...I decide to enjoy the wanted sides of what-is, and CREATE what I like even better.
"Nothing matters more to me, than that I feel good."(Abe)
...I give up to care what others think, and instead: Care for my ALIGNMENT.
Everything else will fall into place.
Day 17
I decided to have FUN.
I ordered a program yesterday- it felt sooo "reasonable". Today I canceled it (never before did I do that!). BECAUSE IT WAS NO FUN.
The more I read about what I would do there (which was not clear when I ordered), the more I gathered green dots in my face (so to speak!). I LOVE that not only my "hell yes-es" become clearer and more often, my "hell no's" become clearer, as well!!
NO,I did not come to "eat bowls of worms" as Abe once have put it!!! Neither do I need to eat tons of rice or beans or even seitan. I HATE THEM ALL!!! Nor, sprinkle LOADS of intense spices over my food. Yuck. I KNOW what I like, in this regard, too! I am open to new things, but after having tried them, I KNOW what I do NOT like, and no matter how long proven it might be, how healthy, how "necessary" to get what I want in the end- I feel in every bone when I do not want it. And, it is such pleasure to treasure my bodies impulses and decisions!!
It feels sooo good to treasure my body. To embrace it's wisdom.To follow it's guidance, and TRUST it!
I never had thought about it that taking the path of MY unique least resistance (or even better: MY unique path of most fun!) is so much more
-FUN!!!- than not choosing it. Again, it is about the small steps. Finding my path, by feeling out what is relief, or even fun- NOW NOW NOW.
I cancelled a specific youtube channel yesterday night. It was so INTERESTING. It was about psychics who had such interesting "insider informations" that sheeples don't get.It was a bit about... feeling boosted. But, really, it did NOT feel good, in it's core. AT ALL. I guess, conspiracy theories would be the best description...
Again, I am open to think the new. But after having thought and felt it I KNOW HOW I WANT TO FEEL!!! And that knot in my stomach is not it!!
...But, when I don't follow the warnings, that might bite me??
...When I don't do what the warners would advice, I might suffer from the consequences??? BUT WHEN IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD OR AS FUN- I am having misery for sure!! ...NOW!
It is not that easy to choose joy and lighthearted fun over bracing myself and digging into fear!
It feels as turning my back to the shadow-wolves of panic.
But as soon I trust my joy, the fear dissolves.
As soon I choose (!) Fun and Ease and sweet Trust, I am out of all danger zones. And THAT is what all the warners miss.