I guess it might help to, first, pat yourself a bit on your back for having managed to live in a pretty calm spot, where nothing really unwanted happens. That is quite some achievement, really!Awa wrote: ↑Thu May 23, 2024 7:16 pmYes, exactly. I slide from boredom to pessimism and then further down to impatience. Then I climb back up a bit. What I want. is to be in the vortex and enjoy periods of joy, knowledge, empowerment, freedom, love, and appreciation. Bathing in hope and contentment for longer, wouldn't be bad either, though .Paradise-on-Earth wrote: ↑Wed May 22, 2024 8:31 pm In the middle, the fulcrum of the EGS about point 7 and 8, Contentment and Boredom, you have the "slowest" feeling emotions. When you come from below, getting this slowness is a GOOD sign! It is an indicator that you get ready to "stop the train of negativity", and then, slowly, pick up speed into the wanted direction.
But, as you say, it is boring. It is not ITV! So, find ways to start good feeling momentum. I loved what you did in your rampage-thread, where you found interest about dreaming and planning a stylish interior of your future home. THAT is how you do it!
Do it unconditionally in the beginning. Learn about the styles, materials, colors, the art and designs that you really like. Empty the internet, pin on pinterest, collect snippets, visit exhibitions, watch movies of architecture and design... learn to draw floor maps or even play with a free or cheap interior design- program on your computer.
You will be in no time PASSIONATE!