I love to be satisfied. And I love to be eager for more!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I enjoy my tipping point!
I react joyfully from ITV now, and so, it all turns out wonderful!

Day 5

I REALLY was miffed today about something. And then, I decided to allow my mood instead of pushing against it, and ENJOYED (!!) a f*- rampage!! It helped to let it go without feeling sanctimonious. I managed not to go into shame about being angry. Somehow, it just was authentic. That was... feeling good!
Just embracing what-is, nooo pushing against it! Just controlling myself to not go overboard in a way I did not want- and that is good-feeling, too.

And then, my son and my daughter got my so dreamed of Schaumküsse. 175 pieces!
They had todrive 4 hrs to do so, but they agreed (and I had asked for) as they picked up J.'s stepson for Christmas, and it was on the way. I SO LOVED TO GET THE PHOTO OF THE BOXES!
I, at first, was a bit in fear and shame that my family might judge me for being SO exuberant, and so ravenously and so NOT humble, while -they are NOT all for myself. I will give 4 boxes of them to J and J.'s family in law, with whom they will celebrate Christmas, and there will be 11 children and 12 grownup's! 1 box was going to the family of the stepson. 2 boxes I kept for give-aways and our own family. And all of that feels so good.

I really really REALLY wanted this exuberant richness! And when my son F teasingly asked "Do you think it will be enough?", I was in Alignment! I went with the tease, and we had such fun!! And I think, my family is proud of me, no matter how much they tease. But even if they wouldn't, I stood my stance. I was having a straight spine, as we Germans say! IT FELT SO GOOD!!! THIS IS MY LIFE! And I can decide as I want! (And I so enjoyed that DH liked it, from the beginning!)

I do big things. I am not normal! I love to be generous. I love to see people smile! And: I feel soooo proud!

[spiritualcookie]

"Do you think it will be enough?"

How beautiful that your son and daughter are helping so generously! Generosity runs in the family it seems!

When the much anticipated treats finally arrived... did you have a taste of one yet? I'm so curious how they are!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Do you think it will be enough?"

How beautiful that your son and daughter are helping so generously! Generosity runs in the family it seems!

When the much anticipated treats finally arrived... did you have a taste of one yet? I'm so curious how they are!

ohh, thank you!!
The kisses REALLY are delicious! The wafers underneath are so fresh as well, and the cream is heavenly! The chocolate is a pretty thick coat of pure real chocolate, not the cheap mix of some chocolate (if you are lucky) + mostly palm-fat, so that the coverings can be super-thin. My kids came to late to be able to buy the taste-variety "rum", but they got "normal", "coco" (with coco-shavings IN the filling and generously sprinkled on the kiss) and mocha (coffee)- which is my favourite!! I admit, it is probably not worth it to drive 4 hrs just to get them- but when we drive by, we would buy them again (certainly in May, when the strawberry-filling is on!).

My kids had SO MUCH FUN with this drive, finally doing something together and really spending some time with each other! Nici is 8 years younger than his sister, and so, the age-difference and the fact that Jana become mother of 3 hindered them a long time to hang out, while Heiko and Nici (2 years apart) where always best friends. Heikos wife is 5 years older than him, and she befriended Jana in an instant! Now they all love to hang out together. They visited H. in Stuttgart yesterday night also on their way home, and loved it! a win-win-win-win!

[spiritualcookie]

mm the mocha one sounds like it would be my favourite too just from the flavours in it!

Road trips are such a good opportunity for quality time together. And what a great bonus they got to visit Heiko thanks to this trip!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

mm the mocha one sounds like it would be my favourite too just from the flavours in it!

Road trips are such a good opportunity for quality time together. And what a great bonus they got to visit Heiko thanks to this trip!

Yes, yes!! and they brought Nicis trailor home from Heiko- filled up to the brim with fantastic tools that Heiko had saved from a dump, and an old dream-motorbike Nici and Wolf bought from H. for very cheap money, who had saved it from a barn -the owner wanted to throw it away! Our family LOVES to save awesome stuff! "Surprise and delights"...

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I enjoy my tipping point!
I react joyfully from ITV now, and so, it all turns out wonderful!

Day 6

Today, my youngest son, and my oldest Grandson celebrate their birthday!! It was such a beautiful day. I feel so thankful for all this incredibly loveable people I may share my life with, my time, my knowing, my love, my dedication! I feel so blessed.



Beloved Nici and Mirko- growing together, over the years!

I had to drive today an hour and feared I would not be able again, to do so. I noticed, I already had gathered momentum on this fear. When I noticed it, I deliberately turned around, and IT WAS AN AWESOME RIDE. I am so proud of myself!! I DID THAT!!!



Our celebration today- with a "vulcano-cake", hot Cheese-Frankfurters, self made bread and Crême Brulée (as the 2 Birthday-stars had wished for)

My beloved step grandson had such an amazing talk with us, today. How grown up he already is. How thankful for the love and joy and trust, in our family. How open, clear and receptive for what is good and right. I am in awe about this young man! I learned some really sad and disappointing things about his life, and it pulled me down. I noticed quite late. And now, I just send light into it... I can't manage or regulate or help it, in any way. I have NO CLUE how to deal with it. "I give up". Source, you'll manage that! You will call me when I CAN do something good, and then, I'll notice. And until then, I so appreciate this young boy, and all who are in this situation for what and who they really truly are, and for what their soul has sent them.

I send them light. There is a purpose, and I don't need to understand it. I just need to trust God, and to wish ALL of them the very best, and give up all need to manage it. I give up, I give up, I give up! I see them in their very best stance. I see them clear. I see them empowered. I see them in light. I see them guided. I see them, hopeful. I see how they feel relief, and insight, and new, wonderful hope. I see them, warm, soothed and HAPPY.


Games and fun and food and laughter and deep thoughts... all that's good and wonderful!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Merry Christmas to ALL of you! (in Germany, we are celebrating Christmas TODAY- and the next 2 days! While Santa -the Weihnachtsmann- really is coming tonight...)

[spiritualcookie]

Merry Christmas to you Elke, to your family and also to everyone on the forum!
I hope you all have a wonderful time celebrating the festivities!

[FeelGood]

Merry Christmas to you and your family poe , I know you will all enjoy the days of celebration.

[Paradise-on-Earth]

"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."
(Abe)

...I enjoy my tipping point!
I react joyfully from ITV now, and so, it all turns out wonderful!

Day 7

I had an amazing day today.
But, in the early morning when DH and I got to the bakery to bring home fresh Christmas buns for breakfast we walked into a really odd athmosphere. One of the shop-ladies (usually a very nice woman) just stood at the cash point, not serving customers, while she loudly mistreated her collegues. I had been so high in my vibe- so, it felt so very very odd to me! Finally, I just followed my impulse and made a lighthearted joke, if she would be the "big bad master who taught her prentices?"

-The whole room lit up like touched by a charm! Many people laughed in relief. Nobody got it wrong, and the "big bad master" eased up completely and laughed with us, in an instant! In that moment, a young Weihnachtsman (our German equivalent to Santa) ran into the room, waving his bell, and the shop-lady asked loudly if we would get presents? He asked back (obviously no native speaker, and so sweet!) if we all would have been good girls? My man shouted "No, not me!", which caused another wave of laughter.

The shop-lady (not a native speaker either) asked what the Weihnachtsmann had asked. Another man answered in boldest local dialect: "Ob'st brav warst!" ("have you been good?") -another roaring laughter from all of us! The very young Weihnachtsmann seemed a bit overwhelmed and took the chance to take a quick leave, while literally all customers began joking and teasing, and we laughed and laughed! It was SUCH an awesome moment!

I was stunned how easy the energy of the whole room had flipped from terrible and awkward into high flying! It can take so few!


We decided to take a stroll through "our" city, Nürnberg on the hottest Christmas-day! Still, the Christkindlesmarkt was open. Still, the Postkutsche was taking passengers around the market ...before, in Germany, the good children will get their presents on CHRISTMAS EVE.


I found a huge mistle-toe in a shop-window and had to go for the opportunity! and we even met another Weihnachtsmann, driving home from the market on his super cool Teneré Enduro-motorbike, stopping and waving at me as he saw that I took a picture!

...We experienced SO much fun, the whole day. Awesome funny interactions, high flying loving moments. And in the end, my mother called me to wish us all a Merry Christmas. Something she hadn't done since years. It felt SO GOOD!! So precious and beautiful, like a wish that took a decade to fulfill. I am so thankful!!! My, I had SUCH a wonderful Christmas-day! Thank you, thank you life.

Merry Christmas, filled with SO MUCH wonders and magic, to all of you as well! FROHE WEIHNACHT!


Our Christmas-living room... with integrated art- and crafts-workshop