The Abe Forum

So several months back I had a little breakdown and posted with the title, What's Holding Me Back? Curious, I revived the thread a couple of months ago, and was doing a little better, but not really in any different kind of place. However, BlissTrix pointed me to a thread that I had missed by a former user named Hands in the Clay, linked here: viewtopic.php?t=695 That post (metaphorically) slapped me across the face.

I've since been doing as well as I can with this advice, and have started to receive some answers, primarily to that question, "What's holding me back?" Firstly, I was only giving my progress weeks to have something to show for it, whereas, he says it should be closer to months. This allowed me to back off and just start enjoying life more.

More than that though, I've been recognizing my thoughts more. As a result, I've begun noticing minor discrepancies in my thoughts between uplifting and downer thoughts. This has helped me to be more aware of what exactly I'm thinking, and whether or not I want to continue putting focus there. In doing so, I've also found that my thoughts are going much more rampantly than I ever realized. (Who knew? I wasn't as enlightened as I thought? ) On top of that, many of them were (are still, but less now) thoughts of catastrophizing, or expecting negative outcomes, often from situations that I just make up in my head. Obviously that's not helpful, but having become much more aware that they're there, I'm able to focus either on something positive, or to just let the thought go and clear my head.

That last bit I'm working on much more. Prior to posting the other thread, I had managed to clear my head much more frequently for a couple of weeks, and had begun receiving visions manifesting in my mind. Note that they weren't things that I wanted that I was conjuring up in my head, but actual scenes I've yet to live being downloaded into my head (the best way I can describe it). One of the most vivid ones was finally getting to visit a friend of a friend's ecolodge that he built in Costa Rica (with that other friend there). I was enjoying his company while watching my 4 year old daughter laugh and play with a partner I have yet to meet (note that I'm divorced) across a screened-in outdoor patio there. It brought tears to my eyes, but shortly after was when I checked my bank account and posted that thread about losing patience, halting all the momentum.

Anyway, back to the point, I'm feeling much more at peace. I'm looking at the mountains I'm surrounded by every day (even multiple times a day) and feeling extraordinary appreciation for living here. Any time I'm doing something I love (photography, hiking, etc), I remind myself how lucky I am to be able to live somewhere I love and do things I love so frequently, with so much incredible wildlife around every turn. I've stopped comparing myself to a colleague who's much better off than me, which has released a lot of pressure I was putting on myself. I'm (much) calmer in traffic. I take meditation more seriously, and I start each morning with a more focused meditation now, instead of just breathing in a few breaths and thinking, "That's good enough." I feel more connected to and present with my daughter. I'm going about the action work that I need to do until my dream job takes over, but not putting a timeline on it - just enjoying it for what it is and appreciative that the opportunity's there. I'm not pushing any end result, other than just appreciating and enjoying each day. Whether or not my financial situation changes, especially urgently, isn't my concern anymore.

Being able to catch my thoughts quicker by being more aware of them, I'm able to put my focus where I want, which, as I've come to realize more recently, isn't toward positive goals or end results, but rather, just an appreciation and satisfaction with where I am, while at the same time just BEING in the moment instead of trying to make a different moment from that moment. One of Abraham's quotes that's always stuck with me is that there are times conjuring up what you want, even if it feels good, can still offer resistance. Now I finally understand that! If I find myself in a good place, I was always quick to start putting emphasis and focus on goals and things that I wanted, essentially changing the subject from something really great, to just, good, often because then I'd get caught up in the How. But I've found that to really maximize a moment for what it is, just be in it. Just enjoy it. Just be there and don't try to change the subject, even if it's something that seems positive, because that breaks the momentum of that moment.

Hope that helps someone out. Just wanted to share

Hi Mikec, that are wonderful news! Thanks so much for sharing!!
I'm sure you notice this- somehow indescribable- level of so much more peace, and ease, that comes when you slowly, organically, change your vibe, yes? To me, this was entering a whole new way of life. Which is hard to understand for those that fearfully zoom in on "needing" some specific stuff or person.

Life can be light and satisfying, and not regulated by fear. There can be so much more freedom and joy. And in embracing that, you enter a whole new league as "bouncing off point" to the next and the next steps! Wishing you SO much fun and clarity and sovereignty and sense of empowerment!


By the way, Hands in the Clay is a lady.

By the way, Hands in the Clay is a lady.

My mistake! Sorry for the confusion!

But yes, I am feeling much more relaxed. My financial position hasn't really changed much, but at the same time, it's not keeping me up at night anymore! Things just seem to be working out for the most part, and I'm ok with that.

mikec wrote: ↑Tue Nov 19, 2024 2:47 am

By the way, Hands in the Clay is a lady.

My mistake! Sorry for the confusion!

It is impossible to know just by the name, isn't it!

But yes, I am feeling much more relaxed. My financial position hasn't really changed much, but at the same time, it's not keeping me up at night anymore! Things just seem to be working out for the most part, and I'm ok with that.

THAT is the true shift. All else will come from that!

I have never met Hands in the Clay but loved reading her posts.

When I did some energy work on money, I had a strange dream and I felt another consciousness present in my dream, I knew it was Hands in the Clay. Later she confirmed she had a similar dream with a stranger and reading my post she found out the stranger was me

I have never asked how she looks like… I knew she lived in France… and I always imagined her as a white beautiful woman who moved in France, I feel that’s how she looks like. However, in my dreams she appeared as an elegant, beautiful black woman…

Does anyone know how she really looks like ? just curious…

Tara wrote: ↑Tue Nov 19, 2024 11:11 am I have never met Hands in the Clay but loved reading her posts.

When I did some energy work on money, I had a strange dream and I felt another consciousness present in my dream, I knew it was Hands in the Clay. Later she confirmed she had a similar dream with a stranger and reading my post she found out the stranger was me

I have never asked how she looks like… I knew she lived in France… and I always imagined her as a white beautiful woman who moved in France, I feel that’s how she looks like. However, in my dreams she appeared as an elegant, beautiful black woman…

Does anyone know how she really looks like ? just curious…

That's amazing, Tara!

I never saw her, either, she made sure that we don't know too much about her. She is an American, who was then working as a translator in Southern France. I don't know her own colors, but I, too, for whatever reason, have pictured her as white woman with blond hair. She loved the color purple, though, and used to write all her texts in it, with "Georgia"-font.

Yes, same here I imagined her exactly the same… a foreigner living in France surrounded by lavenders (perhaps due to her chosen font colour )

That's such a fun connection!

Also wanted to share something that happened to me today that was completely new. When I'm not fulfilling my dream job, I drive for Uber on the side to keep my schedule flexible. Today, someone gave me an extra $10 tip in cash. It's not terribly unusual, most people tip on the app but some give a little cash too which is nice. Normally when that happens, I instinctively wonder what I'll spend it on - most likely a decent lunch or something similar. But today something different happened. Instead of wondering what I could spend it on, my first reaction was, "Who can I give this to?" It was the first time I've ever thought that with money without trying to make something happen, or feeling obligated to give it away, and it actually felt SO GOOD! I decided I wanted to pay for someone behind me, but I only went into the grocery after that and it just felt a little off, so I'm hoping I feel more inspired to do it tomorrow. I'm definitely going to at some point regardless. But I take that as a pretty significant manifestation and one that was pretty hard to ignore! And I'm loving the way it makes me feel to think about it!

Also probably didn't hurt that I watched the movie, Crazy Rich Asians, for the first time last night (Not that I'm Asian,) But that's now one of my new feel-good go-to movies! Definitely worth the watch if you haven't seen it yet. Right up there with Paddington 2 (which I just rewatched just now ).