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OMG, reading you, I feel not only soothed but UPLIFTED
(and I can't get the aromatic fragrance of melted chocolate out of my brain, and the joy of being warmly embraced!)
I'll run with G...
Gedanken!
The German word for "thought".
I fell in love with the word and meaning "Gedanken" when I was a very small child. My Granny who raised me, used to visit, with me, her sister every summer in the former GDR (East Germany) that was devided from where we lived (BRD, West Germany) by the almost impassable Iron Curtain. Only people with very special allowance (that was given to most seniors or small children) could visit "the other side". For me, it was a fascinating different world, like from a childrens book from the old times. Horse-carriages in the rural roads, getting milk in an enameled can, incredibly long summers out in nature on my Grand-aunts isolated farm, where nobody could see or hear us. In the night, the former collegues of her (all have been intellectuals as teachers and artists) came to visit. We sat under the stars in the old farmers court, on cobblestones still warm from the days sunlight. My Aunt played accordion, and the old ladies sung old German folk-songs as "The Gedanken sind frei" (Thoughts are free).
I was hooked on the wonderful atmosphere, the fragrances of evening primroses and phlox surrounding us, the music and the beautiful, deeply touching meaning of the lyrics. I felt liberated by it, even as a 4 year old! I sooo resonated. I found an english translation, and while it is not absolutely accurate to the German one, that dates back before the 18. century, you get the idea...
Thoughts are free, who can guess them?
They fly by like nocturnal shadows.
No person can know them, no hunter can shoot them
and so it'll always be: Thoughts are free!
I think what I want, and what delights me,
still always reticent, and as it is suitable.
My wish and desire, no one can deny me
and so it'll always be: Thoughts are free!
I love wine, and my girl even more,
Only her I like best of all.
I'm not alone with my glass of wine,
my girl is with me: Thoughts are free!
And if I am thrown into the darkest dungeon,
all these are futile works,
because my thoughts tear all gates
and walls apart: Thoughts are free!
So I will renounce my sorrows forever,
and never again will torture myself with whimsies.
In one's heart, one can always laugh and joke
and think at the same time: Thoughts are free!
I had no idea that it was indeed a revolutionary song, that was forbidden in several time periods- so, as well, in the times of the GDR! Omi and Aunt Flo had to ask me to NOT sing it in public, please.
This was my first encounter with the ideas that thoughts are freedom and really powerful- and that some people try to suppress them in big ways. I became a philosopher, and thinking always had been one of my most favourite things to do- long before I was even a teenager.
When I finally found Abe (with about 50), my collected knowledge and thoughts suddenly ALL fell into perfect place. That's why I love Abe SO much! They gave me the final key to understand and GUIDE my thoughts- and due to them, my emotions...!
No longer THIS kind of thinking!!
At least, only when I slip...
I adore my thoughts! I adore my tool to dig my power, my freedom, my joy, my love. I SO LOVE TO THINK!!
I adore our all thoughts. Imagine... each and every invention... "Brainchild"... is due to someone, thinking. And that is a reason why I never could hate step 1!!! Even we can overthink!
Creators MUST think, and cross the "borders" so to speak, and use the contrast- allll the hues and colors of opportunity. F* the pain when we go over board in it, for some moments... and bless the awe and triumph, when we allow our thoughts that went "out there" and created extra-big in this "dramatic hero's fall", and then to finally reel in, in step 3, what we have created!
I NEVER wish I would lack critical thinking. But I LOVE to steer from being critical (=questions) thoughts into deepening my joy- and happiness- and fulfillment-thoughts!
I SO LOVE to think deliberately, on purpose, about "freedom and shit" and other wonderful things! I love to be hilarious- this is only possible due to THOUGHTS. I so, so, so love to think!
And... sometimes, I get "beyond words". In BEINGNESS, without thoughts for just a while, and rise to higher hights... where thoughts WILL beginn, again. What fun! What delightful game!!
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