Day 95: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 1: No random internet all day. Maximum 2 email checks all day
Reminder: I am doing really well and this is all gradual. If I've enjoyed my 15 mins Ab Hicks abundance meditation, I've taken care of all I need to take care of today.
Average mood still creeping up. Yesterday I had some nice experiences here and there of relaxed fun work at work. At 5pm I caved and checked my email - I then checked it about 10 times over the next hour haha. I then left work really scatty and a little irritable. So today I would really like to go the whole day with just 2 email checks.
My Diary
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abrahammer117
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Re: My Diary
Day 96: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 1: 20mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
So money is still an issue. We really could do with having a great week - yesterday when a delivery came I saw the invoice and realised I'd ordered something twice in error and so wasted £120. I got really pissed off at myself but it felt really good to get really pissed off. Pissed off with struggling financially and pissed off with 'still not getting this' etc. but I can tell strongly that as I feel that relief getting that pissed off for a bit - I've not felt this good in ages. The ups and downs and improvements are continuing. I had a really good chat with my girlfriend last night too.
Right - Andy Mantra! When I first quit my office job to do the business full time I knew, really knew I had to keep believing every day for it to work out.
Something I did a lot was a rosary/mantra type thing which just came to me after reading the "7-Day mental diet" and it really works for me. In fact it works so well - when I'm worried it scares me (my mind) to think of doing it.
Andy Mantra: Say this from memory whilst counting on my fingers, out loud is best.
Left Hand
1) I will not dwell in negativity of any kind
2) I will not entertain thoughts of worry or concern
3) I will not entertain thoughts of problems
4) I will not entertain thoughts of criticism of myself or anyone else
5) I will not see negativity in any aspect of my life.
Right Hand
1) I will dwell in positivity
2) I will entertain thoughts of success
3) I will entertain thoughts of solutions
4) I will entertain thoughts of praise of myself and others
5) I will see positivity in all aspects of my life
Finisher: I do this because as my mind changes, my reality HAS to change
I did this for the first time in ages this morning and the relief was really really nice. From a Hicks point of view - this is great because it's so general and step 3 is general. I find that having to remember each sentence and counting on my fingers makes it impossible to wonder off.
Day 1: 20mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
So money is still an issue. We really could do with having a great week - yesterday when a delivery came I saw the invoice and realised I'd ordered something twice in error and so wasted £120. I got really pissed off at myself but it felt really good to get really pissed off. Pissed off with struggling financially and pissed off with 'still not getting this' etc. but I can tell strongly that as I feel that relief getting that pissed off for a bit - I've not felt this good in ages. The ups and downs and improvements are continuing. I had a really good chat with my girlfriend last night too.
Right - Andy Mantra! When I first quit my office job to do the business full time I knew, really knew I had to keep believing every day for it to work out.
Something I did a lot was a rosary/mantra type thing which just came to me after reading the "7-Day mental diet" and it really works for me. In fact it works so well - when I'm worried it scares me (my mind) to think of doing it.
Andy Mantra: Say this from memory whilst counting on my fingers, out loud is best.
Left Hand
1) I will not dwell in negativity of any kind
2) I will not entertain thoughts of worry or concern
3) I will not entertain thoughts of problems
4) I will not entertain thoughts of criticism of myself or anyone else
5) I will not see negativity in any aspect of my life.
Right Hand
1) I will dwell in positivity
2) I will entertain thoughts of success
3) I will entertain thoughts of solutions
4) I will entertain thoughts of praise of myself and others
5) I will see positivity in all aspects of my life
Finisher: I do this because as my mind changes, my reality HAS to change
I did this for the first time in ages this morning and the relief was really really nice. From a Hicks point of view - this is great because it's so general and step 3 is general. I find that having to remember each sentence and counting on my fingers makes it impossible to wonder off.
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abrahammer117
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Re: My Diary
Day 97: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 2: 20mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
Average mood definitely continuing to improve.
Day 2: 20mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
Average mood definitely continuing to improve.
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abrahammer117
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Re: My Diary
Day 99: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 4: 20mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
Average mood still improving. On Saturday 2 great synchronicities happened for me business, one of them happened seconds after I found myself daydreaming about it. Yesterday I had the most fun in a long time
My 'Andy Mantra' is going very well. I'm at the point where my tolerance for negative emotion is very very low ( in a good way ). So I'm catching the beginning of negative thought patterns very quickly and regularly. I'm often saying to myself 'I won't dwell in negativity of any kind' when negative emotion pops up and realising that in the past I wouldn't have even regarded what I was thinking as negative, but it sure as hell feels it , so it is.
I've wanted to lose weight for so many years and it's falling into place. The best thing for me has evolved naturally - incline treadmill walking. It's incredible how quickly the calorie count goes up on max incline at slow walking speed. I did an hour this morning, burnt 500 calories and feel physically fine from it.
Day 4: 20mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
Average mood still improving. On Saturday 2 great synchronicities happened for me business, one of them happened seconds after I found myself daydreaming about it. Yesterday I had the most fun in a long time
My 'Andy Mantra' is going very well. I'm at the point where my tolerance for negative emotion is very very low ( in a good way ). So I'm catching the beginning of negative thought patterns very quickly and regularly. I'm often saying to myself 'I won't dwell in negativity of any kind' when negative emotion pops up and realising that in the past I wouldn't have even regarded what I was thinking as negative, but it sure as hell feels it , so it is.
I've wanted to lose weight for so many years and it's falling into place. The best thing for me has evolved naturally - incline treadmill walking. It's incredible how quickly the calorie count goes up on max incline at slow walking speed. I did an hour this morning, burnt 500 calories and feel physically fine from it.
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abrahammer117
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Re: My Diary
Day 100: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 5: 15mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
Doing very well - average mood improving all the time. The 'Andy Mantra' is really really helping. I can super reliably turn my thoughts around as soon as negative emotion creeps up by going to this.
Great couple of synchronicities yesterday - I got an art printing order from Newcastle. I only really intended to be a local printer but I improved my website last week and it's got me an order miles away. Also a guy who left some things to frame about 6 months ago turned up to pay
Day 5: 15mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
Doing very well - average mood improving all the time. The 'Andy Mantra' is really really helping. I can super reliably turn my thoughts around as soon as negative emotion creeps up by going to this.
Great couple of synchronicities yesterday - I got an art printing order from Newcastle. I only really intended to be a local printer but I improved my website last week and it's got me an order miles away. Also a guy who left some things to frame about 6 months ago turned up to pay
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abrahammer117
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Re: My Diary
Day 101: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 6: 15mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
Day 1: 15 mins 'sounds' meditation on prayer stool
On wanted side of things - I want my average mood to keep improving and indeed it is.
I'd like to acknowledge there's something in my 'Andy Mantra' that particularly helps ; 'I won't entertain thoughts of criticism of myself or others'
That's having a really good impact.
I really want my financial situation to improve. As my vibe has been improving there has been lots of evidence of things falling into place
I'm believing more and more that my job is the emotional journey, from feeling bad about money to feeling good about it.
Synchronicities are increasing - I was in my shop and randomly started daydreaming about framing football shirts - seconds later a woman came in and ordered to shirts to be framed ( I probably frame about 3 a year! )
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just had a 15 minute 'listening to ambient sounds' meditation on my prayer stool and was really nice. I'd like to have that more regularly
Day 6: 15mins Andy mantra first thing and last thing before bed.
Day 1: 15 mins 'sounds' meditation on prayer stool
On wanted side of things - I want my average mood to keep improving and indeed it is.
I'd like to acknowledge there's something in my 'Andy Mantra' that particularly helps ; 'I won't entertain thoughts of criticism of myself or others'
That's having a really good impact.
I really want my financial situation to improve. As my vibe has been improving there has been lots of evidence of things falling into place
I'm believing more and more that my job is the emotional journey, from feeling bad about money to feeling good about it.
Synchronicities are increasing - I was in my shop and randomly started daydreaming about framing football shirts - seconds later a woman came in and ordered to shirts to be framed ( I probably frame about 3 a year! )
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just had a 15 minute 'listening to ambient sounds' meditation on my prayer stool and was really nice. I'd like to have that more regularly
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abrahammer117
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Re: My Diary
Day 101: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day1: Have the main segments of my day prepaved. 1) Morning 2) In work 3) Evening 4) Pre-bed routine
Prepaving should be done well in advance.
I've had a really good feeling morning. At points, once again, the best I've felt in ages.
Yesterday I had a customer who wanted a refund for a delay and then tried her best for quite a while to find anything she could wrong with the rolled canvas she was taking back. It really brought to the surface those old feelings which linger in my vibe that I must be doing something wrong because it's me.... I stood my ground very well as everything she was saying was palpably false - after she left I really enjoyed my vibe now being in a place of self-value and confidence in my work. Used the contrast well
It also left me feeling very keen to really turn things around now with a kind of renewed honesty with myself. I took pad and paper and felt into my morning period, from waking about 6am to working at 10.30am and I felt through honestly with myself what a morning of genuine self-care would look like. I stuck with it until I'd arrived at a morning plan that felt good. ( No internet / phone at all until 10am. Shower, sounds meditation 20mins on prayer stool, breakfast and morning 5 minute journal, coffee shop just sitting about 90 mins. Come home and read until 10am with an Ab Hicks abundance meditation thrown in)
I then did this for my pre-bed routine, evening and working day.
This is such a difference to waking up and then wondering what's best to do etc. I also did this about 5pm yesterday and my my evening segment preparing it was simply stay off my phone and internet. I enjoyed my evening SO much more.
I'll add that when thinking about preparing - it works so much better if done well in advance. E.g. if get into work , and then start preparing my day - doesn't work very well! but it I do it the night before....
Day1: Have the main segments of my day prepaved. 1) Morning 2) In work 3) Evening 4) Pre-bed routine
Prepaving should be done well in advance.
I've had a really good feeling morning. At points, once again, the best I've felt in ages.
Yesterday I had a customer who wanted a refund for a delay and then tried her best for quite a while to find anything she could wrong with the rolled canvas she was taking back. It really brought to the surface those old feelings which linger in my vibe that I must be doing something wrong because it's me.... I stood my ground very well as everything she was saying was palpably false - after she left I really enjoyed my vibe now being in a place of self-value and confidence in my work. Used the contrast well
It also left me feeling very keen to really turn things around now with a kind of renewed honesty with myself. I took pad and paper and felt into my morning period, from waking about 6am to working at 10.30am and I felt through honestly with myself what a morning of genuine self-care would look like. I stuck with it until I'd arrived at a morning plan that felt good. ( No internet / phone at all until 10am. Shower, sounds meditation 20mins on prayer stool, breakfast and morning 5 minute journal, coffee shop just sitting about 90 mins. Come home and read until 10am with an Ab Hicks abundance meditation thrown in)
I then did this for my pre-bed routine, evening and working day.
This is such a difference to waking up and then wondering what's best to do etc. I also did this about 5pm yesterday and my my evening segment preparing it was simply stay off my phone and internet. I enjoyed my evening SO much more.
I'll add that when thinking about preparing - it works so much better if done well in advance. E.g. if get into work , and then start preparing my day - doesn't work very well! but it I do it the night before....
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abrahammer117
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Re: My Diary
Day 102: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 2: Have the main segments of my day prepaved. 1) Morning 2) In work 3) Evening 4) Pre-bed routine
Prepaving should be done well in advance.
Well, yesterday morning felt like another tipping point. The best feeling morning so far - where the feeling good genuinely had that 'All is well' quality.
I had a wonderful day in the business taking over £800 and lots of things just working out smoothly.
My girlfriend also had an amazing day.
As often happens when I have a good day at work - I start treating myself with random email checks and YouTube videos and random internet.
Once again the fallout from this was so strong - I didn't enjoy the rest of the evening and went to bed really early. I can still feel the hangover now
But I am so much kinder to myself about this - AND - writing here every day keeps me conscious of what's happening and I'm wanting to avoid this kind of thing more and more. I'm still surprised at how just 30 to 40 mins of dopamine surfing can paddle my brain. But if definitely does!!!!!
Day 2: Have the main segments of my day prepaved. 1) Morning 2) In work 3) Evening 4) Pre-bed routine
Prepaving should be done well in advance.
Well, yesterday morning felt like another tipping point. The best feeling morning so far - where the feeling good genuinely had that 'All is well' quality.
I had a wonderful day in the business taking over £800 and lots of things just working out smoothly.
My girlfriend also had an amazing day.
As often happens when I have a good day at work - I start treating myself with random email checks and YouTube videos and random internet.
Once again the fallout from this was so strong - I didn't enjoy the rest of the evening and went to bed really early. I can still feel the hangover now
But I am so much kinder to myself about this - AND - writing here every day keeps me conscious of what's happening and I'm wanting to avoid this kind of thing more and more. I'm still surprised at how just 30 to 40 mins of dopamine surfing can paddle my brain. But if definitely does!!!!!
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abrahammer117
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Re: My Diary
Day 103: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 3: 20 mins 'sounds' meditation on prayer stool first thing
Day 1/7: One week challenge for weight loss. Either one meal a day or eating only 2pm-8pm
Average mood still creeping up every week and I think I am over that tipping point where I'm allowing good things to flow in. A lot of it is the results of seeds I've sown over the last few weeks.
I've done so well with body recomp the last couple of months. The more weight I lose the more the weight I still carry seems crazy to me. I'd really love to trim off an extra pound or two quickly. For that I feel like giving all my muscles a rest and just focus on weight loss for the next 7 days by going to one meal a day ( I only do 2 normally anyway ), sticking to slow carb diet still and walking more in mornings.
Day 3: 20 mins 'sounds' meditation on prayer stool first thing
Day 1/7: One week challenge for weight loss. Either one meal a day or eating only 2pm-8pm
Average mood still creeping up every week and I think I am over that tipping point where I'm allowing good things to flow in. A lot of it is the results of seeds I've sown over the last few weeks.
I've done so well with body recomp the last couple of months. The more weight I lose the more the weight I still carry seems crazy to me. I'd really love to trim off an extra pound or two quickly. For that I feel like giving all my muscles a rest and just focus on weight loss for the next 7 days by going to one meal a day ( I only do 2 normally anyway ), sticking to slow carb diet still and walking more in mornings.
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abrahammer117
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Re: My Diary
Day 105: posting here. Main guideline, focus on what's wanted with scant attention to unwanted
Day 5: 20 mins 'sounds' meditation on prayer stool first thing
Reminder: Of the four Ab Hicks meditations - I enjoy the Physical Well-being one the most
Quick one today. I think I'm actually chilling out. I'm really liking the 'listening to sounds' meditation in the morning. Coincidentally my boiler is heating at the time I meditate and gives me a strong steady sound to listen to. There's some things about this I'm really benefitting from - it's almost impossible to struggle and strain at this kind of meditation. You really have to allow and open up to hear. It's not involving the mind at all. If I notice tension /worry etc creep in - I'm loving just going to sounds instead of any mental activity about it. I'm feeling much freer from my mind
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Interesting thing to acknowledge that's been true for years for me - I enjoy the Physical Well-being meditation from Hicks the most out the four, and I also enjoy the Physical Well-being chapter the most in 'Getting into the Vortex'. Perhaps because I have the least resistance in this area?
Because I feel like finances are a bigger issue for me I've tended to go to the Abundance meditation and abundance chapter alot.
But to quote Hicks 'Whenever I feel good, NO MATTER THE REASON, I am accomplishing the feeling of abundance'. It actually makes sense to go for whatever I'm having the most fun with.
Day 5: 20 mins 'sounds' meditation on prayer stool first thing
Reminder: Of the four Ab Hicks meditations - I enjoy the Physical Well-being one the most
Quick one today. I think I'm actually chilling out. I'm really liking the 'listening to sounds' meditation in the morning. Coincidentally my boiler is heating at the time I meditate and gives me a strong steady sound to listen to. There's some things about this I'm really benefitting from - it's almost impossible to struggle and strain at this kind of meditation. You really have to allow and open up to hear. It's not involving the mind at all. If I notice tension /worry etc creep in - I'm loving just going to sounds instead of any mental activity about it. I'm feeling much freer from my mind
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Interesting thing to acknowledge that's been true for years for me - I enjoy the Physical Well-being meditation from Hicks the most out the four, and I also enjoy the Physical Well-being chapter the most in 'Getting into the Vortex'. Perhaps because I have the least resistance in this area?
Because I feel like finances are a bigger issue for me I've tended to go to the Abundance meditation and abundance chapter alot.
But to quote Hicks 'Whenever I feel good, NO MATTER THE REASON, I am accomplishing the feeling of abundance'. It actually makes sense to go for whatever I'm having the most fun with.