What's Holding Me Back?

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Thank you for all this feedback! It's exactly what I need and I feel like I'm starting to put the pieces together at last!

I completely neglected to count the awareness and understanding as part of the manifestation.

I appreciate all the great insight!

[mikec]

I do wonder why so few of the millions of people that read their books and watch their videos have a noticeable change. Shouldn’t anyone that encounters their stuff just become a happy millionaire really quickly?

I suppose that just boils down to our own independent baggage. It took me a good decade or so (at least) to realize that I had a lot of worthiness issues to sort through before even getting to where I am now. Some people must have less baggage and supportive parents, so those hear one message and become the millionaires in question.

I have had multiple multiple poofs of money appearing out of nowhere, including paying off all my student loans and now having my highest net-worth of my life. With almost zero “earning” attached to it.

That's a hell of a success story! Congrats!

Living with the negativity of my own mind can be quite hard- which is another sign I probably need to really dive deeeeeeeeep into this vibe work until it’s a peachy, fun, happy, satisfying friend and place to live.

Sounds like we're in the same position mentally.

Fuck it, why don’t we be the ones to really gain mastery of this stuff? Not on the mental level which we probably already are (and which gives us a huge edge going in), but truly on the level of embodiment through deep practice.

I blame my parents But then Abraham says forget what your parents taught you and just jump head-first into these teachings, but it's so much easier said than done.

I’m sure it’s easier than most manual labor, and easier than feeling mopey and sad and having negative thoughts when you don’t want them!

Thank you! I am curious. Since I've stopped trying so hard to force it all in and release a lot of the work to Abraham, I've noticed I have a lot more time on my hands

[mikec]

Here’s the link. I think I’m going to really give this a go soon. I dare you to as well if you want.

Challenge accepted!

Just read over this. If I'm being completely honest with myself, I'm not doing the work. Nowhere close to what he's describing. And I want to. As Tony Robbins would say, I've associated my current position with enough pain to push myself toward pleasure using any or all of those methods. In fact I skipped a hike today to sit at home and watch TV (at least it's Star Trek!). The kicker - I live in Grand Teton National Park - not nearby, but actually within its boundaries. I should be out hiking every day! I should be basking in this landscape every day! If I put those practices that he wrote about (aka, that Abe has been saying all along) into actual use, there is no possible way I could ever find any lack around me! That was really the spiritual kick in the ass I needed. What the hell have I been doing?? I want to see my home and my surroundings the way Abraham sees it and I don't want to become complacent to it anymore. I really have no excuse.

[Paradise-on-Earth]

If I'm being completely honest with myself, I'm not doing the work.

I'm chiming in here
You ARE doing the work!! You can't not do it! -That is soooo important to understand. This teachings of Abraham do NOT ask you to drag yourself to "doing the work, that would finally "work"", but to embrace yourself unconditionally. To be nicer to yourself, always. And understand lovingly, why you are- recently-not "doing the work" and then to soothe yourself, love yourself UNCONDITIONALLY, allow yourself the perfect timing, and understand that you CAN NOT GET IT WRONG.

-It is no race.

-It is not about "getting there", but about enjoying the journey, about your LIFE (which is all about the journey). Each step- including the inevitable slipping, the inevitable ignorance to what you are not yet a match to, all the pain and misunderstanding- is FOR YOU. It all is INEVITABLE to your understanding. Just like a toddler, not yet able to walk or even dance, is perfectly fine to be where he is: He is ON HIS JOURNEY!

-It is not about MOTIVATED action to push you somewhere. INSPIRED action, on the other hand is awesome: It is needed to enjoy your alignmnent!

-It is about understanding deeper and deeper who you really are,and becoming more and more a match in Alignment with it. More and more ABLE to choose joy, no matter what, on purpose.

Nowhere close to what he's describing. And I want to. As Tony Robbins would say, I've associated my current position with enough pain to push myself toward pleasure using any or all of those methods.

...And that is ok! When you are a toddler, stop bashing yourself for not yet dancing!

You are where you are.That's so profound!! Write it down!
-Abe

In fact I skipped a hike today to sit at home and watch TV (at least it's Star Trek!). The kicker - I live in Grand Teton National Park - not nearby, but actually within its boundaries. I should be out hiking every day! I should be basking in this landscape every day!

I hear you. BUT, the word "should" shows you that you are not INSPIRED. You are not (in this moment) a match to a glorious hike in the Tetons. And so, source DOES NOT CALL YOU THERE!

If you would be a match, wild horses would not hold you back to do it!
But -in the moment!-you are not, and so, source doesn't call you there- because hiking would just be a mere, hollow motivated action-journey right now.

Instead, you are called to something different, which serves you in this moment SO MUCH MORE, and it is: Sitting home and watching Star Trek. Because there is something in this, which feels NICER TO YOURSELF. Good job that you caught this inspiration to soothe or pamper yourself in this way!! Now stop blaming yourself for "not doing it right, or doing the wrong thing!! Instead, trust your emotional guidance!

If I put those practices that he wrote about (aka, that Abe has been saying all along) into actual use, there is no possible way I could ever find any lack around me!

Exactly. But, you are already there! IT IS DONE! All your "work" is to notice that you are ALWAYS "there"!

That was really the spiritual kick in the ass I needed. What the hell have I been doing?? I want to see my home and my surroundings the way Abraham sees it and I don't want to become complacent to it anymore. I really have no excuse.

If you REALLY want to see yourself through sources eyes, start with not blaming yourself for where you are, or where you have been. You always have been without lack,you just didn't notice! Source will NEVER blame you! And when you blame yourself, you have slipped once more, and that feels not good. But it was necessary in this moment for you to move closer to truly understanding.

And that is FOR YOU, as well! It IS all good.
It is all a necessary part of the journey to love and getting who we really are! Stop trying "to jump over the house" in the attempt to get it all done, NOW. It will never "be done"! But the nicer you are to yourself in your incompleteness (with less and less kicking yourself in the ass), the more joy you will have, the more clear and loving and truly successful you will be. Until you can be wherever you are, and enjoy it all deeply and thoroughly.No matter if it is hiking in the Tetons, napping on your coach, watching netflix, practising Abe-work, eating chocolate or saving a life! Remember,Abes "1 answer" is:

GET HAPPY, IN ANY WAY YOU CAN.

[mikec]

I totally get what you're saying and in many ways I agree, but the example I gave yesterday from my personal perspective was passing on a day that would have been more enjoyable spent outside.

You are not (in this moment) a match to a glorious hike in the Tetons. And so, source DOES NOT CALL YOU THERE!

In fact I did feel called outside, and driving home to get a few things before heading back out, I was excited to do it. But then I sat down and started distracting myself with things that weren't as important, and then I found reasons to stay - uninspired reasons. Long story short - I like to hike as often as possible. Last week I caught a stomach bug though that lingered for an extra day and ever since I haven't been getting any exercise. I started practicing the vibration of sitting indoors and distracting myself with unimportant things, resulting in a more lazy and uninspired feeling.

Again, I get that you're saying it's totally ok and that sometimes that's what's "needed" or "inspired," but in this case, I was ignoring my real inspiration and succumbing to a more lazy lifestyle, which doesn't make me feel good.

You ARE doing the work!! You can't not do it!

I totally get that too! But at the same time, I've been finding excuses to remain in step 1 for nearly 2 decades now. I haven't been doing the step 3 work nearly to the degree that I thought I had, and I think it's time I start to shift my point of attraction to allow in some of the things I've been creating for the nearly 50 years I've been alive! And I do recognize that this whole thread represents a lot of work and growth, and I do take joy in that, but I've been waiting for nearly two decades to enjoy my life on my terms, so I think it's ok to admit that I need to put a little more effort into being a little less negative while training myself to deliberately be a little more positive.

If you REALLY want to see yourself through sources eyes, start with not blaming yourself for where you are, or where you have been. You always have been without lack,you just didn't notice!

It's less shame and blame on myself and more recognizing an awareness that I could be doing a little more to lean toward step 3. And yes, the abundance has been all around me, but it's hard to recognize that when you've been hovering around the poverty line for nearly two decades. The "work" that was in that other post that was linked here felt like a missing piece, not so much in an efforting attempt, but more in a lifting of a veil to see the world better. I was inspired to that link, and I'm inspired to raise my vibration once and for all by NOTICING the abundance around me instead of trying to find ways to force it all into my bank account. It made me aware that I've been leaning much more toward step 1 than 3, and as Abraham says, "That is the work!" If I'm going to live the life that I know is waiting for me, I have to (at least initially) push myself to stop the negative thinking so that I ultimately can live a more deliberate life. The word "work" itself seems loaded. In this case, ever since reviving this thread, I've had a Beatles lyric stuck in my head, and having read Hands in the Clay's post last night, it made me realize that that's the "work" that I really need to be doing more of: "Turn off your mind, relax, and float downstream."

I always appreciate your positive outlook and feedback! Thank you for posting and for helping me clarify my statements!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

I totally get what you're saying and in many ways I agree, but the example I gave yesterday from my personal perspective was passing on a day that would have been more enjoyable spent outside.

You are not (in this moment) a match to a glorious hike in the Tetons. And so, source DOES NOT CALL YOU THERE!

In fact I did feel called outside, and driving home to get a few things before heading back out, I was excited to do it. But then I sat down and started distracting myself with things that weren't as important, and then I found reasons to stay - uninspired reasons. Long story short - I like to hike as often as possible. Last week I caught a stomach bug though that lingered for an extra day and ever since I haven't been getting any exercise. I started practicing the vibration of sitting indoors and distracting myself with unimportant things, resulting in a more lazy and uninspired feeling.

Again, I get that you're saying it's totally ok and that sometimes that's what's "needed" or "inspired," but in this case, I was ignoring my real inspiration and succumbing to a more lazy lifestyle, which doesn't make me feel good.

You ARE doing the work!! You can't not do it!

I totally get that too! But at the same time, I've been finding excuses to remain in step 1 for nearly 2 decades now. I haven't been doing the step 3 work nearly to the degree that I thought I had, and I think it's time I start to shift my point of attraction to allow in some of the things I've been creating for the nearly 50 years I've been alive! And I do recognize that this whole thread represents a lot of work and growth, and I do take joy in that, but I've been waiting for nearly two decades to enjoy my life on my terms, so I think it's ok to admit that I need to put a little more effort into being a little less negative while training myself to deliberately be a little more positive.

If you REALLY want to see yourself through sources eyes, start with not blaming yourself for where you are, or where you have been. You always have been without lack,you just didn't notice!

It's less shame and blame on myself and more recognizing an awareness that I could be doing a little more to lean toward step 3. And yes, the abundance has been all around me, but it's hard to recognize that when you've been hovering around the poverty line for nearly two decades. The "work" that was in that other post that was linked here felt like a missing piece, not so much in an efforting attempt, but more in a lifting of a veil to see the world better. I was inspired to that link, and I'm inspired to raise my vibration once and for all by NOTICING the abundance around me instead of trying to find ways to force it all into my bank account. It made me aware that I've been leaning much more toward step 1 than 3, and as Abraham says, "That is the work!" If I'm going to live the life that I know is waiting for me, I have to (at least initially) push myself to stop the negative thinking so that I ultimately can live a more deliberate life. The word "work" itself seems loaded. In this case, ever since reviving this thread, I've had a Beatles lyric stuck in my head, and having read Hands in the Clay's post last night, it made me realize that that's the "work" that I really need to be doing more of: "Turn off your mind, relax, and float downstream."

I love that you found so much more momentum on what you want, and what you know to be your truth, here and now! I find you to be VERY clear, and it feels as if you would now have a much bolder momentum. What a wonderful thing!
...Yes, you are so very right, YOU know best what feels as relief, to YOU! -Nobody else. All others can guess, but only you can feel that out accurately!

I want to also add, that not only step 3, but also step 1 is our job, too. I want to add some quotes, not because I think you would need them,but to make it clearer to those that also follow this exchange.

-It fills our Vortex to "sift through the contrast", and
-it makes us intensely clear and
-gives us this much needed momentum, to gather the power for the fulfillment of big desires. Wanting things just a tiny bit needs just a tiny bit of Alignment and momentum. But, as you mention, that you "did it wrong" for longer times, shows that you have some BIG desires that matter a lot to you. And, in this case, hovering in step 1 for several years, finetunes your desires and your clarity and your momentum of REALLLY wanting your stuff: And so, this time of not quite getting it, mightily served you!

But of course, you do not want to torture yourself on purpose, as soon you realized what could be done better, and what would feel better! that would be too much of this...
Abe have mentioned often that we came with the desire to be about 90% of our time in step 3, and about 10 % in step 1. "But most humans have that switched around." (Abe) -ups!

It's all alright! Step 1 is a good step, too!
Abraham Hicks



We want you to remember most of all:
The contrast, no matter how it looks in any moment, is contributing mightily to your expansion.

And the thing that you call things going wrong in your life experience
are actually only the distance between the things that are so right,
and your current perspective about it.

Abraham Hicks



All of your Creating is happening in Step 1.

Abraham

I always appreciate your positive outlook and feedback! Thank you for posting and for helping me clarify my statements!

aww, thanks for sharing this! I'm very glad that it helps!

[flyinghorse]

Also feel the same

Money recently has become SO painful, I have stomach aches of worry, insomnia, short attention span etc, cigarettes.
How can I sooth this?

Years ago I never thought about money or worried about it, I also have never separated myself from "the rich people" before, just seeing them on the streets, now I do---of course I want to be one.

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Also feel the same

Mikec named his thread "What's Holding Me Back?"
...the short answer is: Your low vibration.

This low vibration gives you all the low indicators: Pain, poverty, insomnia, cravings that don't feel good, being mixed up and in doubt, all the unwanted stuff.

Getting ITV would, instead, give you highflying, joyful indicators. It is SO simple. But, I know,not always that easy to turn it around.

Money recently has become SO painful, I have stomach aches of worry, insomnia, short attention span etc, cigarettes.
How can I sooth this?

How do the answers mikec attracted, work for you?
Because, when you feel somehow the same, the answers are "the same" as well- feel (and if it is just a bit) better. In any way you can.

You must be fine with taking babysteps, in the beginning! You needed some time to get yourself into this unwanted vibration, and you will need some time to get out of it, again. While positive thoughts are MUCH stronger than negative ones! But, it is fair to say, that turning a deeply trained vibration around isn't that easy IN THE BEGINNING. But it is absolutely doable. And -the best news is: This path is ALWAYS joyful, or AT LEAST relief-giving. When you train it a week, or better 4 weeks= 30 days- you probably already will be out of the worst muck.

"You must pay the terrible price of Feeling Good!"
Abe

And, you must stop lamenting, and BEGIN feeling better, somehow. And if it is, to just to feel a bit less crappy!
Be nicer to yourself.
SOOTHE yourself wherever you can. Look for what would feel better. Rinse and repeat.