My Diary

[abrahammer117]

Day 1: 4 x 15 min sound meditations a day

Key reminders:
1) 15 min sound of silence meditations are my base practice. When I'm grounded in those, everything else seems to fall into place
2) You don't have to think about money to attract money. You just have to not think about the lack of it
3) Whenever I feel good, no matter the reason, I am accomplishing the feeling of abundance

So! I've had a good couple of days but sped up quite a bit whilst at work two days in a row where I dive into action without achieving much alignment at all. And certainly not that nice focus if I identify what I most want in the segment etc. Today is a fresh day however! Looking back I can tell there is usually a point in my working day where I speed up a little and then just kinda let the rest of the day go crazy and play on the internet and things lol . I've also dropped off meditating as often the last couple of days. So today I'm more determined to not dive into action until I'm more aligned. I'm also giving a bit more thought to positive anticipation of meditating twice tonight.

Ah so what I'm really saying is that I can tell I've fallen behind in taking care of my alignment and I'd like to get back up to speed. And the best thing is, I don't doubt I can do that

[abrahammer117]

Day 2: 4 x 15 min sound meditations a day ( 1/2 success )

Key reminders:
1) 15 min sound of silence meditations are my base practice. When I'm grounded in those, everything else seems to fall into place
2) You don't have to think about money to attract money. You just have to not think about the lack of it
3) Whenever I feel good, no matter the reason, I am accomplishing the feeling of abundance

Yesterday I had the best day at work all week as the first 2 days really focused my desire of how I wanted it to go.
I'm loving that when my vibe goes off at work - I know how to really stop for a while and get back on track.
When I got home yesterday I forgot to meditate and as a result the evening wasn't as much fun. This is making want to get back on track as life is ridiculously better if I do the 4 sits a day.

[abrahammer117]

Key reminders:
1) 15 min sound of silence meditations are my base practice. When I'm grounded in those, everything else seems to fall into place
2) Whenever I feel good, no matter the reason, I am accomplishing the feeling of abundance
3) I am doing extremely well

So! Average mood still creeping up I'm often hanging around in contentment and even fun which is amazing. Catching and releasing resistant thoughts it's getting easier and more subtle.

Something I've wanted almost all my life is simply to get moderately fit and healthy. A bit of bulking up and getting down to about 17 or 16% would be a dream come true. I'm starting week 3 of couch to 5k and loving it. This has inspired me to only rejoin the gym if I actually pay for a personal trainer once in a while - and I immediately had one in mind. Theres a PT in the gym who I got friendly with - and I always bump into him if I'm in a really good mood, if I'm in a bad mood he isn't there. So I emailed him, prices are good and I'm excited

[abrahammer117]

Key reminders:
1) 15 min sound of silence meditations are my base practice. When I'm grounded in those, everything else seems to fall into place
2) Whenever I feel good, no matter the reason, I am accomplishing the feeling of abundance
3) I am doing extremely well
4) SpiritualCookie says focus on what is wanted - good advice

Not sure what to write - so - focus on wanted side of things!
I want to continue having those moments of conscious emotional relief each day. Amazing. (I'm doing a Wim Hof voice in my head right now)
It feels really good to keep it that general. I love my 15 minute sound meditations and how reliably I can feel a little emotional relief - and how it changes everything if I have that feeling of relief as a recent memory and reference point.
When I woke up I wasn't sure if I wanted a shower or not, but I when I look from the point of view of relief - I know I love that feeling of improved emotion when the hot water hits. And then I wonder if I'll do a cold shower after it - and again I know that I'll get yet another buzz from the the cold. Really liking this approach.

[abrahammer117]

Day 1: 4 x 15min meditations a day.
Day 1: No random YouTube
Day 1: No work email outside of work

Writing here again today. Realising it's really ok to go back and forth, like that toddler learning to walk. Being in work gives me an exaggerated awareness of my vibe and I can tell that I'd like to catch up again.

[abrahammer117]

Day 2: 4 x 15min meditations a day. (consider just chilling for 5 mins after finishing)
Day 2: No random YouTube
Day 2: No work email outside of work
Reminder: is my mind all over the place or have I built momentum on one thing?
Reminder: My biggest trap at work is getting drawn into action before alignment

So! Bouncing out of a vibrational dip right now. Looking back I can see how I built up to a bit of a bump. I'm doing well easing out of it, I feel like I know exactly what to do and I feel so pleased when I find any relief.

Today at work I really want to prioritise not delving into any action without taking the time to find alignment first. I've noticed that once I start delving into action from an 'action for action's' sake place, it's quite hard to recover from it and it's then a case of try again tomorrow.
Last week though I had one day where I was great at not delving into action until I got into alignment - and I had a fun day and did some really good stuff. Was way more productive than my trying hard days.

[abrahammer117]

Reminder: Give attention to wanted

I want even more eagerness to flow into my experience. I can really feel I am allowing more and more good things to unfold.
that's it for today

[abrahammer117]

Something really lovely is settling in, probably talked about it before, I'm getting mad at myself much much much much less.

[abrahammer117]

Reminder: Focus on wanted side of things
Reminder: Regular 15 mins sound of silence meditations daily is ridiculously helpful
Reminder: I benefit tremendously from bad days

So! Not posted here in a while - average mood definitely still improving as it has all year.
Finances have definitely improved!! I'm believing more and more that my best approach for finances is to prioritise taking care of how I feel.
Compared to 12 months ago I'm in a massively massively improved place emotionally. I'm hungry for more improvement

[Tara]

Something really lovely is settling in, probably talked about it before, I'm getting mad at myself much much much much less.

This is very big and long lasting…

I’ve been there (not mad, but more victim like and self critical)… took time and it got less and less and now I could say it is more rare state of being, and after sleep it more easily fades away…

Thank you for sharing your journey.. the inner habitual changes is what really makes a difference in in daily life