My 30 day in-the-Vortex challenge/experiment

[Sheila86]

Day 9/10

There are ups and downs on this journey, as I am learning to tend to my vibration more and more.
It gets easier to focus back on me, what I am doing vibrationally, sit back, breath and sooth myself. I love the wonderful feeling I get in my body when I do the techniques I am playing with at the moment (prepaving, wouldn't it be nice if...., which thought feels better). It does not take that long anymore to find a better feeling thought and hold on to it. And when there is one thought, the next thought is even easier, until more and more are coming and they are filling my whole being with a pleasurable buzzing feeling. Love that.

Some cute Mini-Manifestations/things working out for me showed up:
- I played video games with my husband yesterday. There is this one game in which we would try and try but were not able to do the last two levels, literally for months. Yesterday I just ACED them with complete ease. Ah, that felt so good.
- Also gaming related: I just finished a video game that I absolutely adored and felt kind of sad that it was over. I found myself thinking: man, I really love the deck-building aspect of it. I wish there was another game like that. Also, I have been wishing for a nice mobile phone game for some time to amuse myself with during the day. And all of a sudden my husband found this new Pokemon mobile deck-building game!!! Wow! It felt like the Universe orchestrated that for me personally, haha, because it was exactly what I had asked for!

[Tara]

Love you manifestation of the mobile game, and that you and your husband are a match to playing games. So wonderful when interest you have and your partner has, matches

Are these your real photos? They are so beautiful, cozy and full of love and connection between the two hearts

[Sheila86]

Love you manifestation of the mobile game, and that you and your husband are a match to playing games. So wonderful when interest you have and your partner has, matches

Are these your real photos? They are so beautiful, cozy and full of love and connection between the two hearts

Aww, thank you so much for your kind words, Tara!
Yes absolutely, I’m very happy to have a hobby that allows me to co-create with my husband! We don't have a lot of common interests but this is something that brings us both joy.
As for the photos, I actually found them on Pinterest .I am still working up the courage to share my own photos. I have been wanting to do that for days now but somehow I am still hesitant. I would love to do what Paradise on Earth does here. It is wonderful and inspiring to get these glimpses into her life.... One day I will for sure take a leap and post some pictures of mine. I’m glad they come across as cozy and full of love—that’s exactly the vibe I wanted to express

[book]

Your idea in the OP about every day writing a list of the good / fun things to do on that day is really cool. I always just write to-do lists about things I need to accomplish during the day, but this is a really different perspective and seems like a fun idea. Are you still doign that part? If yes how is it working after more than a week of being at it?

[Sheila86]

Day 14
I am gaining more and more awareness of where my vibration is. And I am caring more and more about raising it:
I felt crappy yesterday, physically. I was tired as f*ck, grumpy and achy. But my vibration was still so high from the last days that I really did not want to give in to feeling bad again... I was a happy girl in a tired body LOL.
So right after work I parked myself on the couch and tried to relax and only did some minor household stuff. In the evening I tried to amuse myself by putting on our latest video game but due to my tiredness, it was not so much fun. That annoyed me a bit. It was 20:30 in the evening and all I really wanted was to just lie on the couch and do nothing and think of lovely things that make me feel good.

So I switched off the XBOX, put myself in a comfy blanket, just lying there.
Oh how sweet the silence was.
I just started thinking about the stars out there in the Universe. How many there are and how fascinating that is. How interesting the advancement of technology is and how lucky I am to live in this times and age and witness all the amazing gadgets humanity created. I thought about how nice my blanket is. I appreciated our apartment and that I had this moment only for myself. I started to think of how wonderful my husband is, how attractive, emotionally generous and funny he is. How nice my in-laws are.
I started to feel really goood!
I felt really abundant.
I went to bed really happy, like a rich girl!
I still have this elevated, warm feeling in my body today
And physically I feel way better than yesterday.
A very vortexy experience.

[Sheila86]

Your idea in the OP about every day writing a list of the good / fun things to do on that day is really cool. I always just write to-do lists about things I need to accomplish during the day, but this is a really different perspective and seems like a fun idea. Are you still doign that part? If yes how is it working after more than a week of being at it?

Hi book,
I am happy to hear it inspires you! I can only recommend you try it!
It worked very well for me in the first week. After that I switched to Abe's technique of pre-paving and kind of did the list in my head when I pre-paved the day in the morning. I also feel that at the moment my vibration is so high that I don't "need" the list. It worked best for me when my vibration was in the middle or lower middle of the emotional scale.
But that is my personal experience It might always work or work differently for another person

[Sheila86]

Day 17
I am not so sure what I am supposed to write in this thread to keep you guys updated.
In the last days it has kind of all been the same. I do my vibrational work in the morning. I pre-pave, I chose lovely thoughts and I imagine the day as lovely and relaxing. This works well and makes me feel very good.
Throughout the day I try to keep the vibe. If I fall off, I get up again. If negative thoughts or tiredness overcome me, I try to just chill out. I don't really think about stuff that worries me. If I catch myself doing so, I change the subject (internally and externally).

I am still slowly installing new routines and habits to become better at having a lovely, clean apartment.
My husband and I are still playing video games in the evenings. (And all Sunday long )
I am cooking healthy meals for us. That's a bit of work, but I like the feeling of me caring for my family (us two )
I don't really think about work. This used to be a VERY low vibe topic where I was at despair, hopelessness and anger for a long time. Now I mostly don't care or don't think about it. Only when I am at work, obviously haha. But the way I approach it is way lighter.... I don't feel like a seashell under pressure anymore.

What I am asking myself now is: Can I elevate this practice? Now can I manifest a certain thing? For example a new job, a vacation, a new wardrobe...
In the past, I used to put a lot of pressure on me by trying to manifest certain things. That made me feel VERY bad. That is why I have been putting such a laser focus on my practice of generally feeling better in the last month. But now I am wondering...

From what I have learned so far, I think that whatever I would potentially come up with to manifest a certain thing, is that is has to feel really good while I am doing it. This is the indicator. Everything else would defeat the purpose.
So I have to become really excited about this certain thing. I have to ponder it and revel at the pure idea of it....
I am not sure if I am ready to go there and try doing this... We will see...

[book]

Do you feel that you are hitting new positive emotional peaks every day or every second day as you keep building positive momentum?

[Sheila86]

Do you feel that you are hitting new positive emotional peaks every day or every second day as you keep building positive momentum?

Thank you for your thoughtful question book! I wouldn’t say I measure my progress like that. For me, it’s less about those highs and more about consistency.

The way I see it is that either I’m in my happy place, or I’m not. And if I’m not, my focus becomes finding my way back there. It’s more about cultivating this steady, deeper sense of happiness that feels sustainable and natural, rather than being overly focused on emotional “highs.”

But I’ve noticed that my happiness feels richer and more grounded these days—it’s like I’ve expanded my capacity for feeling good. Maybe this is what you were asking anyways

[Sheila86]

Day 19
So I realized trying to manifest a specific thing (aka MONEY) still does not work for me. It makes me feel bad. Like yearning, like effort, like trying to squeeze myself through a small tube. It's a yucky feeling. And it lowered my vibration... I felt worse yesterday than the days before that.
At this point, it is better for me to be really general.

So, yesterday evening, after a yucky day, I sat on the train on my way home and started to contemplate general lovely things again. I let myself fall into a general sense of well-being and trust. That raised my vibration!

I want to expand on that practice.
I don't want to ever think unlovely thoughts again.
I never want to worry again.
I want to skip all criticism and negative what-ifs.
I want to be in this free-flowing space of rightness and confidence.
I want to know that everything is already worked out for me.
I just have to lay back and watch the delightful unfolding.
I want to run around appreciating stuff, like a big-eyed child with wonder in it's eyes.
I want to be a Pollyanna.