The Abe Forum

...

I also wanted to milk the state I have experienced yesterday during the first part of the day:
- I did some yoga practice and it felt good. I felt like I wanted to do it, and it was a wonderful state. I am realising I’m doing many things out of responsibility (at least with that type of state even the things I decide to do because I want eventually to do them (eg like yoga)) but this time it was clear impulse inspiration, wanting from within and after that I somehow managed to get in a state how it would feel like if I felt inspired to do many thing in my life … from within…how a person feels who is very inspired in his/her life. It was a wonderful state.
- It felt like different type of ease
- Ease in beingness
- Ease in clarity
- It felt like being in the flow
- Feeling in tune
- Being present and enjoying the activity in the present moment
- It felt like clarity
- It’s hard for me to describe in words that state, but it was like optimism.

Day 6:
I feel so lazy to work today... feel like not working....
I guess on an emotional scale this would fall on a boredom.
Contentment is next. So I am taking this time to climb a scale.

Contentment... Satisfaction... Fulfilment...
Contentment is that feeling I get when I get the job done to a satisfying level. I feel content.
I am content that I am quite knowledgeable in our business. It is easy to respond to various queries. It is easy to give some advice for other people. It is quite satisfying and easy. I feel confident to attend calls with the client.
I feel content that our Team placed the candidates for these two roles. They are a bit tricky to fill, to choose the exact right candidate from the pool of many, and it is very satisfying to see our Team doing well.
I am content with overall teamwork workflow within our Team and other departments.
I am satisfied seeing how much this girl got more empowered and is taking initiative on some aspects of the role. Very satisfying to see her growth.
I am very content and at ease when L. is working in another department. I can relax in her knowledge, expertise and attention to detail. She is a very strong team player.

How would I prefer to feel about these tasks I am about to do?
- Clarity
- Insightfulness
- Interested. I like when I get my head around some things, and it is interested for me to do them and achieve the desired outcome.
- I like when things start clicking in the places, and I am seeing the bigger picture.
- I like feeling in the flow, clear-minded, I like insights coming into me, I like knowing the purpose and the meaning of this task.
- This would improve a life of many involved, this would enhance their living, this would give them financial relief.
- Wouldn't it be nice to start receiving insights/ideas?
- Isn't it nice that I have this time to focus?
- Isn't it nice that it is manageable and quiet and I can dedicate my focus on this project?
- It is nice not to feel overwhelmed, and have this space to think and focus.
- It is contentment.

Day 7:
- Today I did not do much at work. Few things here and there. Was a nice easy day.
- I do appreciate that my Manager is on top of everything, and is hands on in nitty gritty… makes me feel less responsible
- She is also my good friend
- I received a message from my ex colleague (he worked with us for sometime, and till this day he remembers it was the nicest atmosphere to work, back then it was only a handful of us… and it was a bit different from what it is now… we were office based, our offices were near Angel’s canal and we used to go for walks, have fun chats.. also there was another big company sharing the office, together with some of them we used to do cycling during lunch break, our boss back then used to treat us with fancy dinners and nights out… feels like a different company (a lot has changed in 10 years), but lovely to remember… and I felt in love with the angel Islington area… and now I live in Dalston (not far from there)
- this is a beautiful memory.
- This colleague later moved to be a counsellor. He always inspired me: studied law, then worked a bit, did not like, went to recruitment, then business management then in his early fifties studied and finished psychology and now he has many clients plus he is a passionate sailer and we like to keep in touch on messaging… this connection is an easy existing match I have got from my work

Day 8:
- A wonderful manifestation: my boss asked me if I wanna go for a work trip in Singapore this month. Nothing confirmed yet, but what a match
- Today was a more busy day, but still it had an overall nice flow. I received in my opinion a good idea on how to respond to one email.
- I really like my colleague S. She is very organised, dedicated, and she always takes into account the feedback. I appreciate her being on top of things.
- My manager does think of all of us, and she thinks of the career progression and she really wants what is the best for each of us where we are. She is trying to map some career growth plan for all of us.

Tomorrow is a weekend. I’ll skip this thread until Monday.