feel like I need to hurry because of this and to get a certain amount of paintings done before the baby arrives. Also I fear that all of my pieces are not good enough.

Lets ease this.

I intend to experience the joy of an amazing artistic carreer.

These are the reasons that I intend to experience the joy of an amazing artistic career...

It is so fun to paint. It feels amazing to see my paintings develop. It feels amazing to be in right-brain land, in the creative flow and spend hours and hours on it, forgetting time. It would be a wonderful, humbling experience to actually do this for a living. It would make me feel happy and proud.
I want to create pieces that inspire, uplift and fascinate people.
When I reach the end of my life and want to look back on my life and see that I really did something worthwhile, that I created this huge amazing thing. I want to be recognized for my work.
I want to enjoy my life. I want to be proud of myself. I want to feel appreciated and I want to feel satisfied. I want to create stunning amazing beautiful artwork. I want to express myself. I want to "make it" in life. I want to pursue a career of my own choosing. I want to be goooood at something.

I know that it will be for the following reasons...
I have my whole life for this artistic career.
I don't have to get everything done in the next 9 months! I know it will happen if I keep working on it. I know it will happen if I keep working on my vibration.
Having kids does not mean I have to give up my aspirations and interests. There are other mom artists out there who are thriving and having it all.
There will be solutions available to every challenge I might meet.
When I am in the Vortex and all happy it will just work out. I really believe that and trust in that.
It will be because I desire it so strongly. It will be because I want it. It will be because the world actually is a fairy place where all our dreams can come true when you know and practice the LOA.
It will be because I am a delibarate vibrational creator. I focus on the fun in it and it will all work out.
It will be because I have such a clear mental image of it.
It will be because in this life we are all meant to be happy.
It will be because I will give up the struggle more and more, and letting ease and fun in.

It always feels good to work myself into a better vibrational point of attraction

[Tara]

Hey Sheila86

I love your fresh new energy and beautiful gridwork with all the pictures

I have always admired artistic people

Nice to meet you!:)

[Sheila86]

Hey Tara

Thank you so much for your kind words! Your appreciation means a lot to me. I'm happy to hear that you enjoy my gridwork and photos

It's wonderful to connect with someone who values art and creativity

Nice to meet you too! Looking forward to sharing more and getting to know you better

[Sheila86]

Going for some easy matches today:

- I like painting.
- I like the color scheme I am using recently and how it makes me feel.
- I just saw an artist I have been following and admiring for years post on Insta. She just posted a large canvas she is painting on. I like the idea of going BIIIG! I like the thought of so much space. Having a big playground to work on. I like how this inspires me.
- I love the thought of me (or really anyone) having a huge body of work. Lots of beautiful paintings in the same style that create a lovely collection. How proud I would feel to have this. How accomplished.
- I love painting boldly and freely.
- I love letting color drip all over the canvas.
- I love building up layers of color.
- I like having my own room as an art studio.
- I love how we have a global community of artists that connect online and built up and inspire each other.
- I love my painting style.
- I love the themes and subjects I paint.
- I love the thought of going even more big, daring, unique in my artwork.