My struggles with binge eating and other subjects

[FloatingBoat]

Hello everyone,

I'm currently struggling with a few issues where I'm not making as much progress vibrationally as I would like.

Regarding the initial situation: I take mirtazapine around 10 o'clock in the evening, especially to sleep. This often results in me having severe eating attacks. This in turn goes against my desire to lose weight and against my desire to always eat what is good for my stomach. When I binge eat, I wake up the next day with a stomach ache.
This is often accompanied by the fact that I fall asleep on the sofa, which means that I am not as rested the next day as if I fell asleep on my cozy bed

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[FloatingBoat]

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What am I doing at the moment?

I place Abraham cards, I listen to the vortex meditations and read the guide, I do Abraham exercises, and above all, find the better-feeling thought, wouldn't it be nice if?, focus block, appreciation

Maybe you have helpful ideas on how I can change the vibration of mirtazapine so that it only supports me when I sleep. I don't know how to formulate my wishes about this topic without going into denial. I'm a little frustrated at the moment, I have to admit, and maybe you have other great ideas too.

One resistance that I have already recognized is that I put a lot of pressure on myself, which works against me.

I appreciate your perspectives and wish you all a wonderful day.

Thank you

[Paradise-on-Earth]

Hello everyone,

I'm currently struggling with a few issues where I'm not making as much progress vibrationally as I would like.

Regarding the initial situation: I take mirtazapine around 10 o'clock in the evening, especially to sleep. This often results in me having severe eating attacks. This in turn goes against my desire to lose weight and against my desire to always eat what is good for my stomach. When I binge eat, I wake up the next day with a stomach ache.

So, you try to soothe your insomnia with drugs, instead of finding out what bothers you (=keeps you awake), or what you would really want, which you don't allow yourself to do.

Abe call that an "action journey". And all the action-journeys (including medication of all sorts, but also all actions as to eat too much (or work too much, or drink too much, or have sex in too random ways, or shop too much...) are attempts to SOOTHE yourself. Aka, to soothe your painful resistances. And that is fine and good, when you do that as a first step of a journey where you learn to release resistances VIBRATIONALLY.

Abe advice, to keep up the soothing actions until you figure out how soothe yourself by guiding your focus on purpose and finding relief without the stuff/ the drug/ the action (as long as you are not in direct danger! Hard drugs per example should not be consumed "as long as it takes you" to figure out how to line up vibrationally!!)

When you don't find a way to deliberately focus in ways that soothe you, but you continue only the un-aligned action,
"don't worry, it (=the resistance) will get bigger." -Abraham

Meaning, per example, the low dose of drug doesn't help anymore, and you will need more. Or it squirts out in having unwanted side effects. And while all of this happens, you still do not resolve the original resistance, that is the reason for your pain, to begin with! Which means, you don't get into Alignment, you feel worse and worse, and you don't have access to fulfilling your desires.

This is often accompanied by the fact that I fall asleep on the sofa, which means that I am not as rested the next day as if I fell asleep on my cozy bed

Truly ("we love you very very much!") this is another "story" you tell yourself, that really does not serve you.
When you would be highly ITV, your body would need almost no rest or sleep! But when it falls asleep on a couch, it GETS rest. Sleeping on the sofa is not the cause of you, feeling bad. What lets you wake up feeling bad is probably not the sofa, but the side-effects of drugs, or (very likely) your SHAME. Probably because you know, the sleeping pills "are not good for you" and the over eating is "not good for you" and falling asleep on the couch is not "right".

Abe have once answered the question of how bad smoking would be for your health. They said, on a scale from 0 to 100, smoking would be a 4. And guilt would be 99!

[Paradise-on-Earth]

What am I doing at the moment?

I place Abraham cards, I listen to the vortex meditations and read the guide, I do Abraham exercises, and above all, find the better-feeling thought, wouldn't it be nice if?, focus block, appreciation

Maybe you have helpful ideas on how I can change the vibration of mirtazapine so that it only supports me when I sleep. I don't know how to formulate my wishes about this topic without going into denial. I'm a little frustrated at the moment, I have to admit, and maybe you have other great ideas too.

Don't hit it all so head on! It is common that people try to use Abe's wisdom as a tool with which they try to bang their life into shape. But the true clue is TO BE NICER TO YOURSELF, first and foremost. Abe often say

"We only have 1 answer: GET HAPPY. In any way you can."

And with our upbringing, this is easier said than done!
"Getting happy" means, to stop judging and bashing yourself for doing things "wrong".
"Getting happy" means, to care for what lifts your emotions, every step along the way, and not think thoughts that feel terrible.

We think if we would make us do stuff the "right" way, everything would be fine. But do we even notice how we feel, now, now, now? ...We have not learned to listen to our inner voice about what we like, or don't like! Instead, we are brave and socialized and jump through the hoops that society holds up for us, and call that "doing it right"! And most of that is fine. We came to be part of a functioning society!

But we have so MUCH MORE freedom to think- and do what would feel better, than we allow ourselves! We can smile about things, instead being p..* about them. We can wish those who seem to be "rascals" the very best and see them heal, instead of condemning them. We could relax, instead of tense. But most of all, we could control WHAT WE CAN CONTROL (which is only only only our own response to things, and our own thoughts and our focus). What would be HUGE!

And, we could drop everything that is NOT IN OUR CONTROL- which includes what others think and do, how the weather, the political situation etc etc, is.
So: caring for you OWN PIE, and letting go of anyone elses pie!

All of this comes down to a FOCUS, that feels good to you (or at least as relief). You can choose where you look. You have full freedom about what you think. And this both are enough to make or break your joy! ...Stop looking into the used toilette, so to speak. INSTEAD, look at the beautiful flower, the sky, the leaves in the wind... or at ANYTHING that feels light, happy, easy to you, here and now. And discipline yourself to drop all topics that feel hard, bad or even devastating!

Find things to appreciate- because THAT FEELS GOOD. Not for the ulterior motive to get your stuff. ...That can be small things, as your cozy bed or the beautiful view from your window, or a funny movie or a good song. Find something to appreciate about yourself!! Enjoy your favourite shoes. WHATEVER! This alone, when you practice it regularly in each day, would be enough to bring you good sleep, confidence and joy about your body, and release all pressure.

One resistance that I have already recognized is that I put a lot of pressure on myself, which works against me.

Exactly! RELAX. Practice relaxing! Release your tense shoulders, breathe deeply, breathe out, consciously. Do things just a bit slower, but more aware. Do this for 2 or 3 minutes, each time you catch yourself being tense.

Do this, together with going general, much more gentle and friendly, on all "your hot topics" that might give you fear, anxiety or guilt! (if you don't know about going general, google Abraham-youtube clips with that search-words. LOTS of material out there!)

Maybe you have helpful ideas on how I can change the vibration of mirtazapine so that it only supports me when I sleep.

That lies solely in your own hands, and in the story you choose to tell about it:
-When you expect it to have side-effects, it will.
-When you expect it to soothe you into nice happy sleep- it will do that.

It's ALL about your expectation, your focus and vibration! And when you manage to "get happy", or at least feel just a bit better and find some relief, you are doing it right. And then, again. And again. It is a journey!

[FloatingBoat]

hello paradise-on-earth

i am very grateful for your answers. i got in the background of this forum some supporting too. and both supports feel very well and empowering to me. you have a lovely way to bring these insights to me and i want to go in details now.

First of all, you are right. After reading your comment I realized that the medication side effects are not my problem and sleeping on the sofa is not my problem. the way I tell stories about these things are not in alignment with my desires.

I want to sleep in my cozy bed because I love it. It feels heavenly, it's dark because when I go to bed at night I darken the room and I have this wonderful mattress where it feels like I'm sleeping on clouds. I love sleeping late in a darkened room and then jumping up happily, knowing that whenever I want I can go back into this wonderful bed, just snuggle up in the blanket and start dreamily looking at these wonderful winter pictures in my room.

I got this wonderful message from my inner being(thank you spiritualcookie ) that my overeating is caused by the feeling of emptiness.

so i have a desire to feel fulfilled. in all the varietys. (@spiritualcookie i will continue my answers to you on private posts, i love you and paradise-on earth already )

Yes, the quote reminds me of how abe once said "we only have one answer and that's go into the vortex"

Yes, I understand that so that you mean that I can be nicer to myself and stress myself less and look at what feels good at the moment, what is the best-feeling thought and let go of a little more stubbornness and resistance and let more ease into my life. I think in practice I will also do it with Abraham by doing the exercises, reading what is good for me and not starting off in the permanent "I still have to do that" stage, but rather going with the flow. I'm not called "floating boat" for nothing.

Thank you to remember me to ignore all unwanted things and Look at all the beautiful things in my life. And when i am in the vortex i can tell another Story, this is a good example with mirtazapine. When im in the vortex i expect it to give me a wonderful sleeping. This is a very good hint.

(When you expect it to have side-effects, it will.
-When you expect it to soothe you into nice happy sleep- it will do that.)

So i will expect the second.

All the Details of your answer are so helpful to me that i want to share my joy about it with you.

Thank you so much.

I am expanding just by reading your Text

I will inform you about my babysteps. But it feels really good at the moment.

[Paradise-on-Earth]

hello paradise-on-earth

i am very grateful for your answers. i got in the background of this forum some supporting too. and both supports feel very well and empowering to me. you have a lovely way to bring these insights to me and i want to go in details now.

First of all, you are right. After reading your comment I realized that the medication side effects are not my problem and sleeping on the sofa is not my problem. the way I tell stories about these things are not in alignment with my desires.

I want to sleep in my cozy bed because I love it. It feels heavenly, it's dark because when I go to bed at night I darken the room and I have this wonderful mattress where it feels like I'm sleeping on clouds. I love sleeping late in a darkened room and then jumping up happily, knowing that whenever I want I can go back into this wonderful bed, just snuggle up in the blanket and start dreamily looking at these wonderful winter pictures in my room.

I got this wonderful message from my inner being(thank you spiritualcookie ) that my overeating is caused by the feeling of emptiness.

so i have a desire to feel fulfilled. in all the varietys. (@spiritualcookie i will continue my answers to you on private posts, i love you and paradise-on earth already )

Yes, the quote reminds me of how abe once said "we only have one answer and that's go into the vortex"

Yes, I understand that so that you mean that I can be nicer to myself and stress myself less and look at what feels good at the moment, what is the best-feeling thought and let go of a little more stubbornness and resistance and let more ease into my life. I think in practice I will also do it with Abraham by doing the exercises, reading what is good for me and not starting off in the permanent "I still have to do that" stage, but rather going with the flow. I'm not called "floating boat" for nothing.

Thank you to remember me to ignore all unwanted things and Look at all the beautiful things in my life. And when i am in the vortex i can tell another Story, this is a good example with mirtazapine. When im in the vortex i expect it to give me a wonderful sleeping. This is a very good hint.

(When you expect it to have side-effects, it will.
-When you expect it to soothe you into nice happy sleep- it will do that.)

So i will expect the second.

All the Details of your answer are so helpful to me that i want to share my joy about it with you.

Thank you so much.

I am expanding just by reading your Text

I will inform you about my babysteps. But it feels really good at the moment.

All of this is wonderful! You've got this! (and I'm so very glad I could help!)
Keep in mind, that this journey contains of small, joyful steps.

"The very next step is always doable, in reach and JOYFUL"!

In this small joyful (or, at least, relief-giving) steps, your life starts to become a joyful, light, friendly, happy unfolding!

[FloatingBoat]

Hello everyone.

the last few days I was very sick and before I got sick I watched an Abraham video where she said that bad thoughts disrupt the connection between the cells and the source. Before I got sick I had watched quite a lot of bad news about Ukraine Putin and So I had brought a lot of bad negative vibrations into my field of attraction, so I was susceptible to illnesses. Now when I was sick, I hadn't done anything to put myself in positive vibrations for some time, but today I made a great discovery. I did the Abraham exercise number 21 It's called claiming natural health. I took up this exercise as a meditation and during the meditation I noticed how I had more and more energy, I became much more positive and then I started doing some housework and noticed that I was slowly getting something back I'm getting fitter and it was such a nice experience that an exercise helps me get into a positive state so quickly that helps me get healthy again quickly. What also helps me are the positive films that Spiritual Cookie put in the list and I started recording a meditation in which I can create a virtual reality. That made me very, very positive and I had a feeling of enthusiasm the whole time

[Paradise-on-Earth]

When you ponder something and it feels bad- what that ALWAYS means is: Source does not agree.

Which can tell you a lot about your cells, but also about the political information we get fed with!!

It's amazing how fast and well all of this works, right? Kudos to you for applying it deliberately!

[spiritualcookie]

Before I got sick I had watched quite a lot of bad news about Ukraine Putin and So I had brought a lot of bad negative vibrations into my field of attraction, so I was susceptible to illnesses.

Because it feels bad to know about it, I am delightfully ignorant of all the bad news that's going on in the world

today I made a great discovery. I did the Abraham exercise number 21 It's called claiming natural health. I took up this exercise as a meditation and during the meditation I noticed how I had more and more energy, I became much more positive and then I started doing some housework and noticed that I was slowly getting something back I'm getting fitter and it was such a nice experience that an exercise helps me get into a positive state so quickly that helps me get healthy again quickly.

I'm so happy to hear you found the technique in Ask and it is Given to be so powerful and effective!

I want to re-read it now to remind myself of it

What also helps me are the positive films that Spiritual Cookie put in the list

yay! I'm glad the movies helped
They always help uplift me when I'm ill and don't have the energy to do much except watch something uplifting

I started recording a meditation in which I can create a virtual reality. That made me very, very positive and I had a feeling of enthusiasm the whole time

I love hearing how you're getting creative and creating recordings to help you! So cool!

[Leah Southey]

Oh boy, this one resonates with me too.

I take mirtazapine around 10 o'clock in the evening, especially to sleep. This often results in me having severe eating attacks.

How much mirtazapine do you take? I take 15mg, at night, also for sleep. What I didn't do was connect the drug with overeating. I've gone from a size 12 to a size 14 in the past year. It's like I'm permanently ready to eat.

I wouldn't dare stop taking it. I have C-PTSD and if I don't sleep I start heading for psychosis. I've got form for that.