spiritualcookie's Meditation Diary: Journey to Receiving my own Abraham

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Day 30: Bless Me Method

Celebrating 30 days of meditation today! Yay!
I'm so happy I managed to do it every day for this long!

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Today's Meditation Experiences:

- I saw a peaceful still image of two people kissing, lip to lip. It felt neutral seeing it. I saw different versions of this image 3 times during the meditation. (3 kisses, one for each of the 10 days I've been meditating? )
I also saw this image in real life today at work - when I saw this artwork:

so I'm not sure if I saw it in meditation because I saw it at work; (I immediately get a tension in my body as I type this, as if my body is saying "no"), or if I saw it at work because it is part of what I was meant to rendezvous with today - it was put on my path in the physical and in meditation (this feels loose and easy in my body - I think that means "yes")
What does it mean?
I think it may symbolise a sharing of love. Source sharing its love - Me sharing my love to better connect with Source. A coming together of energy fields - energy fields touching for a loving exchange.
When I googled kissing symbolism, this resonated:

In Freudian terms the dream of “kissing” is part of our “life force” - a loving sharing - a loving exchange of life force

I also thought of the animal world where birds are lip-to-lip when the mother feeds her baby chick

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- I saw an image of pouring water.

I think this relates to the series of images I've been seeing which started with a drop, then to a bigger set of drops, and now I saw clearly flowing, pouring water, pouring smoothly and catching the light beautifully as it went. I think this means I'm receiving more smoothly - and I'm letting the flow from Source in better.

- I felt tingling on the top of my head, and also on my arm, near the inner part behind the elbows (Funny! I didn't know what this body part is called! Out of curiosity, I googled what this part of the arm is called: apparently it's the antecubital space, the cubital fossa or the chelidon.I think it was at the acupuncture point quchi-LI11 - "This point is believed to help clear heat from the body and improve digestive function" - that makes sense )

- I saw my field of vision filled with the colour dark blue / purple for a moment.

- I saw a faint animation of flowers; one flower transforming into another; transforming into a field of flowers. The colours of pink / purple / magenta were dominant in this animation.
The energy of this felt celebratory and it came right after I jokingly spoke to Source in my head saying I wanted to receive something celebrating my 30 days of meditating

[Paradise-on-Earth]

congratulations to the 30 days!

[spiritualcookie]

congratulations to the 30 days!

Thank you!

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Day 31: Bless Me Method

I tried something today:
Towards the end of the meditation, I asked:
'If it is of benefit for me to sit a little longer to meditate, show me a heart.
If I have received enough for today and I am "Complete" in my meditation for today, show me the letter "C".'

I sat and searched my field of vision to see if anything would show up.
It took a little while, but then I thought I saw a faint C-shape. It was very subtle and faint, and in the form of shapes of other things, like a part of a coffee ring-stain, or a Greek amphitheatre - but I think it could have been a transmission of the letter C.
UPDATE: I later spoke to my brother about this and he suggested there is more to the symbols that look like Cs. He suggested that maybe the empty Greek amphitheatre is saying "That's the end of the show!"

Other than that, other experiences during the meditation were a few chills and tingly feelings on the arms mostly.

Thank you Source for today's download! I like to think of myself as the sponge that is soaking in all the goodness you transmit, even if it's subtle in terms of sensations and feelings. I am looking forward to building the strength of my trust and knowing that I am receiving lots of goodness every time I meditate; Goodness that is helping me develop my intuition and spiritual development with love, gentleness, kindness and joy, And I always look forward to those meditations where I feel like I receive beautiful clear images with useful messages - those are my favourite (as you probably know! )!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

I am fascianted about how active you are in your meditations!
I never got friends with meditation (other than when I am realllllllly OTV, then I find it immensely relief-giving) because I find it too boring to just sit and be and be completely detached. And, "let myself be moved", may the chips fall where they do.

And you "do" so much... you interact and receive and observe and really, think! Don't you?
It is amazing to me how different different people approach a thing...

[spiritualcookie]

I am fascianted about how active you are in your meditations!
you "do" so much... you interact and receive and observe and really, think! Don't you?

It maybe sounds like I do a lot because in my summaries I only write about the highlights and not about the other 90% of the meditation where it was nothing but silence and nothingness

It is true that I am being deliberate in intending a guideline for what I am wanting to receive during the meditation, because I'm not doing the meditation for the purpose of seeking relief from negative emotions (I find appreciations & soothing more effective for that for me). I'm doing the meditation for a very specific purpose of learning how to communicate and receive actively from Source answers to my questions, much like how Suzanne Giessemann does it. She asks a question of Source, listens for a second, and then says "Oh! how interesting! Ok they're saying..." - That must be so fun to receive brilliant, wise answers so quickly and easily! And it all developed within her thanks to meditation work!

The way I do it is usually setting a question or intention before starting the meditation, and then for about 95% of my meditation time, I have no thoughts and I just sit quietly and observe to see what arises. I usually don't use my thoughts to interpret it during the meditation - I do that afterwards in my writeup. Sometimes the interpretation is just a knowing that arrives with a visual simultaneously.

Here and there a thought floats by (unintentionally).
And here and there if I'm not receiving anything after 10 minutes or so, and am eager to try a different approach, I use my thoughts deliberately to re-direct the meditation by asking a new question. And then I go silent again to tune into receiving mode to receive an answer.

I find it too boring to just sit and be and be completely detached.

I felt like that too for a long time, which is why I resisted doing meditation in the past.
But I'm giving it a chance again in the event that after giving it the time and space (the boring bit!) to settle into it, to train into a really good connection of getting into the receiving mode, that maybe it can become a lot more interesting and useful

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Now it's even more fascinating!
Yah, I get that. Awesome! Reading what happens to you/with you was already a treat.

Thank you for explaining it deeper!

When Abe spoke about "getting movies" in meditation, I was hooked... and I received glimpses, seconds, and that was nice. But I guess really appreciating and swimming in wonderful stuff is more *my* pie!

Yes, about soothing and appreciating... that's what I like normally most, also. But when I am OOTV (and I think I take it sooo much harder than in earlier times ) ...I just want to detach. Not muddling longer in it than noticing it, and going out asap!

I LIKE the musings with you!!

[spiritualcookie]

I like the musings with you too!

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Day 32:

Pre-meditation warm-up:

I am intending to raise my vibration for a better connection during meditation.
I am intending to feel light and bright.
Brightness feels like a smiling face
It feels like optimism
It feels like an upbeat energy
It feels like a happy glow, like your face lights up!
It feels like a light energy
It feels like a bubbly energy
It feels effervescent
It feels energetic
It feels like looking upwards
It feels like a lightness in my head
It feels like a lightness in my heart
It feels like a lightness in my body
It feels like a happy bright sparkle in the eyes
It feels like the curving of your lips
It feels good
It feels easy
It feels buoyant
It feels frisky
It feels playful
It feels like a beaming face
It feels like the picture of good health
It feels vibrant and full of life!
It feels lively
It feels sharp-witted and quick
It feels bouncy
It feels alert and with it
It feels like you're shining high vibrations into the room
It feels like you're oozing feel-good vibes
It feels like it brings a smile to others' faces too when they see you
It feels like it uplifts others
It feels cheery, merry and jolly!

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And now that we've done some vibrational work to uplift the energy, we shall being the meditation! Bless me Method:

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Post-meditation:

Early on in the meditation, I'm not sure if I visualized it deilberately or received it but I saw a white lotus-like flower on top of my head, opening up its petals. It was a nice image


I tried the "show me a heart for yes, and an X for no" in my meditation in response to some questions I asked, and I did see a heart and an X in response to some of the questions! So that was cool! (I didn't ask anything important, just stuff like "I think I saw the letters "FA" but I'm not sure if that means the musical note "fa"? Did you transmit this musical note to me?" and then I got an X in response to that one.

I did think I saw the letters FA - I wonder what they mean.
Possibilities from google:

"FA = Functional Acknowledgement: an electronic message telling you that your order, invoice, etc. has been received"

That resonates! In my pre-meditation intending session, I was "ordering" help with my spiritual development in a kind, gentle, loving way.

Midway through, just to test out this Yes/ No thing, I asked "If it is of benefit for me to continue today's meditation show me a heart, and if I have meditated enough for today and today's meditation is complete show me a "C" - and I saw a few heart-like images - like a butterfly shaped like a heart.)
I later spoke to my brother about this and he suggested that maybe there is more meaning in the images shaped like hearts. For example maybe the heart-butterfly is also a symbol of transformation. As if it's saying "Continue meditating, your spiritual journey into a butterfly is continuing." I like this idea!

Lots of tingles and chills again today mostly on the arms.

[spiritualcookie]

Day 33: Bless Me Method

I experimented by asking Source to let me feel the love and joy in my heart more fully (in a comfortable, gentle way), and immediately saw a skull in response, which I think I've established is the symbol for "you have fear" ("We can't help you feel it fully because you have too much fear currently active within you."). And it is true, I think I do have a weird fear of feeling the fullness of love and joy in my heart - and I'm not even sure why!
(Update: I just received an idea of why - it's the fear of giving in to something big that has the potential of feeling like losing self-control )
I tried to ask Source to help me understand what to do to let go of this fear so that I will be able to feel it fully in my heart, but I didn't get a clear answer (yet!).
(Update: I guess I have to work on soothing that identified fear)

Despite that - I did have a tiny experience of joy in my heart:
There was maybe a 1 second moment where I saw an image of a smile (a part of a photo I came across in my day today), and then for 1 second I felt a joyful ticklish contraction of joy in my heart. Kinda like how when you laugh you want to bend over contracted, laughing - kinda like that.

Overall in today's meditation I felt like a lot was happening on an intangible level. It felt like there was lots of energy swirling around with quite high energy. A neutral but active, dynamic, full-and-busy-feeling energy. I wonder if it's to do with my request for feeling love and joy in my heart - which to me feel like high energy states.

Other experiences:

- There was a moment where I saw a lot of white fabric all around - a little like net curtains - it felt very abstract and busy; swirling all around.

- There was a moment where I saw a pulsing deep dark blue abstract shape, pulsing almost like in time with a heartbeat.

(- I briefly experimented with the "Show me a heart for yes, X for no" thing again today but I didn't seem to be able to receive a clear response today - I think it may have something to do with the not-very-relaxed high energy feeling that was in the air.)

That is all for today!

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Day 34: Relaxing and Raising Vibration Meditation

In today's meditation I will test the theory that if I relax as much as I can with no pre-meditation alignment work, and no mid-meditation alignment work, that my vibration will raise all on its own just from being in a state of "no thought".

15 minutes no thought, just intending on relaxing completely, intending to raise my vibration.
Let's do it!

Pre-meditation mood: Neutral (between boredom and contentment on EGS)

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Ok Done!

Observations:

Post-meditation mood: Same as when I started more or less, perhaps during the meditation there were some moments of feeling a little lighter, but nothing very significant.


Other Observations:
- Degree of no-thought achieved: about 85%
- Degree of total relaxation achieved: about 85-90%

I noticed some resistant thoughts creeping like
"I can't feel any difference in my vibration yet. This isn't working..."

There were some tingling sensations on the top of my head briefly.
But it didn't feel as "deep" or as spiritual as my usual meditations are.
It felt more "physical", body-level.

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I don't know - I like my more active meditations more! They're more interesting even if they're not 'textbook' Abe-recommended.

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I think the intention makes a huge difference to what you receive in the meditation.
Just intending on raising vibration felt like my focus was different than when I'm intending on receiving communications from Source.

When I'm intending to receive communications from Source, I'm scanning my field of vision, looking for a communication - expecting it hopefully - putting my focus on really tuning into Source, trying to reach my focus upwards, focusing on lifting myself, looking through my 3rd eye or focusing on my crown chakra deliberately to connect.

When I'm doing a meditation that's simply intending to relax to raise my vibration, my focus is more on observing my body to see that my shoulder are relaxed, my breathing is relaxed, passively observing my mind to ensure it is a state of "no thought". So I'm not really in "receiving mode". I'm not in "checking in with Source to see what I receive" mode. Instead I'm more in "checking in with my body and mind mode". And perhaps unsurprisingly, I didn't notice receiving anything from Source in today's meditation because my focus wasn't in that place. Also perhaps unsurprisingly, I didn't achieve the desired effect of raising my vibration by much, because there was some resistance to this kind of meditation present.

Tomorrow, back to my original intention-focus which is where my highest excitement is - it just feels more "right" for me and my current intentions

But I guess I'm glad I gave this a go, just to see that it doesn't feel like as good a fit; and when you know what you don't want, you know better what you do want! So I am thankful for this added clarity

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Day 34 part 2:
Ok I couldn't resist doing a second meditation in my standard way using the BLESS ME method.
I set an intention to receive an answer to a specific question about something small that happened to me today which I didn't quite understand - and I received the answers! One answer came as a thought-knowing, and the second came as a vague image which I immediately understood the meaning of. It was so satisfying and exciting and fun to receive answers that resonated as true, and which I myself didn't think I knew the answer to before receiving the answer in meditation! It's so cool! Thank you infinite intelligence!