I love to be satisfied. And I love to be eager for more!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I drop what feels less than good, and enjoy my life to the fullest. NO MATTER WHAT!

Day 3

I decided to ENJOY my time, no matter if my "big stuff" is there or not, yet!
I felt highly inspired to again think about flying into a big European City for my Birthday. It was SUCH FUN to ponder, which city might be the most fun! I LOVED the idea (that I already shared) to dip my toes into Madrid/Spain. But to be true, it wasn't SO calling, after pondering it a few days. I looked through several destination (not only European ones) just for fun! And I started to be hooked on the thought that London/UK might be such joy! And I learned, that- really- London is deemed as THE destination for a most beautiful Advent-szenerie. And I tend to agree!

Ohhh WOW. A new rocket of desire popped up within me, the more I looked up where was what on the map, where I WANTED to go, where I WANTED to stay, Hotel-wise, what I WANTED to see... and then I found those travel sites where they offer you a flight + hotel... it became more and more fascinating. And more and more "possible". And in the end- I felt that I REALLY would like to stay at home, cozy and lazy. And just have a great Michelin-Star dinner, on my Birthday!

But the "journey" was SUCH joy!!!


Advent in London...


Awesome Advent in London!


London, I MUST visit you in Advent!!

...It also was such joy to look at all the other cities... and another rocket of desire got born: I want, from this year on, do a city-trip each year to see the big cities in Christmas- decoration!


Advent in Minsk/Belarus and New York City/USA


Advent in Dubai/UAE and Paris/France


Advent in Hongkong/China and Vienna/Austria


Advent in Bethlehem/Israel


Advent in Berchtesgaden, Bavaria, Germany

[spiritualcookie]

And in the end- I felt that I REALLY would like to stay at home, cozy and lazy. And just have a great Michelin-Star dinner, on my Birthday!

Sometimes, there's no place like home!
I'm glad you're following your heart and what feels best in this moment

I like your idea of visiting different places to see the Christmas decorations around the world. I did that virtually last year on the internet - and that too was fun

[Paradise-on-Earth]

And in the end- I felt that I REALLY would like to stay at home, cozy and lazy. And just have a great Michelin-Star dinner, on my Birthday!

Sometimes, there's no place like home!
I'm glad you're following your heart and what feels best in this moment

I like your idea of visiting different place to see the Christmas decorations around the world. I did that virtually last year on the internet - and that too was fun

(So nice to "see" you!)

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I drop what feels less than good, and enjoy my life to the fullest. NO MATTER WHAT!

Day 4

I decided to ENJOY my time, no matter if my "big stuff" is there or not, yet!
I so enjoy the freedom, that I do not "NEED" to have any uncomfortable thoughts!
I have even fun about the fact that I seemed to have attracted all sorts of stuff that I would love to not think about.
And now, I will practice that, even more:

I RELAX into all the pains.
I relax. I hand it over to God.
I give up.
I will not bang it into place, and not even try!
I RELAX. I relax! I relax! I ask God to make me aware of all the solutions,
and I will not worry a second longer.
ALL IS WELL. Everything is always turning out for me!

I relax into this NOW. I trust it. I rely on it. I let go. This feels so much better!



...and when I slip AGAIN... who cares!!? I will no further wallow in it!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I drop what feels less than good, and enjoy my life to the fullest. NO MATTER WHAT!

Day 5

I decided to ENJOY my time, no matter if my "big stuff" is there or not, yet!
I feel so overwhelmed.
It's nothing big bad or awful. It's just... somehow, much.
I want to sleep. I want to give up. I want help. And really, I do that and get it.
It is all... "small". And it sums up- the wanted and the unwanted.

I give in. I give up. I LOVE. I relax into the pains. I relax into the questions. I embrace all the answers.
I am thankful that answers come- even that they are not at all what I expected!
I embrace them. I trust that it is all FOR me. I trust the Goodness, and I don't care that I can't see the "end". (there is no end...)
And that's a VERY GOOD THING!!!!

Ah, I feel better already! Actually, I am doing realllly good! And now, even more relaxation and even more being nice to myself! Even more eagerness for what is unfolding: Surprise and delight! All is so well!

I relax. I trust. I soothe myself. I care for my beloved "me". So, so! All is well. All is well! All is really really well. Hmmmm. I like it. So sweet. So deep. I trust. I trust. I trust, and I love. And see just now, the day after tomorrow is Penance-Day... A day to be calm, look inwards, feel if there is a path where I would want to turn around... and indeed. I want to stop thinking, that I would not be allowed to take on help. I WANT help!
I WANt it to be easier. I WANT it to be good for all- even for me!

Ohh, this sounds good: Getting more help. It getting easier. I, not being on my own in this and that and the other. YES, please!!! Ohh, this sounds so good!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I drop what feels less than good, and enjoy my life to the fullest. NO MATTER WHAT!

Day 6

I decided to ENJOY my time, no matter if my "big stuff" is there or not, yet!
I have so much fun with my own weird clothes. I have so much fun looking at other weirdos! I so enjoy to see people shine, in extraordinary compositions, colors and cuts! I SO ENJOY excentrics, and I am close to being one myself. Not giving a damn about what one "should" do! ENJOYING beautiful patterns and bold color-combinations, and awesome, beautiful, lively accessoires!

I adore how special shoes and make-up, and hair-dos look on people. I adore to see the unique beauty. I adore to feel this freemindedness, this wildness, boldness and liveliness. I ENJOY! I LOVE! I take it in and am uplifted!
Thank you, thank you, life!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I Imagine my life as I want it to be!

Day 7

I decided to ENJOY my time, no matter if my "big stuff" is there or not, yet!
I want my life to be sunny and joyful! I want it friendly. Friendly, humerous and whimsically unique. I want it lovely. I want it playful. I want it lovable. I want it loyal and sturdy. I want it to be really, deeply joyful. I want to smile a LOT! I want to feel like facing the sun. I want to be inspired and eager to follow the awesome, fascinating, fulfilling, so calling lead of source!

I want to feel loved and as a deep deep lover. I want to embrace all the beauty and goodness, and understand, soothe and heal the sad and shady. I want to embrace it all, in the perfect right way, with respect and common sense.
I want to be on top of the world, with deep understanding. I want to feel rich and fulfilled and awesomely FREE! I want to be HAPPY. I want to be in the sweetspot of life. I so love my life!!! Thank you, thank you LIFE!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I Imagine my life as I want it to be!

Day 8

I decided to ENJOY my time, no matter if my "big stuff" is there or not, yet!
I LOVE ^^. this sentence, by the way. Each time I read it, I enjoy the relief that it gives me!

Isn't that funny...? I KNOW this stuff, darn!! I TEACH it, for heavens sake. And still!
Today, I will use wonderful quotes from the internet and bask in them... such fun.



Ahh, soft and safe. I know 10 people who would need this quote. And now, I just relax and BASK in them, MYSELF!
I relax into this hot shocking pink-overkill and ENJOY. I float. YES, we all deserve this!!
And maybe I will delet a few youtube clips that I wanted to listen to after my "work", that are about shooting trouble... noooo, I won't listen to them. I AM GOING INTO THE SOFT AND SAFE-MODE!
Soft and safe. Soft and chill. Soft and wonderful. Soft and delightful! Soft and wonderfully SWEET. And SAFE. Ahhhhh! Ahhhhh!!!



...I float because I don't care (about the problems). I float because I love! Not even my body weight is about my action: I just float and enjoy and love and have fun. THAT FEELS SO GOOD. Ahhhh! I am light. I all senses! Light, delightful. Light and weightless and easy and so so so good. YES!



Awww, I KNOW!!! And it feels so wonderful to deliberately think it, again! YES!!! YES! Now it's all awesome and sweet and delicious... Dancing, not walking. Being uplifted and uploaded and tuned in and TURNED on!!

[FloatingBoat]

Hello Poe,
I love your descriptions. This sentence, "I decided to ENJOY my time, no matter if my 'big stuff' is there or not, yet!" is made just for me. I just want to enjoy today as well. Your description of how you switch to the gentle and safe mode and are simply kind to yourself reminds me that I often think, "I don't have to process anything; I can just let myself drift." Your post feels so wonderfully light and dreamy, and i can really feel the dancing and drifting when i read your words.

Thank you for that, it made me very happy and encouraged me. I will also let myself drift gently and safely today.

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Hello Poe,
I love your descriptions. This sentence, "I decided to ENJOY my time, no matter if my 'big stuff' is there or not, yet!" is made just for me. I just want to enjoy today as well. Your description of how you switch to the gentle and safe mode and are simply kind to yourself reminds me that I often think, "I don't have to process anything; I can just let myself drift." Your post feels so wonderfully light and dreamy, and i can really feel the dancing and drifting when i read your words.

Thank you for that, it made me very happy and encouraged me. I will also let myself drift gently and safely today.

awww, I'm glad!! Let's drift and float and enjoy!